I'm damaged
Dented, torn and broken
I have wear and tear in all my places
     from years of being built up...
          ...just to be hammered down
Years of emotional turmoil from someone that should have been a support
                                                                                                                           instead of the dynamite.
In places where I shouldn't have been hurt
I now have barbed wire up to protect
The things that were done to me,
                                       said to me,
                                       or put upon me by you...
                                                                                   ...make me who I am it's true.
But some experiences are best not even told in horror movies let alone lived;
                                                          by someone who thought they were loved.
Words and phrases of endearment kept me there
Even through the pain
I thought I could fix it.
You leaving me hurt at first I admitt
Codependency is an awful thing.
But I soon realized that I don't need you, desire you or want anything to do with you.
My life is better off without you and your mind games.
I may be dented,
Hell I may even be infixable from all the crap you put me through.
But now that I don't care what you think I can live with my dents and tears.
Makes me a better person to know that while I am strong enough to deal with a hell relationship
     I will never allow myself to be in one again.
     I won't allow myself to be treated like that again.
I know now that I am too good for you
For where I offered you everything...
                                                                 ...you offered nothing except for lyes and cheating.
I moved on, something I was told you really hated.
I'm now truly loved by someone who I intend to share the rest of my life with
Someone who loves me for me and is working to repare the damage you left.
Good-bye to all your crap and pettiness
I don't miss you the way you wanted me to.
I'm happy and there's nothing you can do about it except for sulk.
You're not the one putting the smile on my face.
Never were and never will be.

I'm afraid of loosing you.
Afraid of seeing you leave;
     like all we had together were words written in sand
Instead of engraved in our hearts.
Afraid that one day you won't look at me with the love you do today
Afraid you'll walk away and not look back
     as if all we were was dust in the wind.
I've been plauged with nightmares
Everynight; the details change with them all
    but the end is always the same.
I loose you. I loose us.
The love I see in your eyes and hear in your voice: gone.
Everynight I don't see you...it gets worse,
     the nightmare progresses.
The time we spend together makes it better
     shows me that you and I are meant to be.
But the days or weeks I go without
     are like weights on my heart dragging me down.
They make my fear seem more real.

A romantic night
Just for two
That's what I want
     Just a moment with you.
And hopefully one can turn into two
     And two into three
Who knows, this could lead to eternity.
That's what my heart wishes for.
For with your arm
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Wrapped in your embrace.
Feeling your warmth
     Hearing your heart.
Your eyes
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Staring into that perfect world that they create
Knowing that the way they look back at me
     You feel the same.
Your lips
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Feeling them upon mine
The softness and sweetness of honey
Yet with a fierce intensness telling me to never stop.

Just a moment
A moment alone with you
To turn one into two
And two into three
And three into eternity.

Someday soon
right around the corner
I'll be waking up to start my day by you.
The alarm may go off at 6am
and I can promise I'll be tired and grogy
but engulfed in your arms embrace-
          will make me smile
and a good morning kiss-
          will make you coffee.
The day will go on, unfortunatly not all by your side
Our lives will pull us apart; work or school
But know that throughout the day,
     even if my body is not by your side...
My heart is always with you
                                and
My thoughts are always about you.
It is simply knowing that at the end of the day
     I get to come home to you and snuggle under covers-
          that will get me through my day.
We may not go to sleep right away but;
You'll be the last image I see at night
                                and
The first image I see in the morning.
Nothing could make me more happy........
                                                                           ......than you.

The wind howls,
The windows shake-
     as I sit inside on a cold winters night.
I'm bundled up
blanket and all with a sock on each foot
     and yet I shiver to the bone.
The tea in my hands tries to keep me warm
but it seems that after its ceramic casing
all warmth is lost and I remain frozen.
The warmth I need doesn't come froom heated water
or even wood buring in the stove.
I need the warmth of my love
     as I huddle in his arms.
I need to be engulfed in his embrace
     while he holds me tight.
This is the warmth of which I crave,
This is the warmth of which I need,
If I am ever to stop shivering to the bone.

My love for you is constant
     something that will never be questioned
There is no answer for how I found you
     nor how you found me
          or how our feelings came to light.
But the love we now share
     is just a simple, whole hearted truth.
My love for you is bigger than the universe,
     deeper than the sea,
          brighter than the sun,
               and more constant than the stars.
It transcends words
     over flows music
          and is more beautiful than any piece of art.
There is no amount of time that will ever be enough with you
     and now that I have you I don't want a minute without.
So lets start with forever and go from there
See where this love takes us
I see many happy days in our future together
The road could be rough
But nothing worth keeping
                                                was ever easy to get.

We wear a mask that covers and shades
The price we pay to be accepted.
Never showing who we really are
Fear of not fitting the "perfect image"
We speak differently,
hide our true feelings.
And yet we smile.
Why should we show our true selves?
Just to be disgraced and turned away?
No...lets hide.
We wear a mask.
It helps protect us from the others.
The others that wear a mask.
For they too pay the price
continue their day with a smile.
Society has become a cookie cutter
To make all fit one
What no one will admit is that
We don't fit into a cookie cutter.
We're all our own with quorks and all
And yet we continue to wear a mask,
Smile and all.