In ur last whispers, after vanishing
The grey wall stand, surrounding
U
whispering ur thoughts about
Vanishing
Into their surrundlng safe
Lockets
Tasks in them to make
Me 2 join myself forever
And never to sleep again
Only 2 dream my dreamings
With out any solving, lightning..

Nitvana
Amen

Life is just slow death

I just misted it
The one language
That i can really
Follow

Thinking of this
That I was thinking
An I can get a spell on it
It's just was
Just
waste of time
Thinking through
A wasted time

All ready dead an controlled
Piece by piece
I'm drowning in ur tears
Couse
U are there

Not following
Where's ur sound
Language
An smile

U naughty devil
Subscribe
Urself

Whiner..

..cuess who am i..

     ....ur darkest secret..moment..
..the pass sais it all..

And..
    who doesnt have a secret..a waterfall..moment..
Sunshine isnt..rainbows isnt..

           ..only u are cabaple to handle
    all this fuss..but u dont..too Svärd
              of uself..

Ever wonder why..why theres no things u care anymore..where
      has it dissapeared..gone
for good..

   ..is it..

.. rainbows.. sunshine..
     ..fresh cup of coffee..

Mirror mirror on The wall..hows prettys of em all..

****!

..hot status between words
   some like most dont
  but i
    wount
interup me now when im on
    heaven and hell..
        ..balanced well..

If its..
       ..or does lie to u like allways..

  
    ..or is it still the same hot status
            between me an myself..

  ..status of mirror of interuptions..

      ..heaven or hell..

..mourning rust..
      ..that peelin' on my cement ways..

  ..and im runnin..runnin..
        ..runnin..and theres no sound
                                    any more..

..no more..no nothin..Just
               mourning rust..

    ..chalk on the board..

          Zgrriiiigh..zriiihhh..griiigh..
               ..aaauuuuaaahhh..griitzh..

..scratsh my toes with a rusty nail..its just fuked up clad to be..
          ..my zero 2 all the way to
     .some
              ...where

      .. else..

                   ..mourning rust..

still no water
      still no blood

too much wasting time to this world..
                            ..and life..

            you don't know nothing..

..gone to the title..so far away..
         ..title..
so little..but so strong..

   ..is it happiness..or gruelty..
              ..title..who u are..


      ..or not..

    ..saint at the
          other one..

       ...makes u weep sometimes..

                ..touche..

and it's over the top..

..phone..the individual..sorce..of no coming back..in the moment..
     ..talking too much aint the one to
           Please..so you gonna ask yourself..
            ..where you at..whats your point..

..who you are and are you still steady..

            ..slow suicide its not the
                    way to go..

            ..or *** it..no sleep after          ...
..daylight..

           ..buatiful roaď to you..

..no way to ur heart..i see
     and i know it now..****..

     ..but maybe it's u that doesn't    
       see the truth behind the
     obvious..

..see you later..
      obviously..

..i just really love the
      fight with myself..
..phenomena..
     just
         **** glorious..

..beginin' of a prodigy..pagan..
        ..pure & boring infant..beginin'..


..2 fight with one's.. & being happy
        about it..YOURS..

     ..but is it your choice..
               or ruled by
           some master of string's
     controlling us
like puppets..

               ..go an figure..
..or give it
         the finger..& enjoy..

..no title..no room to say
   the things..what the room hold's..

   ..the time is gone..where..

                the room knows..
         ..its not there without reason

              the words of simply beauty..

..no one likes me anymore..
     ..and that's just fine..

...can't turn around..
          ..anywhere..
     ..no directions..

oxygenation is starting to get down..
             ..really know..down and down..
                      where's my town..

..my directions..as salt and sugar mixed with coffee..

                        ..when your late..it's optional..

                ..keep it..

..slice.by slice..
..piece  by piece..
       ..getting it's form..it's blase..it's
            change of it..

But all we know we come to our mother's metra ..
      ..were blind 4 nano second at least..
                ..same thing..at least the one's that get that..

..how much time too u think that we have thonger out of our stupid..made belive..problelm's..and do you
.              even know true love...
..i do..and it hurts the most of all that I have witness..3/4 of my heart went to love..or what thougt love..i've would have give my life that somebody gould keep living..LOVE..jist a word what we made to oirselfs to survive..to control..to ****..to say something when it feels awkward some **..what ever..but we're not out word's or language..that would be just plain skitso and dumb..yeah th the 10%:t..but still..there's jus another  'fact' that we eat
          without chewin'..ain't the first time to ack like ape..throuing boo as funny business..OR we know why you but us in cage's..


   ..made up words to get along..to explain our simplicity to others....the ******'s that make's us belive that we are in charge..

              ..words that have made all war's exist..and blood spilled..

       ..we need them but it would bea very sunny day..when we
             learned to use them too much..like this my contribution..

..and don't come back..

..no surface..just gruel notification..just a feeling from the true and all the lie's that go with it..

..poetry..yeah..great..**** me..

            ..there's never enough fukin to make  this..      
   ...place better and worse..
           ..smile and you die..

..to the nearest fan say your loneliness..
    ..to the next celebrate your melankolia..

    ..and if there is a next one..say how much
                  you love..love..and all of it..

..incredible..i forgot..my words..alcohol..cigarettes and too many pills..
     ..that fill's my love 4 anxiety..

      ..go go go or no go..but u should at least
      
             do your show..as a clown..

Cheers..lovers..haters..and the ******* in between..

        ..hah..hah..haa.

..go 2 your mirror..
      ..save yourself..go home..pray..*******..

       ..and maybe u find yours.

