Pro-blade whispers on the edge of things,
There's no running from this

Forcing myself to sip water is different
Than drinking sunlight and taking in
Attention gets me high but it never lasts

By the time I'm home the world has fallen
And I'm putting the pieces together to
Figure out why it broke and if I
Caused this myself

Keep this boy alone

Can't find a reason to stick around since
It's easier to dust off bad looks and
Double-meaning words than
Rely on a dead man's grip

It was the same yesterday
And today and tomorrow
And I'm praying for a change
But abandonment is the solution
I don't want to accept

By the end of the day and the sun is
High I find myself forgotten by
Those whom I love and I begin to
Feel that heat in my chest

I run home like a child pushed to breaking,
Hands tense and clutching denim,
Breaths forced because breathing is hard

Praying for change, denying what I
Know is true, I need to
Escape these echoes

I'm an inconvenience
And time is short no matter the hour

Weakness in every joint
Every vein
I'm struggling to carry
My own weight
My own breath

I'm struggling to bear
My own binding writ to honesty

Endlessly entangled in bloodred twine
Torn from the hearts of dead lovers
I need a means of escape
From this magic pair

I can feel it in my chest
A dig site in flesh and soul
Spades cutting bone, I know
Your promises never last

I'll start with the first line of
A song I'm listening to and
It all rolls out from there

Knowing you act like you love
But I know you don't -
It's the purest form of torture

Let it all out
Let it breathe

If the sky can draw a breath
Then so can (*******) you

They're telling us to calm down
But it doesn't make me any more sane