She eats, she sleeps; my cat does nothing more;
her naps can last until the day is done;
her habits make her really quite a bore;
in storms she sleeps; she sleeps in beams of sun.
She wakes to stretch, her mouth a gaping yawn;
she stands, and turns, and lays back down asleep;
at night, she sleeps from dusk into the dawn;
she dozes well, adept at counting sheep.
Her fur, it gleams, no doubt from beauty rest;
perhaps she knows more than she seems to know;
I wake; upon my head sits a rat’s nest;
my beauty slumber never seems to show.
And though my cat is lazy all the time,
I can’t see her as anyone’s but mine.

Loudly it sounded,
The horns message clear,
The gods had been warned,
The giants were near.

From Jotunheim to Midgard
To Asgard they came,
Their intent was clear,
Their purpose the same.

Loudly they shouted,
They yelled, and they raged,
The gods and the giants
Were battle engaged.

Thor with his hammer
and Vidar with shoe,
One would think battle
Was all that they knew.

Tyr with one hand
And Frey with no sword,
They should have stayed back,
But of their own accord

Into battle they leapt,
Into battle they ran,
Against the giants
To make their stand.

The moon and the sun,
Luna and Sol,
Went into the bellies
of Hati and Skoll.

Tidal waves crashed
all over the world,
Out of the oceans came
The serpent of Midgard.

Thor ran at the beast,
The great Fenrir Wolf,
But he was soon
In snakes coils engulfed.

Thor pounded away,
He hammered the snake,
But he did no damage,
No dent did he make.

The great Fenrir Wolf
Rushed at Odin,
The god stabbed with his spear,
But the great wolf did win.

Vidar rushed at the beast
With his big heavy shoe,
Kicked in the jaw,
The Fenrir Wolf flew

Away from the battle,
away from the fray,
In the depths of space
The Fenrir Wolf stays.

The gods and the giants,
The battle they fought,
And in the end
it was all for naught.

They destroyed each other,
Each and every one,
And out of the darkness
Came a new sun.

In the sun’s warmth,
A great green was spread,
The great land had died,
And was back from the dead.

Two gods were left,
The young sons of Thor,
They were spared because
they were good and pure.

The gods met with two humans
Who had lived through the strife,
And together they planned
a new and better life.

And for this reason,
The Norse people say,
The gods stay in Asgard
To this very day.

But if in the future
The giants attack,
The gods will come to Midgard,
And they will attack.

High school life makes me quite weary, history can be quite dreary,
More than once the class has given me a cause to snore,
While I sat there, fingers drumming, some modern tune I started humming,
I didn’t see the teacher coming, coming in the classroom door.
Normally, she was quite cheerful, humming from the classroom door,
But today she gave a roar.

All the class sat still and silent, knowing that she could turn violent,
And all fearing lasting indent that she could leave upon their head.
All that time I watched with worry; - wishing I had thought to scurry
Out the door in fit and flurry - flurry from the pending dread -
From the sure and ceaseless source of impending dread -
I hid ‘neath my desk instead.

And the roaring, raving, ranting teacher started in on chanting;
Save me - brave me couldn't handle this kind of class;
Now I sat there, my mind wandering, all my thoughts were set on squandering
All she spoke, my brain was pondering, my attention couldn’t last -
As she spoke my brain was pondering and my attention couldn’t last -
I could never hope to pass.

All around me kids were shaking, but no move toward freedom making,
I began to wonder if they had a clue what was in store;
Maybe they had heard her coming, while I had been busy humming,
Fingers on the desk were drumming, drumming so I wouldn’t snore
Maybe they had had a warning - of whatever was in store; -
I hoped that she wouldn’t roar.

Sitting there in constant terror, worried I would make some error,
And thus bring about her wrath upon my mortal head;
But she made no move to strike me, showed no sign she planned to spite me
I doubted that she’d think to bite me, maybe growl at me instead?
This thought made me shiver slightly, i’d rather her roar instead -
At least I could keep my head.

She began to motion towards me, I knew it wasn’t to award me,
Perhaps she had noticed that i wasn’t wide awake?
Either way, She’d given order, so i began my journey toward her
Maybe some day I’d adore her?  How many classes would it take?
How much of her pitiless lecturing would it take?
My own life was now at stake.

Now that I had done her bidding, she was at her desk, just sitting,
Watching me with those eyes and her never blinking stare;
Never once her gaze shifted, the corners of her mouth weren’t lifted
It was as if a sense of humor had never been formed there -
As if her face had never shown the signs of laughter there -
I pretended to not care.

