You were inside me
Where nobody has been before
I let you get inside me
Id let you do it again
It was like riding white horses
But i realized something
How you never really looked at me at all
My lips where the excuse to let your hands wander around
You said your work was done
You also said you tasted the drugs on my lips
I tasted the alcohol on your lips
I guess were pretty even
Except for the fact that im drowning in my tears
And you dont even think of me
So maybe were not so even
Because my heart skips 10 beats
And your heart dosent even beat
So know I understand
When you said take care
You where just looking at my mini skirt
Not even my face
I dont know what you thought
But i know it was the last time ill ever see you
But once i see you unexpectedly
Ill look into your eyes
And make you feel the pain i felt
When you left

I saw you again
Through the blindness of my eyes
You used me again
And i let you like i said
You made it seem so real
But you keep leaving me
Breathless and cold
Crying and alone
I swear
Your driving me insane

I try to think to myself and write what i feel
But nothing comes close to expressing how i feel
And as i write this
I still cant decide what i want to say

When im alone at night breathing to myself
I begin to think the things that led to this event
I feel myself detaching from my body and becoming the fear and anger i have inside me
I cant forgive myself
And now im starting to regret
Because getting used is quite not so good
Deep down i know it was my fault
But i still expected a call when i got home
I think again and realize how you were more than just a "friend"
Now the important thing ive learned is
To never **** around with friends
Or the boys that once told you "your such an ineresting girl"

If forgetting someone was easy as peeling off a bandaid
But dont forget everything scabs
If forgetting someone was easy
I would still be around
And sober
If forgetting someone was easy
I would take 2 pills instead of the whole thing
I still have you on my skin
And i cant take you off
Ive tried so hard but **** it hurts so much

Not a day goes by
Without you on my mind
The moments without you
Seem to drag on forever
Yet I wait for you
To see you
And feel your embrace again
To protect you, held in my arms
I wait for the day
When we are together once more
Finally without obstacles
Standing in our way

It is true what they say
Time does heal the pain
But every once in a while
Youll feel it again
The shocks remaining
Of the earthquake
That once wasnt so dangerous
Because it was a rainbow