cigarette smoke was everywhere
ping pong ***** flying over and under
every time you turn the corner, shots are happening

beer is spilling and so is the liquor

so are your words
you were wasted by how you slurred your words

it was so easily to fall in love with you, while you inhaled that cigarette that was mine
and how to sipped your drink

then the girl came over and sat right on you and started sticking her tongue down your throat

after that i never saw you that night of the party

i cant even believe you anymore
i cant trust anyone anymore
or even look at anyone the same

i cant move on
and ive tried, but everyone's just ******* now a days
but all the memories go threw my head all day and i cant stop it anymore
its become a habit
and i cant stop now

i try.
i try everyday to get up in the morning and feel good about myself
and tell myself that im happy and that im okay with this.

then i realize that im not okay, or happy, or anything anymore.
you destroyed me.

i remember the memories
the feelings we had for eachother
the way you would touch me.
it was so delicate, and precious.

i wake up every morning telling myself that i cant do this anymore and that i'll never be okay with this

im dangerous
im a human being who's mind is everywhere

i dont think straight
i think of the most craziest things

im a reckless teenager that never wants to grow up