All the while, my thoughts racing, I was at her mercy, pacing,
The room of classmates I was facing, but they had begun to snore;
i thought she was a fluke in staffing, until i heard her laughing
Now her sullen, cold, and serious mood I had no reason to deplore -
Those heartless hoards of homework were no reason to deplore -
I  was scared of her no more!

I trod on earth that sparkled
I waltzed beside the moon
Dancing in the universe
To a planetary tune

The comets sang a medley
A spatial serenade
All the heavens hummed the chorus
Thus a harmony was made

The sun joined in in baritone
A rich voice filled with light
The planets played a polka
As we danced into the night

Music swelled around us
In an orbital orchestra
A constellation conga line
The last thing that I saw

I woke from my deep slumber
As I slept beneath that sky
The starlit party glistened
A twinkling tango before my eyes

I woke from my deep slumber
As I slept beneath that sky
The starlit party glistened
A twinkling tango before my eyes

Thinner than her snowy hair
Creaky stair bones
Brittle like icicles
And just as cold
Croaking frog laugh
Bent fork in hand
Bent fingers over knitting needles
Fresh cookies
Stale perfume
Dried skin
Dried flowers on the table
Dinner at four (I just finished lunch!)
I remember Grandma

Your eyes are the storm clouds
That block your sunny smile,
I haven't heard you laugh in quite a while,
Please tell me the reason that you feel so alone;
Let me hold you in my arms

Why are you so down,
The world is your oyster,
Make life a pearl while you're young;
Love lies in loving yourself,
Loving life, loving laughter,
No matter what kind of love you're after

Forget all your sorrows of yesterday,
Dry all your tears, throw away all the pain,
Tomorrow has a new dawn, life lies in waking,
And new life is there for the taking

You used to be my inspiration;
You're your own worst enemy;
You held me back from my temptations,
But now you're gone,
Something's wrong,
You're not you

Forget all your sorrows of yesterday,
Dry all your tears, throw away all the pain,
Tomorrow has a new dawn, life lies in waking,
And new life is there for the taking

And always remember
The ones who shine for you;
The ones who would die for you

The clouds block the day, please send them away with your smile

I can't go on without you,
But you're not by my side.
I feel the energy draining
From my fading life.

You're not by my side;
I don’t know what to do.
My life is fading fast;
I'm nothing without you.

I don’t know what to do
When I'm all alone.
I'm completely lost without you;
You made me feel at home

Don’t leave me all alone,
I can feel my energy drain.
You made me feel at home;
I can't go one without you.

Lullaby and goodnight
and sleep you sound my love
May angels keep you safe in sleep
as they watch from up above

Lullaby and sweet dreams
and slumber well this night
Soft, sweet sighs as you close your eyes
Don't let the bedbugs bite

Lullaby and don't you cry
the sun returns at dawn
Now to sleep, and do not weep
just listen to my song

Somber silence,
The simple sound of violence;
And truth be told,
It's my desire

So let it be
More than a memory;
As it fills your soul,
Feed the fire

Tempting flames,
Chaotic games,
Made insane,
And left in pain

And isn't it so beautiful,
And isn't it so right,
And isn't it pure justice
To watch them burn at night?

So light your matches,
So grab your torches,
Man your pitchforks,
We're gonna play;
A night of flames,
A night of games,
A night of pain,
It's all to gain
Until break of day

And when the sun beats down
Nothing is left to be found
Not a single silent signal
No evidence around

Nothing like sweet revenge

Like a feather in the breeze,
never consistent, never straight,
its path flowing in the whispering wind,
like a running river,
cascading down the mountainside, the
mighty waterfall roars,
turning, tumbling, strong, and yet
so sturdy, like a fortress guarding the treasure inside;
golden treasure like the waking sun,
its beams warming the earth,
warming the smiling faces of people far away;
the people who smile for they can see the rainbow,
that splendid arc of color, a bolt of cloth
like a bolt of lightning across the sky;
a sudden shift in light, a flash
of anger on an otherwise friendly face,
now streaked with tears like
streaks of paint across an artist's easel;
each streak begins another image,
another story, on another page
of this eternal book; one volume of a series
of events that contribute to more, to another,
until everything finds its way to the start;
flowing, drifting, connecting, floating gently
like a feather in the breeze.

