Someone give me peace
Give me strength
To fight my demons
They know how to swim
They are smart
Will wait for the right moment
To attack
When i finally
Find peace
With my own thoughts
In my head

It gets worse
Before it gets better
ED wants all his control over me
He will die
When i suddenly learn
How to live life
Without him
The voice is now gone
With the faint noise of life
Coming through
ED will fight his way in
When i finally learn to value
Myself and how to cope with life
He is adamant on keeping me
To his evil world
I know i can't give in
Then i will be stuck
In his destructive grip
Once again

Speaking is hard
Eating is hard
Breathing
Is questionable at times
When you feels so invisible
No one will care
No one will notice when you are gone
They never cared enough anyway
I'm not crazy
I try to tell myself
I'm just a teenager
Trying to find a way
But the fact is
I am crazy
Crazy not to eat
Crazy to hurt myself
Crazy enough to have no friends

I'm scared
Of losing
What i already leave
Don't you see
This is a part of me
Don't want to lose
The thing
That's been there for me
All along

Control has always been an issue
Control over how i was born
Control over everyone and everything
Interesting concept
I control my food
It's not about losing weight
It never was
Control was my issue
Sense of safety among a thing
Food is the only thing
That i can control

Shrek
Ugly ogre
Happy villagers
Are so so happy
Shrek the play
Fiona a beautiful princess
Shrek and Fiona united together
What is meant to be will be

This is now
The first step
To the hardest thing
I've ever gone through
Now here i am
Emotions stuffed down
As far as they could be
Numb from the world
Except for food and the blade
This is the first step
To opening those wounds
To begin this thing
Called recovery
A scary realization
The only person that can save me
Is myself
I've been running from myself
For so long
Now it's time
To let go
And give my troubles and anxieties
To my grandfather up in the sky
He's the higher power
That can tell me
It will all be okay