i've been swept
away by a current
of my own darkness.
i don't have the strength
to hold on to the rocks,
each day i continue
to go farther and farther
down stream.
tomorrow i may
be at the end of the falls.

no promises no promises
i don't want
to give my words to you
because they are the strongest part of me.
they're stronger than the strength
i try not to let go.
because easily
in sixteen hours
i could let go.
i don't want to leave
any loose ends,
and broken promises.

by chance
i met your eyes
in the hall today.
normally i would of
been scoping you out.
my eyes roaming the halls
and the classroom, for your face.
however since i told you,
i've been avoiding you.
and by chance
i met your eyes
in the hall today.
my heart raced,
and i cursed myself.

one thing
or another
i'm always left
wondering
the truth of everything
anyway.
and in some cases
is really what i believed before
should i be believing?
possibly even what may be right,
that should be right is actually wrong.
the certainty in everything makes me
hard to get used to something.
is a person really who they say they are?
are they really who i believe them to be,
is the question i should ask.
am i seeing real
or am i seeing the fake.
we're finding ourselves after all.

i try to be patient
i try to be humble
but as the days continue passing
i find myself with a strong will
to stare out the window.
the snow is starting to melt
leaving blue sky
and grass to be greened.
i just continue to sit within
closed classrooms
brick walls
and trick windows,
all of which keep me
inside.

i will fight for the flight
to the stars
when the option
becomes available
i might just take the chance
and explode myself into
particles, like stars
in outer space.

an average girl
in a lonely world.
standing crying
within a bathroom.
she's alone at prom.
her date made bail
paid $50
and ran,
passed go
and kept going.