i wonder what it would be like if you were here
would you wipe my tears? laugh away my fear?
would you protect me from our mother?
are you my sister or my brother?
if im lucky, maybe even one of each
my dreams are way to high to ever reach
was it our mothers smoking
that had you trapped in her womb, choking?
or was it just god changing his mind
leaving only the memory of you guys behind
i cant help but hope you would have loved me
and not let our parents view me so terribly
id be your favorite little girl
youd protect me from the dangers of the world
id like one to be a brother to protect me from dad
and a sister to cheer me up when mom makes me sad
somehow my hearts still badly torn
that the two of you were never born
please take me away to be with you
but what if you hate me too?
cause i cant seem to do anything right
thats why im wondering about you tonight
would you guys maybe give me a break
even if i do make mistakes
maybe you would hold my hand
hug me tight, and tell me you understand

i wonder what it would be like if you were here
would you wipe my tears? laugh away my fear?
would you protect me from our mother?
are you my sister or my brother?
if im lucky, maybe even one of each
my dreams are way to high to ever reach
was it our mothers smoking
that had you trapped in her womb, choking?
or was it just god changing his mind
leaving only the memory of you guys behind
i cant help but hope you would have loved me
and not let our parents view me so terribly
id be your favorite little girl
youd protect me from the dangers of the world
id like one to be a brother to protect me from dad
and a sister to cheer me up when mom makes me sad
somehow my hearts still badly torn
that the two of you were never born
please take me away to be with you
but what if you hate me too?
cause i cant seem to do anything right
thats why im wondering about you tonight
would you guys maybe give me a break
even if i do make mistakes
maybe you would hold my hand
hug me tight, and tell me you understand

The part of me i thought was special, i guess isnt. the part of me i was proud of, i no longer am. the part of me that loves to write, i kicked her out.

i dont want everyone to know
about the side of me im afraid to show
a part of me thats just so ugly
i dont need the whole world to see
im like jelly, trapped in a jar
to open me is just to hard
you might as well just throw me in the trash
and let my soul burn to ash
to expose my thoughts is to break my wing
because without my secrets i am  nothing

I refuse to truly open yp
And never give away my trust
Everyone will let you down
Without even a simple warning sound
I'll admit my heart is filled with hate
Maybe that's just my desperate fate
Being hurt and left to die
All alone i scream and cry
People lie and words can hurt
Thats why happiness never works
The anger inside me is loudly roaring
And the pain im feeling is badly burning
Everyone seems so hostile and violent
But really we're all just weak and silent

the very cruelest of them all
The mirror that loves to see me fall
Breaks me and forces me to crawl
Tears me apart, taunts me for my flaws
Tells me i need to look like the celebrities
It denies me of my own identity
A mirror that holds me to nothing but perfection
When i fail it reflects only rejection
its always unhappy with my weight
Showing me nothing but laughter and hate
im to fat or thin to be of worth
I swear my body is cursed
The sight of myself is my biggest fear
Society is the cruelest mirror

i need to let you know
That i cant let you go
You have my heart
Youve had it since the start
Like an invisible key
Youre the only one that gets me
You're my better half
The side of me that laughs
You bring out the best in me
And all my friends agree
you're my favorite view
and i dont know how to tell you
That you're the one for me
Oh my god...forget ive said anything
Ill just wait and let you see
That you're the one for me