Does the makeup hide the tears
Painted faces masking fears
But underneath all the glitter
She has a heart of gold

Mornings serving coffee
In the street corner café
Nights she's there again
Turning tricks for extra pay

And can you see behind the costume
See the light within her eyes
Her home lies dark and vacant
She's leading double lives

Just a small town woman
Struggling to sustain
Just a casual showgirl
'Till the morning sun rises again

Lay all your cards out on the table,
Show me your hidden hand;
The time for tricks is over,
Let me know just where you stand

Life was just a game before,
A meaningless charade;
But now there’s risk and pain involved,
The stakes have all been raised

The time for tricks and lies is up;
Let those hidden truths reveal
The secrets, lies, and mysteries
You tried so hard to conceal

You pretended to be innocent
Throughout those grueling days,
Now I know there are things beyond
That you didn’t wish to say

So let me in to the world you keep
To see the truths you hide;
Show me the way you truly are
The person that lies inside

An image isn’t good enough
To win this timeless game;
The person that you truly are
Is more than just a name

When everything else has vanished
And you’re left completely alone,
There will be things that remain of you
When everything else is gone

So let me see what truly lies
Beneath your masquerade;
If things are left repressed too long
They all begin to fade

All those things you keep inside
Reveal to one you call your friend
Getting rid of those dividing walls
Makes life much simpler in the end

There’s a scent in the air
Like treasure hordes of old
It smells a bit like hard, cold…
Cash.

Roll the dice
Double fives
Roll again
And the threes make nine
It’s all or nothing here
There’s nothing to fear
Take a chance

There’s something gleaming here
It looks a bit like gold
Could it really be? Hard, cold…
Cash.

Spin the wheel
Lands on ten
All chips in
And spin again
It’s all or nothing here
There’s nothing to fear
Take a chance

Deal the cards
Royal flush
Draw again
And feel the rush
It’s all or nothing here
There’s nothing to fear
Take a chance

Insert coins
Pull down the spinner
Three in a row
You’re a winner
It’s all or nothing here
There’s nothing to fear

Keep in mind
The odds are against you
But will you…
Take a chance?

Open the cage of a bird,
and the bird will fly away.
Open the cage of my heart,
and my heart with me will stay.

My heart is loyal,
my heart is true;
I will not give
my heart to you.

Like a bird
you left me in pain;
I doubt that I
can love again.

I learned to love,
I learned to trust,
I learned to forget;
I simply must

never remember
the things that you said;
I pray every morning
that you wake up dead.

I sob and I cry,
I screech and I scream
that I will wake up
from this horrible dream.

I open my eyes
and I look around:
you in my bed,
your clothes on the ground.

I know that this might
be hard to find true:
You left me in pain,
but i still love you.

We were walking on the beach,
Side by side, hand in hand;
The waves crashing around our feet
The setting sun was glistening in his hair
Like he was an angel, or maybe it was just me

I told him I wanted this to never end,
That simple, sweet moment of peace;
He told me not to worry,
We'd be like this forever;
Just me and him, him and me

We were waiting in line for our table
At the fanciest place in town;
The light twinkling up above from the chandelier
Reflected in his brightened eyes,
Like they held the stars, or maybe it was just me

When the waiter asked how many,
He answered quick and simply
A table for two please, just us;
Just me and her, her and me

As we laid in bed
I was wrapped in his arms,
And he was better than any blanket,
So soft and warm, or maybe it was just me

I thought I heard a noise,
Some scary intruder come to ****,
But he told me not to worry,
There was no one there but us,
Just me and him, him and me

One day he got a call,
He owed someone money,
He sounded calm at the time, but I knew better;
He seemed a bit scared, or maybe it was just me

I took a test the next week,
I found out I was pregnant,
We had something to love, to show our devotion;
He promised me to stay and raise our family,
We'd do it together
Just me and him, him and me

The next day he got another call
And his voice sounded shaky
As he hung up the phone,
I told him he seemed scared,
And he said it was just me

They came in a black car
They came with guns
They shot my sweetheart in the head and left
And I sat crying on the doorstep,
My hands on my belly
As it hit me:
Now it was just me

That facade you keep,
that joyous mask,
the pretense that everything is going fine;
it makes me sick.

It makes me ponder
if there's something deeper hidden within.

A simple gaze reveals the truths
sealed away behind those dampened eyes.

Your distant gaze covers emotions that lie
deep below in a dark, cavernous soul.

