I get my words like I get my dreams.. Alone by myself in a world that seems.. Black and magical.. Floating on a cloud. My heart is screaming save me but no one here's a sound. They come to me like music throughout the air.  My heart screams save me.. But oh world you do not care. Why don't you care? You made what I've become. Alone and drunk.. Musical heart with no beat. Hear it's music.. It's silent it's asleep. To many times I have longed to see your face.. To many times my heart has beat it's final race. For your emotions. Your love. Your final partner. Id die for you my love.. Ad be loves deathly martyr. But am not required. This Position has been filled. The beat of my heart asleep so slowly becomes just still. You've killed me.. Although I still but breath.. I better hide away.. To the shadows I take my leave. For in the shadows you still but find a lonely friend.. Black creature of death that stalks my lonesome end. but a creature you do but slowly start a love.. A creator a being that sends you feelings.. Words plucked from above. Does god but smile or god but sin.. Gave me a life.. But gave me love a lonesome thing. You've gave me a love.. That no one dare but share.. This heart of love you gave a man.. But Cupid you are not there.

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I live my life through words and emotions.. My words are the poison.. Your heart is the potion.

How do I start this.Where do I begin? To Peace together words.To make you feel something. Something that connects you to my words from  within? Do they rhyme? Or tell a story? Where do I begin? Do I  begin to tell you about my falls of this life? Or do I simply rhyme together letters that make me sound alright? Do I tell you of my heartache? My utter despair? Or do I tell you of happy places where dreams only dare. Go to.. To feel.. I could write you make believe but I'll keep this segment real. To feel the pain I hide within you must first enter my soul..And look upon the ghosts that blacken me so slow. Fueled by pleasures that turn me to a clown..looked upon by people that don't want me around.Saddened and angered for what this god has done.Your  acts upon me have made me come undone.Do you look upon me and laugh to all your friends.. Is my life some sort of movie witch has no written end? A life with no script.. Directed by no name.. I rolled your dice but never win life's game.. Lovers leave me.. They all sound the same.They all are distant eco's.. They do not feel my pain. That you gave me.. I am walking down the street.. girls walk by but our eyes they do not meet.. Nothing is real.. Only my words.. Feel me in the sky through the songs of the birds. If nothing I have achieved..know i love you all.. Then my life is not wasted my friend..Through you ill never fall.

Look upon my words... Hello Poetry... Do you feel my emotions or do you not see? Or don't you understand what I am trying to bring.. To you my dear listener.. Am trying to do my thing.. With this paper and pen that's sees me in the dark... It's like your my god and am only bringing the spark.. To ignite this fire that burns within my soul.. Laugh and cry be happy that's my goal.. Throughout my words capture that emotion.. Of love of life of death the motion.. That carries me forward throughout this life... Am cast to the darkness never to feel the light of life.. I am Jonathan but to you the name on the screen... I just write words but you peace together my dream.. I cut myself into peaces... Humble and true.. You bring me together and mend me with glue. You hold me together.. You share in my life.. You give me the power.. You give me my life.. Hello Poetry you write me my end.. Dear reader can't you see... Your my only friend.

Ill never forget leaving , I didn't want to go , my heart so full of love for you it's truly breaking slow , I remember staring at you , holding you like this , never knowing back then this would be our final kiss . I stare up in the moment we have dreaded from the start , when we got back together exchanging promises to never part . I take your hand.. I kiss it softly.. I really have to go ,watching every step away regretting on you letting go. Then am gone and you vanish , I look to catch one last sight, But your not there anymore and I have to catch my flight, But I steal myself one moment and stare at that empty space .. For you will never fill my eyes again .. Ill never see your face.

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Look for me I am the moon , look for me I am the stars , look for me I am the sun , I am there wherever you are .

Take me to the garden where time has no name , where life itself cannot leave it's impression on the brain , where people before me have fallen , to the ills of this life , where I cannot emulate the savior and come back twice . Death is an angle that falls from the sky , sometimes to strike without a tear or goodbye , his wings hide his black heart , his tainted skin , the commander of souls who's sometimes named grim , take me away for I am
Your friend , god makes my passage and this is my end .

