fdg - Hello Poetry

fdg Jul 2014

nothing

i am in a mood where i want to feel alive
because it's hard to feel a point
when i am staring at the bottom of a top bunk by myself in a basement
(i know nothing about me anymore)
(this boy i can't stop thinking about is trying to figure me out
and i'm afraid it's too easy
because i am nothing)

hm. i just want to drive all night and be at a beach by morning with you in the passenger seat singing along to the songs we play and then we'll watch the sun rise and step in the water and then i'll touch your arm and kiss you on the lips and make the back seat of my car another memory

fdg Jul 2014

reality

******* *****, taking *****,
having to **** but just wanting to kiss
daydreaming of ******* and ******* and you
this world is gross and beautiful

fdg Jul 2014

hm

i can't stop thinking about
how lucky i am
to get to hold your hand
for now

you make me feel unsure about everything but also more sure than i've ever been (don't over-think anything, just let it be)

fdg Jul 2014

i don't think about it too much, though

i guess i think it's funny
that he told me he didn't like some pictures of us together
because it always looked like i was pushing him away
and in the end,
that's what i did.

idk

fdg Jun 2014

is this morbid

maybe i can't control the tone of your voice
but i can control the amount of flesh on my bones
and i can control when the earth swallows me whole

i'm not cutting myself today, just daydreaming, ***. (i don't want to die, just sometimes i think i do)

fdg Jun 2014

mattress

i'd like to be dangerously balancing between
that look in your eyes
and
the way you lick your lips
right on the verge of
"maybe I'll do this"
as my hand slides down to your hip

idk, i also wouldn't mind just holding your hand
i really just want to hold your hand

k

fdg Jun 2014

branches (did i already name a poem this before? eh)

I could be camping but instead i'm staring at my wrists wishing they'd blush
(ya feel me?)
I just want to be where the trees are