Shadows lurk and plot and scheme
to steal away that sunny persona.

A simple smile slices through the dark,
sharper than any double-bladed sword,
triumphant over the oppressive depression
that threatened to overtake that false spirit;
making it real, an existing ecstasy
brought about by another's needless risk,
and now that victory brings the realization
that all is as it should be; all is right and fine,
and your personal world gains a universal contentment.

I questioned you with pleading eyes;
you gave me truths, I gave you lies,
because of me our trust now dies,
and it is me you now despise.

I look at you through teary haze;
you don't return my saddened gaze.
My feelings nothing but a maze,
I go about my silent days.

You continue on with graceful ease,
ignoring my incessant pleas.
With one motion my heart you seize,
I'm locked away leaving you the keys.

You are an angel in my eyes,
my golden trophy, my perfect prize;
I thought we couldn't break the ties,
but it's too late to apologize.

In the stillness of night my love will find me;
In the shadows of the darkness he will bind me,
And we hide from the sun as we become one.

Let no one say that we were never meant to be;
Who can choose to direct a heart that desires to be free?
If other people cannot comprehend true love's vow
Than surely they do not know what we have now.

There is much more to this story than a confused girl with strange delusions,
And I can assure you all, it is not just mere confusion.
Now don't get me wrong, some of you might have been right,
But I know it's not any of you I want at night.

If you knew the feel of a man's arms when you break,
You'd know the reasons behind every risk I choose to take.
Sometimes love is the only way to let myself believe in life,
And sometimes all my dreams are what carry me through the night.

So listen, you critics, love isn't just a game;
It's not just for the crazy, the absurd, and the insane.
Love is a condition, an emotion, and a truth;
Lust is a disease that overtakes folks in their youth.
I may have been a victim, I might have found a cure,
Or maybe now I'm just a little more mature.

When you look out the window, do you see birds doubt their wings?
So when I speak to you about my love, why do you distrust those things?
I alone know the pleasure concealed, and surely I can say
That love is love and truly loves more for every day.

If love was a deception, a simple masquerade
Would people walk around in masks, making themselves a shade?
Would men go to war, to save those they love,
Would men ever be gentle, more so than a dove?
Without true emotions, what would our world be?
Surely, love is the thing that makes us choose to simply
Be.

When things began to crumble
And nothing seemed quite right
I was locked inside myself
Awaiting my demise

But even in the darkness
A tiny beam of light
A little shard of hope
To save me from this life

Devoid of feeling
Nothing but a shade
Emptiness and heartache
A dangerous charade
Pretending completely
That this life was fine
Until the ending
That fateful time

Ready to surrender
To finally give in
All set to be broken
Stretched infinitely thin

But a forgotten voice
Turned night to day
A light in the shadows
Showed me the way

Devoid of feeling
Nothing but a shade
Emptiness and heartache
A dangerous charade
Pretending completely
That this life was fine
Until the ending
That fateful time

We aren’t all so lucky
There is no second chance
I almost lost my path then
But that night was in the past

The light was nearly blinding
Even with shadows all around
I followed the hand that guided me
And I found my solid ground

Needless bloodshed;
Hands stained red;
All around you bullet shells,
And back home
Your best friend
Is the cause of funeral bells.

Why war?
What could be worth fighting for?
Do you know who's keeping score?
We're surely not.
We keep fighting
And dying;
We never give up trying,
But on and on explosions light up the sky.

A drafted man goes off to war;
Goodbye to kid and wife.
They see him soon
In a bandage cocoon,
Deprived of limb and life.

Why war?
What could be worth fighting for?
Do you know who's keeping score?
We're surely not.
We keep fighting
And dying;
We never give up trying,
But on and on explosions light up the sky.

Put your flags at half-mast-
Another life was lost today;
We fight for peace
What did we really gain?

Boys, put away your guns;
Men please tell your sons:
Don't ever break your mother's heart,
Because a war is never won.

Watch the world go by
Colors they can fly
Like a rainbow kite
Fly across the night

Where they go
No one knows
But we can follow
To the end

Don't waste your time
With your mindless games
Whatever you do
It'll all be the same

In the end
Where you are
Is where you stay
So don't let it be today

Live on
Live it up
Love it all
Have it all
Do it all
It's possible

Don't judge me
Just love me
I am me
Forever

You being you
Drives me insane
But don't change
Just don't change

I may falter.
I might not always win,
at least i get up and try again.
I believe in having fun,
even when things arent looking up.

