Is it that hard to confess?
Oh let me change it,
Is it hard to tell the truth?

Lying on bed,
Wondering when will my life ends..
If living a thousand years give me heartbreaks,
I would rather die.

Told myself to stop,
Stop giving love they don't deserve.
Stop pretending to be okay and
Cry whenever I want to.
Carrying this broken heart is much more painful than I thought.
People believe that love can cure,
When don't even know
What real love means.
The word love has been polluted
By those who don't appreciate it.

From now on,
I'll no longer care what I feel,
Having so much problems makes my heart hardened,
My soul as just a soul,
My feelings fade,
I wish I could have another life,
So, that things like these would never happen again.

I write when I have no one to turn to.
I draw when no one understands my words.
I walk when the place has nothing great to offer anymore.

Nothing left inside this broken heart
Whose belong to a broken child.
Some say she's strong that she survives untill now but nobody knows the journey she had.
She only have one faith in her life,
Hoping that one day it will be heard.

The truth is everyone is afraid of death, so am I.

Here I am,
Thinking what would happen tomorrow.
Hoping it'll  be a better day.
To be honest, I miss home already.
I feel like everything seems to be wronged.
Nothing is right for now.
I can't stop thinking of my lil brother and my mum and my room.
I just want to spend all my life with books.
I wish I could but that's too much.
No one I could talk to, cuz everyone is having their own problems.
So, here I am, writting what's inside me.

They say the remedy to happiness is
By staying low and love everyone equally.
What if I had done that and yet, sadness still haunt me?
Who should I blame for?

I wish you were the sun that could keep me warm
I wish you were the moon that brings me the light
Then I realized
you were neither
but a rainbow
that stay with me
only after cloudy days.

At 22
I found out that
life *****.
No matter how hard I look at it,
even from different perspectives
I still find that
life *****
It couldn't get any better,
I had tried,
believe me
I really did.

Why is it so hard for you to love someone?
Is it a sin?
I guess you're too scared to love.
I can promise you that I will be loyal but you keep on pushing me away.
I would wait for you if you asked me to.
Is loving someone, a hard thing to do?
I'm getting tired day by day.
Waiting needs patience but
There's not much patience left in me.

The sun shines so bright,
guess it shall be
my forever true love's kiss.

Gentle breeze slaps my cheeks,
wonder why it is softer than your words?
And why,
why does your presence
hurt more than your silence?

When all we had
was beautiful memory.
And they said,
beautiful things are temporary,
I wonder if you count?

If love does exist,
why all that I ever felt was pain?
Sparks that were once there,
disappeared.

I wish someone could reach my hand
when I was still drowning
in the tears of darkness.
I'm scared,
afraid when I look at the depth of my own sorrow.
It's full of tragedy and trauma
that causes me anxieties.
Awaken at midnight as it haunts me.
I wish someone could hear me
crying for help

I'm in my room looking for the star, the brightest one of course through the window of my room.

You said stars light the brightest when they're in the dark but why  I can't see any of them in this dark heart of mine?