Depressed
From life
From the cold stares
Mean voices
Feeling invisible in every room
I turn
I'm done
With trying my hardest
I'm all alone
With no one to turn to
When i need distractions

Want to be normal
Want to be okay and happy
I feel the panic rising
Dead inside
I so badly
Want to drain my demons
Set them free
I'm scared
Someone please hold me
Tell me nothing bad is going to happen

Nobody ever stays
Which is understandable
I'm too much
Too crazy
Too much in every which way
I don't know what to say
I'm sorry
I don't want to rip your hand
Out of mine
We're meant to be
Attached to the hip
Like we always were
I'm sorry
I understand
If you don't want to be seen
With the crazy girl
With scarred arms
I know
All i can say is i'm sorry

I'm scared
My past life has risen
Once again
I'm scared
Of losing another human
Who can put up with me
Stuck in a spiral
Thoughts drown me
Need closure
That this isn't what i think it is

Want to cut
Want to feel
So much for trying
My demons
Can't be trapped any longer
They need to play
But don't worry
They always come back
When they're hungry for the blade

My words
Not my words
My eyes
Not my eyes
My soul
Definitely not mine
I've turned into ED
Call me Ana or Mia
That's what i've become

I wonder
What everyone else
Says about their bodies
Without an ED of course
Brains who aren't poisoned
Mind isn't controlled by food and evil
I wonder
What it's like
To not have to engage
In ED's world
Where i'm stuck in a bouncy castle
One minutes up
Another down
One second trying to break free
Another being flung backwards
By Ana and Mia
Where they destroy young souls
Don't let them take your children
It turns them
Into monsters
That can never be redeemed