I am regurgitated knowledge and memories, stuffed in a bottle.
Whaling about with all of the other pieces of garbage.

The plastic, the plastic, beads and unrecyclable matter.

Flittering, Fluttering, No sense or pattern.

Whats left or Right. Could it ever Shatter.

You Come to. You go. No one knows.

All we have is this moment. But Past Sinks in.

Fear Floods Future. The unknown, unknowing,

Passions set free? Dreams set to Death. What Will it Be?

Hush Love. Hate Love. Love Love.

Love, What's that to me. I say so freely

Above, Beyond, Unfolded.

In Heat. In the Hate. In the Hush of the Moment.

I know not Love.

So pure and forgiving, through the darkness, stand strong.
Unstoppable, never ending, with out condition. Bond.

Love is Simple in a complicated way. I AM

Blows hope. Inspires. Admirers. I STRIVE.

This I feel I know is True. You touched me with Utter Truth.
In the night. In my Mind. Lost in Your Ever Green.
Forever Changed. Let no Shame be Made.
Rise Above, Empowered by the Game.

The Mirror Fogs up
I loose site of her

Beauty of the face, fade.

Reflections ripple with a wave
Picture distorted, I loose her.

Eyes blur into a sea crashing before me.

Shadow oh so true, follow me home.
Get lost in the night, disappear in sunlight.

Feel me from the outside, I can not see.
For I am inside, blind folded by exterior me.

Sadness, Darkness fill my Sunshine.

The world unfolds like dead bodies in the open green.
Close my eyes I don't want to see but all of me feels, even if I fight not to see.

Heart Throbs Feel for you and me. I am numb. I loose her. You See...

Whats Been Said Is Said. Is SAd I know.
and What's Done has been done. is done

I account for today. No promise for tomorrow.
But the ****** has come and gone.. no more lingering on. and on

Thanks for teaching me somethings that will help me Grow.
Keep it moving my not so friend this show has hit the road.

What a ride it's been. I hope you open your eyes.
Ego is a mans foolish demise.

My heart still lifted from the love I could give.
It fills me everyday so that I may live.

My soul beams with light and joy.
For myself I will never Destroy.

When you are reckless with others you hurt yourself in the end.
So I have to defense, no reason to anger or cry..

Wrapped in White Light ****!  Goodbye :)
See you when you elevate from Victim to Love

If you were a drug
You'd be crack *******

As you crackle and pop
My heart wouldn't stop

What a sucker for the game.
Because I'm a women we're all the same..?

But still you caught me.
I always see the best in people.

Silly me, such a fool.
All I am in this life is a tool.

I didn't want to search and didn't need to find. But the questions bombarded this ever running mind. Now that it's out I can no longer hind what the sad truth is from my heart open wide.

What has already been Known. Has come out in your tone.
And those unanswered questions have finally been shown.

Heart sunk for a second but didn't skip a beat. I will not die for I have to much love inside. Another shell of a person, a puppet.

You can wear a mask say what you say.
This life is one of many.
And I'm with you to stay.

So digress if will
if that's what soothes your aching heart.
I'll be waiting in the stars to love you back to life.

Mistreated stepped on but always giving.
Love can't be locked in a box it wouldn't be love.

With pink streaming lights,
connected from above,
I will dance through this life with nothing but LOVE"

The hurt is gone
now I just feel stupid.

What I saw in your eyes
Your uncaple of believing.

Everything I've creatated
Has been tarnished, defeated.

You felt me, I know it.
Then left my heart bleeding.

Ten days shy of two months
No part of me misses you.

An ocean of tears
Lost in years of fear.

Never there to hold me
Always pushed aside.

They weights been lifted
Heartache shifted

Silly girl, do you know love?

Sadness..tears.. I know not the love my soul craves.

Silly me
Even days in dark thoughts
I still have innocence

Silly love
Be good to me
Light, happy, free

Silly games
only play out in my head
erase them please

Silly nerves
Just simmer down now
Let life be what its meant to be.

Silly Mind
Don't go running away
or Stay and over analyze

Silly me is I am
Be Light
Be Love
Be Free
Woman I am

When darkness consumes us.
Will we cave into our fears.

Everything we do everyday. Gone.

Electricity Disappears.
Frantic Faces. Searching. Running. Hurting.

What will I have to give.

Feed me knowledge so that I may live.
Give me Grace and Understanding.

If this is true. I've heard the words my Whole life.

This place we call home was built to be destroyed.
We have feed the destruction. We are one.

