is english class
the place to fall in love?
my teacher always
places people near me
that captivate me
that i want to learn more about.
because i always had open ears
and starry eyes
for a dancer who's always too serious.
and to a band boy who's always humming.

|m.s.

i think
if i could kiss you in the rain
my life would be complete.
you could wash away
and leave me to be rained out
but i'd be ok with that.
because i would of gotten
to kiss you.
the rain is just a bonus.

|m.s.

i saw someone i knew
that i haven't seen in three months.
i knew it was them even from afar
by the way their hair had grown
and the way they walked.
and it's as if time itself slowed
allowing the seconds to clock our heartbeats
and i know now what they mean by "follow the light,"
because they were the light at the end of the tunnel.
and my feet were instinctively brought forward
but they disappeared down another hallway,
and i wanted to cry as time sped back up with me
because life is cruel
and i missed the chance to say hi
and even more...
see their smile.

|m.s.

wait a moment
don't get to ahead of yourself
the race hasn't started
we can't have them trailing
you need to get away,
waiting for that sharp ringing
of silence.
once it's there
the races have start
let them trail
let them fall.
you can cry now.

|m.s.

it's coming to be
that me being in love with you
is no longer a secret
and i fear for you knowing.
i know that look that people
get in their eyes.
i know that look of pity
and disgust,
especially if they don't
feel the same way.
and i know the distance
they apply once
the words are out and about
and i don't think
i could ever be close to you
again.

i taste you on my lips
and i feel you in every heartbeat.
but i've never actually kissed you.
and my heart beats alone
because even when you're in front of me--
you're so many miles away, my dear
with closed store window eyes
and a prison cell heart.

|m.s.

and the fact of the matter is
everything comes full circle
and i end up alone again.
no one's here for me.

|m.s.