I dreamed a dream , inside the dream
It seemed to say , 1 more hit for one more day , heavenly maiden with devil like beauty , lay out your evil insnare the mind , so I can unleash the beast that sleeps inside , awake from this creative slumber to walk the hall and fantasize ****** , join my hand , witness the Christ the raptured being , from a golden cloud with life's hidden meaning , cancel my subscription to the resurrection , send my credentials to the house of detention , watch the alcoholic Navajo shaman fuel my soul , awake lizard king from your coffin of gold , Paris is where you lay while light my fire resounds on the surface above . My music lives on although I do not . Skin rots to wood , wood rots to earth , earth grows to trees , trees are cut to make the pencil , pencil writes these words taken directly from your creative soul , the lizard king is dead , so i am told

You stand there pleading but she's sure.. She's that sure she's leaving she's nearly out the door.. You stand there your hurting.. But what can you do? Life's a driver and you feel like your the *****.. Going deeper and deeper implanted in the wood.. Your hearts there splintering when only she could.. Mend you back.. Put the pieces in place.. Life's a long journey but she's pulled me out of the race.. How can you do this.. Your all that I am..? You stand there looking but you do not give a Damm.. Ill write you a poem a song in tow..Anything to stop you leaving.. Do not go.. But as the door shuts.. It's the final part.. Thats the final piece broken of my heart.. I cry and I cry and I want you so.. I want you like no other but still you ******* and go.. Broken love turns to sorrow that slowly turns to hate.. That slowly turns to love again in the form of another mate.. Then you become but a distance memory.. Your love it hurts me right now put in the future I'll be free.

I see my lover everyday but everyday day she stays away.. Every day she walks on bye.. Her figure blurry through the tears in my eyes... My heart races suddenly for I know you are near.. My love the world holds not enough years.. For you to feel the full extent of my emotions.. My life is poison but you are its potion..But I cannot drink you.. For you are forbidden.. I cannot show you my love.. I'll keep it pure and hidden.. Away from eyes that try and look in.. Away from lies that would start to begin.. To take you away.. Like the stars leave the night.. They would take you away until my night has no light.. I want you to feel me.. Beside you for all time.. The moon shall be yours forever with ultimate shine.. Through all time if you'd only let me inn.. But my love walks away.. And the blackness begins.

Soul of mine what troubles you so ? Trapped in this world that bleeds me slow. Mind of mine trapped in you'r cage don't fear memories of my younger rage ,  trapped in my asylum looking for sanctuary in this labyrinth of pain i was never meant to win life's game . no where to run no where to hide ,save me from the screaming beast that lives inside . Angel women with you'r radiant beauty set me free , I can't take it anymore , you hold the key to the asylum door , you'r heart can't love me , it refuses so , i am destined to stay in my asylum forever more .

Step into my life.. What do you see? The bluest ocean or the darkest sea.. Do you see the sun or do you see the moon? The world is a house of which it has no room.. For me.. Forever outcast in the shadows of men.. Paper and pen slowly becomes your only friend.. But whatever you feel for me.. Do not shed a tear... A ghost of fallen souls I have been for years.. Quickly was forgotten in this time filled world of man... The dead cannot cry it's only the living that can.

I saw an old man walking by the side of the lake , he  turned and whispered somethings not right ? I walk among the creatures of night , with the moon as my shelter the stars as my light I do not walk this earth anymore somethings not right , I am a ghost of many a year gone bye , stalked by women and children that cry , stuck in a cell were no light is seen , and the god I worship cast me down like a feind , I lived a life full of Ill repute , shellfish untold before now , there was no applause to my life no fairwell crowd , a lonley man stood at my grave , Lamentations and verse about this fallen brave , but I am not , nor never I find a bit of bravery a bit peice of mind , life is cruel rotten unjust to carry on is the question of must ? For who I am you lips should say this old man who's lost his day ? am no stranger for I am you , telling the tale of what life has for you . Change you'r ways or never youl find that bit of bravery that bit peice of mind .

Cupid you fool , what have you done ? Given me this heart that only she can strum , an arrow that broke solely with me , A lust to have her only for me , a beauty that embodies my eternal love , thanks to the baby angel above , grant me the strength , twin our souls so We can share in life's bitter blows , together forever I pledge it true , shoot that arrow to my love from you.

A love that leaves you broken , Leaves you broke for long , a love that leaves you broken connects you to a song .. When only when you want her but she slowly drifts away , like smoke in the sky she disappears but your begging her to stay.. You promise change to no avail ,you promise that you'l die for her you promise You wont fail , A chance is all you want to show what you will become .. Broken strings on my guitar heart that she can only strum ... Despair gives way as she walks away .. Screaming thoughts in time ! My love..my love..my only love your the brightest star that shines ... My love will stay pure for you until the end of time..and even then won't be enough , to show you that your mine , ill wait for you forever my love that's only how I feel.. ill wait until the sun goes black and the universe  isn't real , so till then Goodbye my love or will you'l slowly realize that what you'v truly missed and then it's to late to say ..... I love you .

I met a girl under the stars of night , her beauty radiant to my delight , my gaze was stuck apone her face , she embodies  the soul beauty of the Human race , she looked at me with smile in tow ,I'll never love another so why dose she go , she brushes past to my dismay , the night gets blacker and I stay , watching her as she gose bye my love the creature that smiled me hi . Do not leave me do not fear , I would catch you falling if you'd only be near but you go on and I stay in my heart it's  night forever when shall it be day ?