I know to either laugh or cry.
I see the good in people.
I believe in happy endings.
I find joy in the little things.

I do not hold grudges
or harbor cruel thoughts.
I don't hurt others for fun.
Other people throw it around,
that ugly L word;
I am not a loser.

I'm lost again
Tossed away again
Lying here in waste again
Betrayed again
Sent away again
And still I wonder why
Why do I even try?

Hurt again
Burned again
Insulted, scathed, and spurned again
Wrong choice again
No voice again
To defend myself
Mend myself
Maybe even end myself…

Lied to again
Spied on again
Never should have tried again
Here I am
As I am
Just a sacrificial lamb
Bye again
To die again
I fear it is this time again
Farewell…

I wish upon a million shining stars
That I was yours again,
But you are where you are
And that won’t ever change.
Will it ever feel quite right,
This pain of separate place?
Or will my heart always be in pain
When I see your face?

I know that I cannot expect
To be the center of your life,
But would it be so selfish
To wish for just one night?
To simply lie beside you,
And have you hold me one last time
Before I say goodbye.

Would it be so wrong
If it made everything seem right
To wish for a place
Directly by your side?
I would give the world
To look into your eyes
And see reflected all the love
That I feel I’ve been denied.

Maybe I’m the wrong one,
Maybe it’s a lie,
Maybe I don’t understand
The way things change with time.
Maybe I’m just fooling
My heart, my brain, my mind,
Or maybe I’m just trying
To find a place to hide.

I know that I am young,
I have my entire life;
I’m looking in the wrong place
For my Mr. Right;
But everyone has left me,
I’ve nowhere else to go;
I can only think to go to you
And now, you’re not at home.

No wishes from a genie
Can bring the kind of cure
That makes this kind of heartache
Not hurt me anymore.
The most I can expect
To find within this time
Is a way to forget
That you were ever mine.

You don't know me or my heart
You've never seen what lies within
When several things come crumbling down
You won't be the one I turn to, no

You've no idea what it's like
To be on the outside, looking in
When I begin to break away
I know that I can't count on you, so

I cannot spare you any love
I cannot bare to look at you
I will not let you see my tears
Because I fear I will see yours

I know you aren't there, because you don't care
I know you aren't mine, and you never were
I wished for an ending from a fairy tale
And all I got was a nightmare

You've never held me as I cried
You sat and watched stony-hearted
As pieces of me faded and died
My self, my soul, the dear departed

Turn away, she died today
And your words were not comfort when
She called to you, and begged you to
Be the one she needed then

Now I'm dead, let this vengeance live:
To hold a grudge and not forgive

Ghastly shadows crowd the alley;
The sun sinks into the sky.
A vast consuming darkness
Fills the space twixt you and I.

A thousand turns of the hourglass
Can’t rewind to the time before,
When things could have gone quite differently,
But that’s a time beyond locked door.

Things might have gone quite differently,
A toss of a coin, a chance to speak,
But turns of events had another plan,
Leaving us separate, weary, and weak.

And now time is turning,
Another day has gone past.
The time gone by is farther now,
But memories will always last.

Broken, torn,
Ripped into pieces
Tattered to rags,
And left all alone

Ridiculed, scorned,
Completely shattered
Battered and bruised,
To the side thrown

Forgotten, abandoned,
Alone in the dark
Utterly hopeless,
And scared to call out

Ignored, isolated,
Trapped inside darkness
Frightened and silent,
All filled up with doubt

I felt the sting that horrid day
When nothing seemed to go my way
And now I simply have to pay
For lacking the courage these things to say…

Teardrops
Keep falling down
And I don't
Utter a sound
When everything I do
Reminds me of you
Where else can I turn?

Angels
In heaven above
Reminders
Of things that I love
A simple melody
Of things that no one can see

A thousand lies spoken aloud
Give voice to a hundred woes
And each simple scar brings back memories
Of things that I used to know

Free me now into the air
Release me so I fly
On wings of silver I can float
And on currents I can ride

Believe me now when I say goodbye
But don't try to make me stay
Soon enough I’ll find my home
And things will be okay

A thousand lies spoken aloud
Give voice to a hundred woes
And each simple scar brings back memories
Of things that I used to know

Teardrops
In golden light
Reflected now they shine
Rainbows
Deep in your eyes
As we begin to cry

Angels
Here on earth below
Walking among us to guide
Spirits
Bringing hope to the weak
And setting us free to fly

I am not what I seem to be,
Wish to remain a mystery,
There is more than you can see,
Lying behind my eyes.

