You feared you would tear us apart
like you did last year and I told you
that I would never let that happen again

Three months until the truth of my
powerlessness came to light, and my
only option was to let you drift away

And when our eyes meet I feel not even
the common affection shared between friends,
and when I speak to you your head turns as if
we had never before this moment met

I am a pursuant who runs and goes nowhere,
and though my legs grow strong and my lungs
learn to feel pain I feel guilty for letting myself
spend so much time on you

I know not to regret past decisions because they
made me who I am, and there's not a single thing
I regret about you, I just can't help but tell you that

It hurts how we let this die so quietly

I am a piece of pottery and the
Earth is my wheel as it revolves around the sun
and those who speak to me dig their fingers into
my skin, shaping me into something new

Each jump of the second hand on my watch
is a chance to die or live more fully, another
chance to more perfectly realize what
choice I have in the matter

The love I feel for myself is constant; it is the
coast and the emotions I feel for those around me
must ebb and flow so life can spring forth as blood
from a tear

My God is the belief that in a year's time everything
will be better, and my Devil is the sinking fear of the
opposite

Growing high like ivy,
not easily removed,
many years in the making,
the love I feel for you is taut
and unbreakable

Snow makes midnight look timeless
You make me feel weightless
These days don't end like they used to

I feel time drag on and night fades to day
and the morning glow is indistinguishable
from the light that leaks from behind your eyes

You've convinced yourself that you're a monster and
while you might be as beautiful as the snow I know
you're nowhere near as cold

Nobody seems to care and I begin to wonder
if it's because I pretend I was never hurt

I told him how easy he would be for me to
cut out of my life; he's dating my ex, the
one who cheated on me and tells me he was
right in doing so

I told him how easy it would be for me to
cut him out of my life because he does nothing
but whine about his feelings and tell
unfunny jokes

I gave her everything and she did nothing but
tell me I'm wrong, tell me the boy I'm with now is
trash and I was only able to bring up the mirror
and show her own hypocrisy

Never mind, none of you deserve me, so I'll embrace my
feelings now and go to that place I've been avoiding for
as long as I can remember

A place called comfort

I'm hurt incredibly
Indelibly
Permanent ink on my skin
your sins won't easily
be forgotten because you
injured me and I left
you because I knew
something was wrong and
twelve months later I'm
finally discovering what
exactly that was

You loved me but I know
you never loved him;
I know he bored beneath your skin
and made a home in the warmth
because he has none for himself

He told you to push me away and
though I couldn't hear his words
I saw the effect they had on you

I hate you for ******* him when I
was still loving you, taking advantage of
the distance to fulfill the wants of the body
while milking me for the needs of the heart

You hurt me and
I want to hurt you

You're too fragile for that

You're wasting my time