blue.
why am i blue?
is it something new?
i hate the color blue.
Its just another thought.
But is it just in my mind?
oh god.
its you.

im not surprise.
i sympathize.
i cant deny.
i tell these little lies.
they wander off like flies.
i cant deny.
im way too good at goodbyes.
your affection is a crazy ride.

hes such a charmer.
he makes me wonder.
hes such a follower.
hes such an odd flower.
hes never going to make it.
his bland lies.
he´ll never love me until he dies.

I never met someone so different.
Wherever you go
id follow.
Im being told to let you go
but id do anything for you.
the things id do
when it comes to you.
Wherever he goes ill follow.
- to my unknown lover

our love isnt like a flower.
its more like
that solar power.
solar.
power.
the one that roar.
the one that towers.
      forget all of the tears
that you cried its over.
just let cupid wear
our love as a glove.
its solar.
it isnt over.
our love
is like a four leaf clover.

if you need me.
hurry.
im leaving soon.
sorry.
sorry cant save me now.
ive already drowned.
take a lick.
is my face salty from water?
or the tears?
its not like i matter.
sorry cant save me now.
sorry i dont know how,
how i let myself cry to death.
tell him i loved him.
tell him to not waste his breathe.
its gods test.

as a child of silence
i find it soothing.
the loud silence is like music.
i´ll never be alone
as long as my mother is always there.
She is a loud woman.
A woman who others fear.
I feel isolated
in a large loud crowd.
a crowd where lovers could be.
a crowd where anger roars.
a crowd where the child of silence
is no longer
adored.
I am the isolated little girl.
who once she speaks
is no longer
her.
I am the daughter
of
Hesykia.
-

i walk alone.
not even my shadow.
or my shallow
heart.
I walk alone.
walking down the line
that separates my mind.
I walk alone.
no heartbeat.
no time.
ive lost my mind.
the city sleeps
but im the only one
since everyone's gone,
my sanity is done.
well this is love.

school ends.
it all just blends.
the parties dont end.
the ecstasy just takes me off the deep end.
its always been,
my escape.
make the lights change color.
let ecstasy become my lover.

The day will come
where we all run,
run from our love,
run from our role,
run from what we stole.
I was always in a bad mood.
i played you.
i said that i loved you.
but i ended up
running from you.
im sorry jasper.
im sorry if i hurt you.
i sorry if it got that bad.
somebody should've had your back.
I gave all i could give but
it was never enough.
I changed my whole life when i ignored you.
felt like a human again.
Im sorry if i cant help you.
Im not the girl i once was,
ill run from that lost cause.
run from myself
if only i could.
but is anyone that fast?
once i escape myself
maybe ill come back.
maybe you'll have your life back.
maybe the right one to be your wife
is in tack.
Sayōnara.

That feminine figure of hers could be my awaited death.
The ultimate key to seduction.
And ******.
Her silky snow white hair.
She´s a deity.
She´s my enemy.
She´s so dainty its bizarre.
like the moon falling to the ground.
this deity of calamity has my heart.
Shes just like a Aconitum the devil's helmet.
A mesmerizing silhouette,
and a divine monster hidden behind that sweetheart of a face.
If she´s as bad as they say then i guess im cursed.
Im in love with a woman who wants me dead.

its always been there
its nothing new
nothing with an
odd view
its something so small
that no one really cares about
at all
is it all in my mind?
is it an illusion?
this souls waves overwhelm my mind.
This soul has always followed
my shadows
into the dark meadows
when no one could
even come near this
closed window.
This souls silhouette
hurts my brain
but my hearts in a strain.
id deal with the pain
since its just you.
always you.
its been you.

They say i have so much time
But i don't
My teacher says i have so much time
But i don't
My parents say i have so much time
But i don't
My friends say i have so much time
But i don't
Im sorry but the plan was up to 30
Once the countdown is done
It's only infinity and beyond
Im sorry i spend my time pondering and thinking about
Where has my life gotten me
I just hope they have forgotten me
Maybe i should have learned the numbers after 30
But it's okay because once im 30
I won't have to worry
Tic-toc-tic
Looks like time doesn't even have time for me.

I always have these thoughts
late at night
maybe its time to say goodbye
maybe its time to fly high
it never really felt right
to try and put up a fight,
ill let the tides
take me in.
maybe i never really felt okay?
never had someone truly stay
I've been rotting
my brain
each day
hoping
to
pass
away,
ju
st

l
i
k
e

y
o
u
.

whistle like.
is it bristle like?
more like a missile like.
oh how i wish this kiss was like.
so passionate
but its just DNA
mixing around
a boys ***** mouth.
this is what a kiss is like.