Paradox I must remain,
Driving people's minds insane,
Conundrum in need to be explained;
Can you see through my lies?

Complex puzzles, find the key
Not quite what I seem to be?
Look beyond, and you will see
What's been here all this time.

What is a person but a game,
Tiresome thing that is the same;
Every time it's just as lame:
There's nothing more to see.

Look beyond, in darkness too,
Look what lies inside of you,
What is there that isn't true,
That's the part we know.

True selves very rarely show
Everything that should be known
If I was the same as when I'm on my own,
Pretty sure you'd hate me.

Why live life as a shadow being,
Letting people believe they're seeing
Everything and still believing
That they're doing just the same?

No more I say, will these ones see
What truly lies inside of me,
Foolish ones, by my decree:
We're all living lies.

Some say
That love is an illusion,
But someday
I will prove them wrong;
In some way,
I will show the world the truth

Because when I fell in love with you,
Everything was beautiful,
And I knew it all was true,
And it was true love;
I heard the choir singing,
And all the church bells ringing,
And I spent my whole day thinking
Thank you angels up above

I knew I could find happiness
In some way;
I know it could be gone
Someday;
Nothing lasts forever,
Some say;
But I will show the world the truth;
I will prove them wrong

Love like a rainbow
Colors and emotions
Flood of confusion
When I look into your eyes

Love like a flower
Sugar sweet aroma
Like your smile shining
Lifting spirits high

My heart skipped a beat,
I’m feeling weak
Don’t know what you’ve done to me
I’m losing grip
And feeling it
Swept away in the grasp of love
Don’t save me

To have and to hold
An unending plea
To stay strong together
And keep you with me

And with each beat of my heart
I give myself into your arms
Never to fly away
Let this love never die away

For better or worse
Through calm and storm
Keep me safe
And keep me warm

Through sickness and health
And when you are down
I’ll be by your side
Until you come around

For rich or for poor
Gold is not all
The wealth of our love
Will lift from a fall

A wish fulfilled
A dream comes true
And all I want
Is to stay with you
To have a life
Where I am free
To love someone
And have them love me

Everything I was inside,
all the things I tried to hide,
slowly fade until at last
I am nothing but a mask.

All the dreams I held so dear,
all the things I used to fear,
gone so completely you can't tell
that there was more here than a shell.

Everything I ever was,
my life, my love, all gone because
I locked them away for far too long;
tired of shadows, they've finally gone.

She walks with her head held high,
Dreams reaching to the sky
But where she walks is far away
To those who live another day

For while she waits on silver wings
While angels bright their praises sing
Golden halo above her head
She floats thinking she is dead

But no, the life is stronger here
Where sorrows fly away with fear
And leave behind their shadows light
Of happiness and memories bright

When she sees beyond her eyes
A heavenly chorus harmonize
And sing the song of lasting life
To bring those weakened through the strife

She is one of many still
Who realize their joy is real
Who never feel that pain again
For feelings true are at an end

And the moonlight shone
So far away from here
And it glittered and it glowed
Separating dark and fear

So far away from here
There's just a little time
Separating dark and fear
Two places in my mind

There's just a little time
Let me tell you what I know
Two places in my mind
Very rarely can I show

Let me tell you what I know
There's another side of me
Very rarely can I show
I let few people see

There's another side of me
Like the dark side of the moon
I let few people see
But it won't be there soon

Like the dark side of the moon
It won't glitter, it won't glow
It won't be there soon
And no moonlight shone

I hurt myself in little ways
In the beginning.
I’d force myself to spend time
With people that I didn’t like,
People that didn’t like me.
I’d end up frustrated as the tears
Cut across my cheeks
Drawing invisible scars.
That was only the beginning.

I began to deprive myself
Of the simple pleasures.
I’d throw up after every meal.
I was dehydrated and malnourished
And it still wasn’t enough.
My mouth burned and
My stomach turned on itself.
I couldn’t sleep at night.
I didn’t want to.

Stage three of my self-hatred.
I secluded myself from my friends.
There were days that I
Wouldn’t leave my room,
Wouldn’t leave my bed.
There were days that my head ached
From the tears that burned as they fell
Onto photos of people that I used to be,
People that I wish I could be again.

