by the scarlet
across the sea
i sit quietly

the sun shines
the fan blows
the wind runs free

so little to do
so much to see
dread swimming far
but unaware

of my smile

somewhere hope lies in wait
hunting hide and seek
thinking it has hidden

fear not your fate born
bless your lost loves

you are alive
the sun is rising

smile again
fear of the unknown

is the dark cave
where the weak hide

i'm your huckleberry
yes, I'm coughing blood
the glass is broken
death is smiling while kissing my tongue

i'm your huckleberry
the white devil on the black horse
play a game with me
and you can fall as well

barely a problem
worth a listen to tell
we can laugh together
in a bar in hell

i'm your huckleberry
this time drinks are on me
i'm not angry at you
in eternity we'll have time to see

we were always friends
who only had fun being enemies

this time you can trust me

I'm your huckleberry

what have you done?
quick
run
rinse

do what you have to dispense

keep the dance up
while your mind plays
in many eyes
you're just in the way

though smile as well
some cups are full
there is a scarlet castle
built across a sea for you

the idea in your head
is the one you feel can't be said

it's the broken part of yourself
the pieces you can't find

your actions are harsh and rash
your breakage is too bad

you've lost the plot
you don't know the story of your own life anymore

when the eyes are pumping
there is no going back
there is no acceptable apology

Doom found us anyway
He cares not for our cries
He laughs as he drinks the tears from your eyes

I'd spill the blood for you
I'm not asking
we're way past that that day
i am your witness ...

i am your witness
that my hands were bound
my teeth were ******...

...but now I'm tired
I'm sorry, Susan
I truly did love you

you'll never know
I'm not so evil
to ever burden through again

like the watching bird
i still live
no one is watching

it's all a game of when

indeed, it's a wow
went through a lot
hate
love

no speak
then all talk

you never saved me
I never saved you

somehow...
we both made it through

when the anger is flowing
and the diamonds are falling
the cake is burning
the words are  leaking

the smile is falling
the lips still move upward
no more hate
just looking a the time

just waiting

just waiting

why would anyone care about my problems?

I possess them
they are mine
they are like children
they are just a delay

I should not burden
anyone else
with the **** that flows
down my leg

everything wakes up
the brain
the dreams
where we're seeing our parallel self

that moment
of impending doom
that just happens
when your soul talks to you

try to explain
getting nowhere
all this journey
just to get to nowhere

i see you hiding
not even sad anymore
silly emotion scabbed over
healing is a process for...

...something barely understood
that time is not your enemy
she is your friend
keeps you safe when you're scared


she smiles in her own slight way
as she casts down her smile
she will make those who have sought
to destroy you find her true ways

Christmas lights at night
are cold
they are freezing
mesmerizing
you are looking at nothing
you are looking at something

comfortable, opening
sad, quiet
they shine on
illuminating the mirror
you are looking at nothing
you are looking at something

every
particle of dirt
must be destroyed

there is a battleship
in the spaceship
of your heart

it will destroy
even the dust who
dares stray to your parts

do unto me what has been done to you

fear is no longer king
we are breaking
we are smiling with blood in our teeth
we are the truth of fairy tales

watch both our destruction
across a river
just wave
don't worry, you need not move

it will swim to you

dancing like a stalking butler
dancing like your future grave

the hole is just waiting
the hole is playing your tune

the wind blows you there
though you seem not sadly

yet, he is not brave
the soft breeze just waits

your mistakes are coming
they'll meet you gladly

maybe hiding in a bush
maybe in another's hand
there is no answer
until you feel what's left inside
in your hand

do you want to see though ?
if what you have protected
loved
kissed
is where you left it?

here
on the edge of sea
there lives a dragonfly

steel boots
can kick in doors
the dragon just flies

here
at the edge of time
we drown in our sweat

well, he
he just flies away
finds a butterfly

finds a way to bite

knowing you're going to win
but still have to take that last swing

your arm is hurting
but you're relying on it for everything

the blood in your teeth
the look in your eye

they know you're not afraid to die

it scares them all
in their hearts
playing in their face

they know you're the evolution
of the human race

the room is comfy
the bed is comfy

you're trying to decide what to do
staring at the walls any longer
just doesn't seem right

stare
think
stare

water your plant
try to think of ideas
to somehow save yourself

he sits alone
he rests alone

asleep alone
awake alone

dancing to tunes
with a fiddle only he can play

he plays all the hits
just like a game

your move, world
I'm still here

the long walk
back in the heat

a 100, 000 car honking at you
when the walk sign is clearly on

entitled feeling people yelling
you have choice except feeling

each foot in front of the next
understanding basic traffic rules

they are the one who is stealing

you're still breathing
so check
just to be sure

anger lives around
it plays in our backyards
check your hands

are they shaking?