..go closer to your edge..what 2 u find..
     ..misery..salvation..jeesus or lucifer..
        ..mayby..
the same thing..
     ..brother's in need..to get some speed..

               ..to help..same dad..same mission..

     ..salvation..and chorus..lalalaa...b.s..

..most of most..
      ..if what or where..
..we are you..not here..that's the truth..

      ..pointless way's 2 go away..suicide..
                ..trying 2 be someone else..boredom..

        ..stay still and give it a left blow..
                    ..tadaa..

..please somebody stand 4 me....this is not going anywhere..3 try's to give a world a word..but..
     ..technology **** it all up..free mind & spirit..
             ..but not this fukin world..

               ...free ain't free..

          ..it's jail of of this destruction..

         ..yeah in peace..

               ..or in PEACE..

..go and figure..look at the mirror and
     find out
         if u really are the one that u believe at all..

      ..so are u there or do u just image it all..

       ..come on..hit your ball..

              ..or be a same doll to fall..

..**** of poetry..
.      there's no tomorrow..

        ..and **** flesh and it's poetry..

Go home and stay there..

     ..ooo..look out..there it is..

            ..total emptyness and pure solitude..

****..****..poetry..

         ..and you again like all ways..

Poetry is ****!

..egoism..poetry..death..
        ..how much can love wan' t..
          ..hope not much else..

..no dream's but dream's..i miss my point..

                      ..no point..no point..no point..

        ..go and figure
                 there's nobody with you..

..dream's are make believe..
              ..so go figure..

..plase dear..don't go
            so arond..  
                    
                 ..you still find yourself in the same place..

       --is it home or somewhere more near to you..
..          ..to yourself again..the
                            
                                     ...mirror doeesn't ever lie..
                ..so go with it..
                                                   ..nothing in everything..

                            ,,boo.boo.boo..

..me..myself all alone..again..day by day..
..why haven't i've done nothing..but all..that
          i ever gould find..within..

                 ..no surrender..no retreat..

..i would like to add me
        but that's nonsense..

       ..who wouldn't like sentences..word's..worlds..
            ..who wouldn't like bourbon..
        Bukowski or Pessoa..or still me too..

But adding something to anything is chaos..as we see it..

       ..so add my add..your's..it's still the same
              agenda..

             ..just to be..        ..again..

..innocent but still
             death skeleton's roaming
        in the dusty snow..filled with our own ash

      How can you make it it all right..
            how can you even
        wanna even look at it..
trough to your wrong or right idea's..idyll's..

        ..we're still all the same ****..
              ..dying to get free..

              trying to see the light in void...
                   that that's
            what we really are..

         ..scared and blind..

..hello poetry..iv'e cone of movement of words..language ain't anymore..
..were ******..subconsciousness is getting dry..no mess..
..i believe you have seen for years now..

                                       ..so were you stand..are you a *****..
             ..or mystic..one..two..three..four..

                                   ..and were the letters wend..

..onetwothreefour..

                        ..where's your magic..

..can i visit in you..can i see trough your eyes..
                   ..can i
           even know you..somebody..
      ..anybody..somewhere..same to me..it's just to be..to feel..to move..
                                     and to stop

..your there i'n the wall's..trying your best..
                       ..and out here..
        ..under this deep..deep water..

                                 ..and i hope i meet you someday..

..sorry i miss to turn left..right was all ready destroy'd..
                        ..so i when't along..

                                    ..straight to the Alabama..

..society..narcotic..addict..

                    ..my word's when't to dumpster cause our
technology is so reliable..there's no way out..no turn to the right
               or turn to left..

                                ..were ******..
                ..and insane..psychosomatic..perverted and pure..
         ..call that a  
             joke and i laugh with you..

                                        ..my cut's off..

..soon there will be no more..
..ask yourself
where do you dwell in this universe..

..infinity is the only time..
else
just control and manipulation..

..go with pain..

..add one to the plus and what you get..
            ..more time off course..

there was a man somewhere living his life..and all of a sudden
           there was another man..
                          
     ..and they didn't know what to do..
                     ..looking each other..smellin'..touchin'..

    ..add one to the plus..and that you get..nothing..

                           ..two strangers poke to each other..

    ..who are you..WHO are you..what you are..
                               ..WHAT
                         you are..time when't by and they started to
             feel each other..
                             ..and then there was this curvy being standing
        not many feet away..lookin' shy..dumb..not like these two..

                         ..and one added three..with complications..little blood no
           and then..yelling..cursing..

                ..and stupid moves that looked like dancing..

what i'm about to say is..don't near the fire..or don't fall in love..
             ..or add anything to anything it still doesn't add up..

                                                  ..rest in peace my three kings..

..i'm sad..
   'cause i'm bad..

no one isn't there for any of me..
           ..and i shoot the stars alone..
    
      ..and that sad and boring..

                              ..there's never enough words to describe
                   the only thing that's me..

              ..sun sings beautiful and the stars do the boogie..

                                          ..but no..

             ..i'm much more than doggy ****..

                                         ..i just don't know where i am..


                       ..and really..does any one even care..

     ..happy you..

                                      ..*****..

..poem is a poverty..
         ..godliness..mess up mind..
      ..down under..fukin' Satan..
                 ..kissing god hairy ***..

                ..poem come's from weakness and despair..
                                        ..just a few word bind to infinity..

                  ..there's a joke in poetry..
                                        ..no one really get's it..

                    ..Bukowski was the greatest clown ..
                                            ..or was he..

                            ..alkoholisticshiteatinnarsist..

                                    ..& chauvinist  big..

               ..and love him to the death..

                                        ..joke's on you mothaf*a..

               ..keep the words flowing..u wimps..