Sigh*
What good am I to have one
How terrible am I to have none
Rusting in loneliness
Here waiting on chance
Love is a war I lose
The feelings as spoils are mine for keeps
It is the truth I choose to seek
A sucker for romance
A victim of circumstance
Climbing the walls of cognizance
I search for the horizon of justice
I dwell on the imaginary perfect world
A world fair for both our hearts
Mine and hers
A world of bliss and wonder
I remain in my youth and idle
I am a rebel to the powers
Supporting the beauty beyond
I find comfort in the unearthly breeze
The fair winds give me overwhelming chills
I die and live again
I am a soul in its rightful place
A free world where passion and truth dictate
A world that hosts the ruins of the earth
I am a victor
I find true love and feel no doubt
I float on the waters and land on an island of magic
What was once tragic is now comedic
The joke is the key to the streams
The streams beyond that connect the constellations
It is some breathtaking journey
A conscience's Conversation
I find my rhythm and find peace in the wilderness.

I see it in your eyes
The twinkle in my heart shines through them
I feel it in your soul
It is I you long to hold
If only chills could speak
You would know that your warmth makes me weak
In the very tone of every word
Every word you utter has weight
The syllables stretch as if you speak in melisma
The way you move
The way you blush and move about
Shy and psyched by the eccentric emotion running through you
You smile and make me a guy
How, how could I make a woman the apple of my eye
The apple of my eye shine so bright that it gives birth to a young tender tree
You hiss waves of bliss as the love chokes you and you can only be saved by a kiss
I hesitate and reminisce
Thinking about the days I did not give into your rules
Sharpened by the blades of poetry, I levitate thinking you will follow me
You stand and wonder how I could be such a fool
To let a lovely doll fall into the arms of a ******
The winds of time breathe rain
We both wait again, to see the day
The day our scattered seeds of love blossom into a flower
I will have you and our bright and blooming flower
And together at the tree we will be, no matter the feat, no matter the hour.

In a moment potent
I learn that death is where the joke went
I learn to fly where the birds ascend
I go to the place from where the truth is sent

There is an air of magic
A garden of flowers radiant
There is colour and merriment
The free float and spin at will
The children listen and have no whims
Harmony holds it all together
Love flows and condenses raining a high of consciousness
The people glow and the song is truth

For a moment I am a master
I find the salts of clash and flash
I am inspired and create a world
So peaceful, so beautiful
Wherever I may go
I have pictures in my heart that have been sown
Sown together as a string of memories
They hang on my humble atmospheric abode
In cognizance I stand clear and take a bright glance
A world so solid I see
A world far away as can be
A world overwhelmed by an ocean
It brings tears to my eyes
It is Earth I see that inspires this emotion

So near I was to finding God and yet so far
I keep reading scribes to stay on par
I know that I saw a world beyond the stars
I must have been in heaven, it cannot be an imaginary faux pas...
And all the while I was looking through the window in my heart.

She said in a dream:
You act all tough and mighty
You walk as though you are inviolate
You talk as if you do not care
You utter words that pierce through my soul
All the while you do not care.

You do not feel what I feel for you
You hang up as if to quickly call another
But baby I see you
I love you, and your dangerous ways excite me
Your lustful eyes invite me
I see through you
Beyond the player camouflage
Deep within that bitter-solid heart.

I see you, I see beauty
The colours of your soul overwhelm and confuse me
Your strong embrace makes my heart jump for joy
Your embrace eases me to express the scent of my love for you
Fumes of romance-scented perfume blaze searching for the essence of you
Do you not know how much I need you?
Every meal is an illusion for I hunger for your breath
I long for your presence
I thirst for your kiss
The love stage is vacant waiting for dancing lips

Come to me as you are
Come to me truly
Do not leave gaps in magic
Do not let these feelings fall into slumber
For I see beneath the mask you hide under.