what do you do?
when it's hiding behind you?
when it sneaks up on you?

oh, you tricky
tricky
tricky

you think I don't see
I see more than you know

step up your game
your tactics are getting obvious

left to right
right to left
up
down
up down

over again
the two I can rely on
left to right
right to left

good catch!

there lives a rattlesnake
he is cunning
his tail is wagging

evolution has made him
your enemy
watch out for the bite

do you remember where your hole is
or are you praying as you dodge and weave?

how bad will it be if caught
how harsh will the bite be?

keep running rabbit
it's an endless race

as I hide who I really am
the dance continues

smile

you're on the eyes of everyone around you

walk across the garden of deception
be afraid of the roses
they have a magic
but it's not meant for you

they're quiet
they expect something from you

your mind is on you
you can't possibly know what they want

you want to please
you can't possibly know the words to say

they're quiet
they expect something from you

asking them to speak up
only makes them quiet down

boom!

ideas flow off my head
like a light being lit
I say what needs to be said
I'm tired of the fake ****

we're all dying
waiting for the end
if we are to start living
we must begin

i struggle with the keys
i struggle with me

a fierce exists there though

hiding
but
its everywhere in me

i keep going
because the only direction

is forward

it's true
you're back
but I'm too busy laughing
to care

shoot
if you have the *****
go ahead
muscle can't stop bullets

so go ahead
its just a click away
i'll see you in hell
either way

clear the tears
wake up
we're either
yes, we're either
dreaming or dead

up to you to decide which

it will never matter what
you chose
though

what a sad world
born into knowing we're leaving

who knows where?

are you
an animal
a beast? ?

are you
nothing
but a shell?

does it hurt?
when that dagger comes in
when the truth stabs you

or do you smile?
does being alone
make you whole somehow?

walk, walk, walk
you wake up
walk, walk, walk
you wake up

now laundry
now drying

walk, walk, walk
straighten your left arm
walk, walk, walk
stretch those muscles

make them pay you
for being born with you
no worries
they'll get stronger

you might need them for something more serious

ever find yourself pretending?
just doing whatever for whatever
so they hear the noise
this is how feeling nothing works
just the emotions
your dead eyes looking forward as you move

the ambulance drives by
the domestic going on nearby

we sit in silence
while chaos reigns around us

we're not even sad
we're just glad

it's not us

watch them self-destruct
so go ahead and mate
like that's going to help
in all the **** you're bending

all of it you bending it through
it just never ends with you

I'll sit and wait
I'll sit and play
but there where will come a day

the sad day when you knew I was right

i need this
to make me whole?
no, you don't

the pieces that have been broken away
they're gone
bad news
not coming back


so get up
wash your face
enjoy the pieces you still have

it's not scary
wake up
the dreams are over

welcome back
to real life

ah
it all washes away
no worries
just kick'em up

relax

easy as a summer's breeze
beautiful like an autumn's eve

you're a houseplant
you're an object
it doesn't matter what you say
no one is listening anyway

softly patient
will always win
let them destroy themselves
then you begin again

scared
strong

full of so much compassion
when everything is exploding of desperation
when all the walls are falling
you walk through the emotional rubble

surrounding you

living with hope
becomes its own chore

might as well keep fighting
until i fade away or die trying
bleed out
**** it

this is no poetry
this is real life
this is anger
this is sweat

it helps i don't care who loses or wins

give in
its right there
all the temptations
love
drugs
alcohol

pick your poison

just be ready for the hammer
because it never ends well

without fear we have nothing

have you nothing?
are you nothing?
are you sickened ?
are you sick and scared?

la
lalalalala
lala

wake up!
feel this!
you fool !
you sad idiot!
wake up!
feel this!

la
lalalalala
lala

you are smiling
laughing
feeling
can't you see
anything?
anything at all?

la
lalalalala
lalala

the person in the mirror
your own dead look that lives in your eyes
the sadness that lives
with understanding who you truly are

the sadness that lives
like a prisoner in the cellar
waiting for someone to let it out
so it can run free

as my body gets harder
my suit fits better

with every fighting motion
i lose less and less

with each passing laughable win
i become less afraid

as i wait for the inevitable
i'm blowing bubbles