In desperate times will you love or fight.
Will we destroy ourselves from within.
Before the Flames set in.

Can it just be a new start. Clean Slate.
Get back to basics.
Rebuild.
Grow.
Evolve Spiritually.

Or is this the Beginning of the End.

Twin Flame, I think not.
Just Needed an alibi to be insane.

I used you for your spark
Your ungodly fiery flame

You gleamed me in the eyes
the Heat rose up inside

Like a million Butterflies
attached to electric shocks

In the mirror I stare
At all I am and never lived to be

I saw you in me... me in you.

I breathed you in over and over again.
Yet my bed is still with him.

Did I ****** you,
Lure you with my mind.

With my *** demon smiling on the inside
saying everything is fine.

I stalk, I prey, I conquer. men are easy.

Did I need to feel you to take part in your flame.
Now my lioness got caught in the game.

Claws drawn waiting to dig in..
The rest of me needing to pull away.

So I told him its over but in bed we lay.
Not touching with nothing to say.

I feel for another is what I should say.
Truth is I am a coward who needs the tension and release.

Why must I play this Game.
My thoughts are hurting My weary Head.

No Kiss Goodbye
Not one Last Cuddle

You had your time
You ****** me dry

My heart bleeds
My lungs set Free

Eyes Open Wide
Mouth sealed Shut

All my hearts longed for..
In just one Kiss..

What is this?

You bring out all I've been missing inside..
I see all of me for the first time.

I got lost in your Green Eyes
My heart has doubled it's size.

My Soul Sings for you..
My heart Cries for him.

Can't help my Soul recognized..
Set on fire.. Can you feel it?

Or is it just a manifestation of my desire?

You say I cut you to the core.. I know you want more.

More.. leaves this open as ever.
So I say Goodbye to him.
Hello to You.. Lets take our time.

Feels like I'm spinning
Toes barely touching ground

Not sure I can handle this change of season
Some things falling so beautifully in place
Still can't get a grip of what's slipping away

Breathing in the cold air won't cool my heart down. Part of me brought to life brings tears of joy, sadness, and strife.

How can I embrace this?! Can I live up to the eyes that stare at me through the mirror. Am I or am I not?

Is this the beginning of the end or only the beginning. Adaptable as I am change is hard.

Answers untold my world starts with a thought.. Where's my head at?!? At?!! At?!

Somewhere stuck between what could and what may ruin me. The risk of coming to close to the flame. Set me on fire. Lore me. Distract me. Just forget it all.

Am I wrong.

I don't want to out shine you.
Just want to be your friend

I want to embrace all of you
share all I have within.

Lets bring out the best in each other
Not tare each other to pieces.

I can be evil too..
But I don't want to talk down on you!

You don't shine any brighter throwing dirt on her name or mocking her misfortunes or smirking at her shame. Its you who is a sad shell of a woman. So before you judge her and shred her name remember..

All that you are comes from what you've been through so imagine the strength it takes coming from the bottom or standing up when you've repeatedly fallen.

Look in the mirror do you love everything you see? Are you all you intended to be?

Why not build someone up instead of tare them apart..

Isn't enough breaking us down every day, leaving us in the dark.


Its time we accept our place as women. Come together without Competition. We all have strengths we can share our wisdom and when we are weak need a compassionate ear to listen.

The subtle sound of the ice cracking beneath me feet


I shut my eyes. How long have I been sleeping?

Now again I awake in this bed of denial

Again. Repeat. Obsess. Over and over...

Can't just forget. It gets worse every time.

How do you explain hopping back on that coo coo train?

Insanity. Period. One answer. Lets not complicate this.

Just one more got me no where before.

I just want to be cool. I don't want to be weak. I just want to forget whats being held over my head.
I want the freedom. I want to tease, excite, and leave.

The only way to fix this is to make it right not keep letting life pass me by trying to hide my other side.

Self sabotage. Its easier to admit defeat when when there is nothing left. I don't want that. I've got too much.

It's not okay. This is not acceptable.

Curious of what stirs within
the thought of touch

My eye drawn in
the unseen or heard

Body temperature rises
heartbeats, beats, breath

deeper and deeper
the heat rises
breath just breath.

this connection undefined
breaks walls and crosses lines

Words turn to faint noise
What is this..?

Am I hypnotized
Stuck? Lost? Frozen in time?

In those green green eyes

Shh..Silence. I must not know you.
Stay forever, Go running, Hide!!