No one can truly ever know the pain one has felt.
For so many things in ones life can cause ones pain
All one ever really hopes for is to find and be truly happy
As a child happiness may seem like it comes from one thing.
As an adult happiness may seem like  it comes from something  totally different.
But in the end true happiness is what we all seek.
And we all seek it in some form of love.
For ever since i was a little girl all i dreamed if was this:
Finding this most amazing love.
Someone that would love me more then anything.
Ive been sad for as long as i can remember. Longing for this one true love. Needing it craving it longing for it. But i think today i finally realized all the pain and hurt i have caused myself in hopes of finding it. That truly in order to find the love i so badly want and crave. I must learn to love myself. Or i will never be able to trust that another could every truly love me.

You are the salt I crave
That scalds my skin & brands my mind

I hunger for the oblivion of your lips
The famine of your naked skin

Imprisoned by the trance of your eyes
And swallowed by the gentle abyss of your voice

The cruel perfume of your forbidden skin
And taboo of your musk

Your warm thighs wrapped, butter soft, around me
I ache for the drowsy tangle of our joyful limbs

The sculpture of your arching back beneath my trembling touch
Your drifting hand, lazy traced across my cheek

I hunt at night for the dream of you, to feed my soul
I hunger for the moments when the universe dissolves & we float untethered, alone, together
Consumed in our feast

© Alfa Fido 2013