I never knew how much I would give up for you
Until I had to give all my strength,
all my pride ,
my family and dignity...

Just to show every single person that I won't give up on us,
even if it means losing everyone and everything I have.

My heart belong to you.

I am physically tired of trying
Just trying to make something of life.
What is life in anyway?
Will I ever know ?

My veins pump in pain as my nails gnash so deep into my broken raw meat as it digs from heartache.

Who will hear my out cry...
Except me ?
I'm lost I'm my own world
Where only I exist
Where pain overrides
And where loneliness is KING.

I serve the god of brutal pain
That makes my memory a living hell

All I see
Is me

Everyday this will continue
In my mind
Though a smile
Will hide it all from the outside world

Known as:
LIFE

The moment  I close my eyes
I see before me my life
Basically just a striving after wind...
Nothing to show ...
Nothing to live for...

The bird's rattling my only friend,
where there was light, the there came darkness,
where love began, ended in a piece  of dust.
The only feeling that fills my veins pumping with adrenaline ,
Trying to make me feel alive

is  the metal iron sword  that digs deep in battle to emotion...
  that just  leaves streams of blood red tears on my black depressive skin  . Most people will not understand,
but those who do
I'm sorry...

My love is like the wind
Blowing strong though sometimes invisible
It's available for those who can feel my love
those who understand me
those who share in my life and my hurt .

My love is like rain
all around you
that   should make a difference in your life
For I  give you everything.

Yet I still feel you don't see me for who I really am
and that you take my love  for granted
as if I'll always  accept what you do
how you do it
and when you want to do it .

I will not .

I see you every day , I know you by name .
Do you know mine?
you say you're fond of me
but are you  not maybe just simply in love with the idea of ​​love?

My thoughts choke me like a rope tightly tied around my neck
to the point of giving up
. I'm discouraged and hurt .
because no matter how many times I tried to let you see
who or what you mean to me ,
you will never understand it .

I come to the conclusion
. you can not create or destroy love .
You can not force love into something good.
it's a mutual feeling

and that feeling does not exist IN you.

It's hard to let go , but it's for the best .
 I have to live my life as I feel

this is my last post about you before I leave life

I will always love you.

Infatuation
Can bring much joy.
BUT
Can also destroy

Who will know if its love
Or physical touch
Is the attention real?
Or based on lust?

Does he see you for who you are
Is your standards enough?
Or is he just..
Being in love with the idea of love?

They say time will tell
For I hope its true
For I won't survive emptiness
If you break my heart in two

I have survived heartbreak
And I'll do it again
I just don't want to realise in the end
You were just like all men

I want this phase
To pass away
So i myself will be able..
To know if you are truly here to stay

Infatuation leads to heartache
And I want love
So let's stay friends...
Till our enough is enough

My love for you
Stared with a strange ''hi''
It progressed into a hug
And ended for a while with goodbye

Love is not love
If you have even the slightest idea to part
Its everlasting
A comittment from the heart

Love doesn't change
depreciate or die...
Unless
The love you came to know was based on a lie

Love grows each day
And it brings much pleasure
It's a beautiful gift
From the person you treasure

That's what you
Mean to me
Your my end and my beginning
Your the Light I see

Your my best asset
That I knew
If someone should ask what's my best side
I'll stand back and point at you

I love you

My love won't perish

Alone right?
Nobody to talk to
Used to it?
Nobody to show the real you.

I could not wait
To get home
Just to pass the time
In my room alone

Stay in up all night
Feeling depressed
Hoping someone realises who I am
They will sometime , I guess

Laughing alone
Though searching for the new
New beginning
Well for me a few

Found love once
Then got tossed away
Stranded back at one
Waiting for the new day

Tourniquet wrapped around my neck
Refusing to give in
Until someone takes my hand
Giving me a reason to start living

I'm human to
I want to be loved and cared for
I want compassion
And much more

But loneliness
Knows me by name
It surrounds my inner being
It stays the same

Some gets all
Some will feel abandoned
BUT.....


Its up to you
To changed
To make your life
What you want it to be

Love every second you can
Give your heart away
And do it again

You will find what you need in life
Because you ARE worth it

Believe in yourself
Smile away the hurt
And know

IM
GOOD
ENOUGH

IM
ME

COME LOVE ME
YOU WILL BE SURPRISED

where do I begin
when i'm trying my best to show you
who you are , not just to the world outside , but to me as your partner
your lover , your best friend

i guess i'll start at the very beginning , and work towards the end
can you remember how we fell inlove ?
i was not looking for romance.
we started as friends , then it unraveled into something beautiful
you always tend to doubt yourself , while i was trying to show you how wonderful you actually are.

because your.. you are so beautiful , so perfect
we'll at least to me
us as humans , we tend to forget the smaller and finer things in life
YOU are my gem , my finer thing in life , my love , my pride

we share so much memories , as the years passed
every moment i cherish each day
you held my hand , as i touched your face
we could forever be in each others company

you've seen me at my worst , in sweat pants , hair tied back , chilling with no make up on , and still you thought i was pretty.
i faced your moods , i faced your downfalls
i caught you when you stumbled
and you held me up when i needed faith

you where my eyes when i lost sight.
i was your lips when you could not speak.
together we became one
we still are

nothing can ever separate us again
i found a place where i belong
it's in the grasp of your arms
your everything that my heart desires

fly with me on wings of love
the stars will be among us
i will never leave you
i will love you forever

the challenges we faced
was all worth it
because in the end
we were still together

i now come to the realization
that i don't want to wait
i want to tell the whole world your mine
i want to share an eternity with you
i want to hold your hand
i want to wake up with you next to me
i want to make silly jokes
i want to share troubled and good times

i want to give my all
.

i see happiness , and love
i see my future through your eyes.
my love
YOU ARE WHAT I WANT

grant me the most exceptional favor
of saying one word

My love , Will you marry me ?

your beautiful
for so many different reasons
no words can describe your beauty
but still i'll try to show you a part of it

when i look at you
i see your eyes sparkle in the night
your smile
is purely a gateway to my heaven
your laughter brings so much peace and joy to mind
joy - your name says it all

your arms sccream love
your heartbeat i long for next to mine
your a JOY to be around
and i want you to be mine

your so funny and cute
you basicly define perfection
your voice is magical
and you
yes you
only you
makes me want to a better person

i have only met you once
but it already seems like a lifetime
stay who you are
and dont change
ever
because your perfect in my eyes