My Strongest, My Weakest
My strength where it be my weakness
My weakness, it seems to be my strength
Alone on a bench of thoughts
Pulling out memories as straws
******* out the moments so I don't feel numb again

Waiting for the sun to shine
At night I look for the brighest star
At home I wait for the hour of glory
I write futuristic promising romantic stories
Searching and digging into the pit of opportunity
Grinding and drilling so I can find what the world has for me
Is the rock a diamond uncovered?
Is the diamond a rock long discovered?
What good am I in a hopeless world?
How strong am I to be still standing?

I have been blinded by pride and reputation
The chances flew right past me
This was my weakness
An illusion which seemed to appear as my power
Only to allude me and send me to the depths of hunger
How do I survive in this incessant famine
My strongest, my weakest
Is my prowess both a strength and a weakness
Is my power a fist that concentrates my potential,
filters all doubts and confusion,
then send me back to a writer's rhythm?

For the muscle of me, what is love?
For the scars on my back, do tears set a heart free?
On my back are scars which smymbolize the pain
The pain caused by those who have turned their backs on me
The muscle of me a solidified lump of heated chemistry
Chemistry broke for the vision was divided
For one side a poetic love affair
Another a fling of **** and ego boost
Lies lie hidden in a black book of truce
The tears shower and the pain overshadows,
and the lies fly out and the book burns
Nothing left but hurt, resentment, hunger and thirst
A chance of love comes again and again I am underrated
Shots that succeed lack poise and weight
I levitate onto the pillars of loneliness
The trial gives me cold but also clarity
A fool never unless my heart learns to jump again and I,
I will set it free.
Is this a mere cry due to weakness?
Is it a last strike so I can find my strength again?
All is revealed and I slip into a stream
I am on the prowl once more and I will never be the same.

But soon I will find, the lines that divide
Strength and Weakness
And the balance therein
I am in it and I search for the limit... The limit within the dimensions of existence's summit.

Hello Child, so vulnerable
You cry out as the night sleeps
You whimper and murmur in your sleep
You look for warmth as your body moves around
You try to grab on to hope, try to reach.

Whispering in a language magical
Only ferries and creatures as such understand you
You breathe the energy of innocence and purity
Hello Child, for a while you have been resting
Thoughts and tiring activities have kept you busy
Lost in a ****** world of first-time wonder
Going about in a world of giants
Drooling on every pixel of a soul's image
Capturing all the colours of your dreams
Your fists ever enclosed as embracing a gift
These fists searching and longing for the tether
But a touch makes you feel better

Hello Child. I have been missing you
The comfort your hug gives me is eternal
I will be unclothed no more for I feel the sheath of God in the waves of your sparkling heart beating against mine.
I will know what it means to be human when two bodies connect and there is a new man
I will know what it feels like to have something worth dying for, for you enliven me...
You are my sunshine in a dark forest
You are my fortress in an empty world
You are my grace in a lawless and cruel empire
You are elevation with every breath for your life takes me higher
Hello Child... I feel like a man, and a blessing it is to be a father.

They say that the first cut is the deepest
The other shots that follow are the cheapest
How will you know where to go when those who know keep secrets
I do not fear demons that go about randomly
I am frightened of the demons that hide in innocence and act as friend of me.

The poetry is in expression
How a smile can be a frown perfectly stretched and kindly curved
How those lies in eyes hide and appear as love in disguise
How ecstasy can be easily confused as joy, pure gaiety
Yes when frivolty is accounted for as a meal served free
How the enemy
can be so near - within thee
Not knowing what the mirror keeps showing for the illusion keeps flowing
Blinding a mind held confined in streets of the system
Dancing to the beat, the rhythm
Which is a euphon to the masters, an orchestra to the masses
It is a show and performers do not know that they are masked in fake skin tone
A world not their own, mind dictated by the men who boats and gold stole.

Where do I go with this *** of gold?
This *** of gold a soul of my own
What do I see when the vision seems blurry?
I am sedated by the infective syrups of delusion and secrecy
Held between scriptures hereditary
Morality and reality both in a fray necessary
The gospel I search for is one of truth
The wisdom I seek is of a world brand new
I am fighting for the mind the vicissitudes of life took
And I throw blows and pass death - I am off the hook.