Ugh* I cannot sleep
I'm not even in wakeful limbo
Why even bother counting sheep
When I have to wake up and deal with mean ******

Ugh my frame tosses and turns
But all I want is to be deadly still
Because I feel the yearning burns
And all I want is a night nurse pill

Ugh my mind still keeps ticking
Dabbling from thought to thought
And my bed sheet won't stop clinging
Until I'm suffocated by the pain it's brought

Ugh it's too dark
But if it was lighter that's even worse
Still the shadows dance clean and stark
And sleep is now a curse

The warm safe haven
People wonder why I wear it
It's a layer between me and cold
A fluffy lamb to protect me from rain
And it hides my secrets
It protects me when I'm tired
As a place to lay my head
And it's very diverse of course
It just makes me feel
Nice
And it smells so familiar
Plus you can hide stuff in it
Ben and Jerrys ice cream spoons skipping ropes
I could go on
But it's just mine
So I can't explain how I feel
About it

Ouch I'm hurting
Can't you see it?
Because I see it perfectly
It flickers always at the edge of my vision
But you don't ask anything
Because you don't notice it
Why can't you see it?
I'm not going to tell you
And I'm not going to lie about it
But I want you to know
You're just too caught up
In all the everyday business
But maybe it's not your problem
Maybe I'm seeking attention
But it's so obvious
**Why can't you see it like I do?

A void is pulling at me
And I'm swallowed
Until I'm in a continuous mode
Don't sleep long enough
Always late always stressed
Never certain of anything
Always scared people will notice
The lines
But if they do see them
Run
Get far away
So you can't see your pursuers
And all you can see is
The lines
The ones that trapped you in the void
The ones who taunt you even still

Don't do this to me
I left her for you
And the sweet promise
Of a new best friend
But you are not phased
You drop those hints
To ward me away
But you are so outspoken
Why not just say it to my face
Because You say you have no feelings  
So why would you care
I just want to know
That I'm first for someone
But that's not happening
Without me clumsily pushing them away
And I never knew what it was like for you
But if you don't like me say
Because I'm sorry
And I've had my chance
I blew it on her
The girl I left for you
Please tell me where I stand
One moment I'm so happy
And then you swing polar opposites
So I question our friendship
Don't keep me in the dark
All I want to know is if I'm your first choice
Like you are mine

I don't know what to do
I'm mopey and depressed
So I will sit here and think
Of things that have been happening
But I don't laugh at once hilarious memories
I'm in that somber mood
But I know what not to do
Be productive
Be cheerful
Be lazy
Be active
Be tired
So I will just sit here and be
I will be my neutral self

I'm sick of you
And your demands
And your temper
And your attitude
And your bratty ways
And I don't want to stand for it no more
So I wont
I will try and leave you
And you will try to come back again
But that ain't gonna happen
Unless you learn from your mistakes
And actually apologise
Sincerely,truly,earnestly apologise
For what you have done to me
I bled for you
And you don't even know that
And I ain't telling you
Because I don't trust you with nothin
An from now on it is never gonna be the way it was
It may look like it
But I have put up a barrier between us
That won't come down easily
But I'll play nice
For the others sakes
Cause I don't wanna lose them
Over you cause it's not worth it