forbidden lovers is what we were
"i miss you" he said in a drunken slur
he's no good for me,
i'd tell myself repeatedly.
but of course, i didn't listen
weeks passed and we slowly drifted.
i've forgotten the way you say my name
all these insecurities and you're the blame.

When do they stop,
The things inside?
I keep running
But I can't hide.

oh how i wanted
to relieve my pain
with one simple slash
upon my pale skin
below my wrist
next to those blue veins
but i couldn't,
just couldn't bear the pain

so instead i'd
drown in my thoughts,
oh how unbearable they could be,
and i'd willow in self pity
with nothing but tears surrounding me
and hope some one would notice
and maybe come to save me.

you left me
without an explanation,
a reason why,
without a god ****** goodbye.

it hurt me
but not because you left
not that you didn't look back,
but because i wasn't worth it to stay.

you wish me to be
free from my demons
and calm like the sea
how angered I am
that you can't see
I'm lost in the ocean
with nothing but monsters inside of me ;
      and I wish you would realize
      awareness is key.

But I don't want
to just be here anymore

I want to know
everything I'm missing out on
in this tiny town
I want to explore
and to see the wonders
of this enormous world of ours
that we too often forget that
we are privileged to
walk upon

So let's take advantage of whats ours,
let's go somewhere we've never been before
and never look back again.