It’s about to be a cruel winter
“I miss the missus” cried the lonely mister
What was once sweet is now bitter
I watched all the leaves fall and wither
It’s official!..this is the worst season
Peoples hearts are so cold for no reason
We’re supposed to vibe and be merry
And drink wine from the blackest berry
I took a sip now I can’t see clearly
My misery and anxiety all left alone
Like a dog with no bone I’m a man with no soul
I’ve been missing peace
She’s the missing piece
I hope it gets warm soon...

I wake up and pray everyday for hope
Hope makes us wish
Its one of the purest positive emotions
We’re certainly not in control of what the future holds
We write our stories and watch how they unfold
Yes it might not go as planned but that’s the spirit of being human
Our greatest strength lies in our ability to keep rising anytime we slip and slide down this slippery ***** called life
I pray for better days filled with laughter, merriment and inner peace

What if... for instance
You moved far away, would you wanna try this long distance thing?
Well, I know I would..
Even if we’re worlds apart
No matter how far away you are
I don’t wanna cause you scars from a broken heart
We’re in different time zones
My day is your night and vice versa
Her name was vanessa
And she vanished from my sight like a ghost
We did the wrong things but she was right for me
She’s got high standards, I lowered my expectations
The longer the distance the shorter the conversations

To be honest i know i lie a lot
What good is saying the truth when there’s no proof
Been running away from my problems like a horse making my mark on the earth with my hooves
To be honest you know you lie a lot too
Telling me things like i love you just so we could break the rules
Telling your friends how i broke your back with the weight of my emotions
I was curious so i guess i did **** the cat
All i ask is that you be honest with me cause honestly honesty isn’t my strongest suit

**** she left me damaged when she left.
I was so amazed, like I was bewitched by her mage prowess
To blind to see what was right in front of me
I fell for her like rain but she left me in the dust
That’s why it hurt more, I was slept on
Well never again
One shot for the pain, and a couple more shots till my clip is empty
Barrels fully loaded I’m making a lot of noise
Much like toys life is only fun when there’s someone to play with
Okay seems like I drank a bit more than I could manage
The walls of the dam in my heart have been damaged
Now I can’t hold back the tears

I wish life could be easier
I wish life could be prettier
              Like you
I wish things could be different
I wish things could be perfect
              Like you
I wish I could no wrong
I wish I could always stay strong
              Like you
I wish you could see yourself through me eyes and realize there’s no one
              Like you

These days its been hard to keep my sanity
Constant thoughts overflowing through my mind like an endless stream of different possibilities
Am I right?
Where do I go from here?
Unanswered questions that leave my mind distraught
I keep applying pressure but I’m a  broken heart that can’t stop bleeding
Tears falling faster than my eyes blinking
Food for thought but I’m quite full from all this overthinking

Imagine what would’ve happened if we never met
Would you be happier?
Would I be lonelier?
Would you still be longing to meet someone like me?
Questions that puzzle my mind right before I hit send
I put my all in from the get go while you belonged to the streets
You belonged in my sheets yet you were undercover the whole time
You showed your true colors when you went out painting the town red, leaving me to bleed out
Now you’re asking me to imagine what would’ve happened if we never met?
There’s no need to imagine cause the you I thought I knew never existed