take my one last breath,
and don't forget.
that I will be
right here waiting.

i get up off my bed
as the thought of you
awakens me
i walk downstairs
and wash my shirt
but nothing removed
the stain of your memory

the stain of when i thought you let go
the pain that made me bleed
the pain of your succinct words
that always hurt to read

these flowery i love yous
were said last year
we don't say it anymore
but know that i'll always be here

i can forget what you said
forget the good & the bad
i can forget all the borrowed time
but i can't forget
what we had

i read your messages today
i smiled even when it hurt like hell
it hurt that i know things have changed
and we don't say the things
we used to tell

'forget them', you said
but you know i remember
i remember how i met you
or how we smiled
in the night
of the cold december

we have grown distant
we have grown apart
'stay', you said
when you never really left my heart

please stay until i'm gone
i'm here.
hold on to me
i'm right here,
waiting.

you got a fast car
i want a ticket to anywhere
maybe we can make a deal
maybe together
we can get somewhere
anyplace is better
starting from zero
got nothing to lose
maybe we'll make somethin
me myself i got nothin to prove

i've been wondering
when it stops
people say it stops
when you want it to
but how do i tell that
to my dreams
when all i can think about
is running up to kiss you
in the parking lot of anywhere
it makes me wanna drink
and say everything
like sometimes i think about
what it would've been like
if i had let you go
when i
was still strong enough to do it
like i never knew hell
had such a pretty voice
like i tried to make it all day
without saying
"wish you were here"
like lately i've been going back
to all the places we've been
to see what it's like without you
it is the worst game
of hide & seek
every time i close my eyes
to count
you just go home
i seem to only wear my seat belt
on days you call
on days you're all *never been better
and i just wanna tell you
how much I hate window shopping
and daylight goodbyes
you just sit there
when you could say anything
you could tell me
you noticed i started drinking again
you could even make it up
you could say you miss me, too
you could say
you missed me so much
that the other day
you accidentally bought
two coffees instead of one
you could tell me
how you've been
without me
that you sleep so much better
these days
without having to worry
you can say what you have
to just don't say leaving
was like shooting fish in a barrel
cause i swear i'm nostalgic
for things i pretended were real
and i swear
i don't want a seance
until there's something
worth bringing back
take me back
to all the places i tried to love you
back to a time
where i knew my name  
without you having to say it

*you got a fast car
is it fast enough
so we can fly away
you gotta make a decision
leave tonight
or live & this way

Every morning I wake
I put a mask on my face
A mask covered
with smiles and laughter
A persona that believes
in a happy ever after
Every morning I wake
I put on new eyes
So I can pretend
I never saw how
you felt inside
So I can pretend
I never saw
the tears that you cried
So I can pretend
I couldn't see
how our love has died
Every morning I wake
I put on new skin
So I won't feel your touch
that reminds me
of what we could have been
Every morning I wake
I break my own heart
Because maybe I'll forget
how badly you tore it apart


Every morning I wake
I put a mask on a face
to make people believe
every smile
that I fake

In this sea of faces,
yours is all I see.
In a room bursting with sunshine,
your eyes would be the one
to give light to me.
Are you happier with him
than you were with me?
Well, I want you to know
that wherever you are
I'm just hoping you're happy.
I hope he was your puzzle's
perfect missing piece.
I hope he's the perfect song
that always puts your mind at ease.
I hope he's the cup of coffee
or the fuzzy blanket that keeps you warm.
I hope he's the shelter to hide in
in the midst of a storm.
I wish I was the smile in your face,
the person that fills you with glee.
That person you gave yourself to,
I wish
I wish that was me.
I wish you well,
and my 'goodbyes', I bid.
I wish I've done all the things



that I never did.

You used to be my warmth.
But you went as cold as snow.
Hurt me,
and I'll still never find
courage to let go.

Maybe there's still a chance.
Maybe things won't
fade to black.
Maybe one day
maybe one day I'll have you back.

Maybe you'll bring back the sun.
And protect me from the rain.
Maybe one day,
it won't be hard for you.
For you
to love me again.

Darling, you can break me
into a million pieces
that again may not fit.
I will only put them back
together
and love you with it.

Day by day,
you know I've prayed.
Because without you
I am nothing
but afraid.

I'm holding on to something
that I can never get back,
I will still be here, though.
I think I've given up

with trying to let go.

Leave me,
and darling, let me go.
If you never loved me,
never let me know.
Your smile was my sunshine,
and now it's the pouring rain.
Your laughter sounded like love,
but now all I hear is pain.
The roses have died.
It's petals are decaying on the floor.
I thought the day would never come.
But the stars don't shine anymore.
What if I made things right?
I'd take out the flowers I hid.
What if I made things right?
If only.

If only I did.

You promised.
You said you'd leave me never.
You also taught me

that nothing can last forever.