Sometimes life is unfair
Heartbreaking
And some days you just want to hide
But the most rewarding part
About life
Is through all the hurt and pain
You finally rediscover yourself
And look back on your past life
And say i made it

Quality over quantity
Always has been my motto
Forever and always
Love your friends for who they are
Rather than wishing for something more
Keep your friends close
So they don't have a opportunity
To slip away

People think they know me
Do you know about
My abuse, friendships, life
ED, cutting, Aspergers
Depression and anxiety?
No, don't you dare judge me
You don't know my story

I keep saying you don't understand
I'm telling the truth
Maybe you try
But can't you see that isn't enough?
Do you understand what it's like
To be stuck in a self-destructive brain?
Do you understand what it's like
To feel numb to your emotions?
Do you know what it's like
To feel everything's going to go wrong
If you decide just this once
And lift the fork to your mouth?
Do you understand what it's like
To have the sight of blood
And the number on the scale going down
Gives you a high like a alcoholic?
No, now do you see why
You don't understand?

Young girl
Bright eyes
Cheerful smile
Crumbs of chocolate
On the corners of her lips
No worries
No cares
Dreaming of the days ahead
Anyone could get into my world
Nothing to hide
Full grace
Nothing could take away
Her high of life
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You said forever and always
You would be by my side
Whispering in my ear
Everything would be okay
If it's not okay it's not the end
You promised
You would put all my broken
Pieces back together
What if i'm unfixable?
Constantly searching
For a brighter soul

It's not that bad, you say
You have no idea what i endure
Every day in my own mind
Tidal waves pulling me under
I could be totally lost at sea
You would never know
Because i'm not physically deteriorating
But i was mentally gone
So long ago
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
Pretty soon
My physical body
Will catch up just wait and see
Now they're on their way
To the last part that makes me human
Uh, oh to late she's dead
"We had no idea" they said
You could have saved her
You were too naive to see
Demons always start at the mind
Then send more
Draining the life
Flooding with poison
Life is a lesson
A mental illness doesn't have to be physical

Did i say you wanted your opinion?
No, leave me alone
You know my name
Not my story

Feeling like a zombie
Moaning for the day ahead
I'm a zombie
People terrified of me
I don't want to be a zombie