After that, the inclination grew stronger.
I couldn’t decide between drawing blood
Or refusing to draw breath.
One bottle of pills, one locked door.
And it would all be over.

My dearest fairest maiden,
Why is it that you weep
When I have promised you my love
And that your heart I’d keep?

My fair and lonely maiden,
Let your tears not leave your eyes
For you have much to live for,
You are far from your demise

Why is it that you sit there,
Crying out a plea,
When, love, you know that in my heart
You mean so much to me

Why let your tears reflect the pain
Of wrongs done in the past?
For you my dear there is no fear,
This love shall always last.

My truly lovely maiden
No words for you have I,
I will love you from the dawn
Until the sun sleeps in the sky.

Far away
The music’s playing
But I can’t sing along
Heavy hearted
Words are saying
That I do not belong

So I go
I travel
All alone I make my way
Seeing faces
And places
Where the music meets the day

And in that night while burning black
The fire raged away
While shadows circled all around
I found that I could stay

Somewhere magical I was
Something dangerous become
Someone called my name and I
Was somewhere dancing in the night

The wild winds were calling
A sky lit up with flame
A thousand nights of longing
Ending in a timeless game

Around the fire
A dance, a chase
And into the shadows
Dark velvet embrace

Free and flying
No longer dying
But released
To be nothing but me

Somewhere magical I was
Something dangerous become
Someone called my name and I
Was somewhere dancing in the night

The moonlight
our spotlight,
the ground is
our stage.
The stars
our audience,
the night is
our music.

As the light fades,
we pick up the pace.
We dance together
in the moon's embrace.

The moonlight
our spotlight,
the ground is
our stage.
The stars
our audience,
the night is
our music.
You are
my partner,
and this is
our dance.

When I'm beaten
When I'm down
Pick me up off the ground
When I'm broken
Came to harm
Just hold me in your arms

Your love it surrounds me,
Only you can ground me
Help me keep moving on,
Help me keep going strong

Don’t let me fall,
Don’t let me shatter;
You caused the pain,
It doesn’t matter;
You’re still the one I turn to
Please don't fail me now

You're like a beacon
In the middle of the night
You understand me
Help me get through this fight
When it seems I'm about to lose
I can always count on you

You bring me through the storm,
Beyond what brings me down;
Don't be the one to hurt me,
Always stay around;
When things become too difficult
And I'm falling to the ground,
Be the angel of my heart
And keep me safe and sound

Let Earth have its way,
In the end
It will end;
Let life have no say
In what you do.

But for each,
Do your part
No shadow of a doubt
That the end will hold
A secret thing or two.

Let go,
Don't hold on;
Holding back
Not your self.
Set free words
That could maybe
Save a life.

But you know,
In the end
All that's left
Is the story
Of what could,
Of what might have been.

All the things
That could be,
All those words left unsaid,
And all of it
At the end.

This oppressive heat, it chills me to the bone.

To think how a week ago the cold snow scorched
the ground and painted it ash white
as the finger-bone tree branches stretched towards a gray day sky.
The sun shone and made it colder,
made the mid-city seem like frozen tundra,
burying us under so many layers of clothing and despair.
The desolate city wasteland had never felt so claustrophobic.

But now, the heat sears through my closed blinds
as I stay inside to avoid the nice weather
and the “nice weather we’re having, isn’t it?”
from strangers who appear in the streets
as if emerging from a hibernation state too long inhabited.

It’s at times like these that I pray for rain,
for something to soften the rays of the sun
festering against my skin.
It’s easy to forget the heat in the dead of winter,
but it always comes back to remind us why we love the fall.

Maybe all it takes to find
What someone else left behind
Is an open heart
And an open mind

Maybe all it takes to save
A person ready for the grave,
Someone full of despair,
Is somebody who cares

Maybe all it takes
Is a little bit of love,
A little bit of caring,
A push and a shove;
Maybe all it takes
To turn this world around
Is somebody, somewhere
Who cares when you’re down

When I’m searching,
When I'm hopeless,
Down on my knees
And there’s no hope
For a new dawn
Between you and me;
Maybe all it takes
Is a little bit of time
To mend all the wrongs,
To fix all the ties

Maybe all it needs
Is more than there is,
But who can say
What will stand in our way?
When it comes to the end
What else can I do?
Maybe all it takes,
Baby, all it takes is you

Don’t put me on a pedestal

-I am human, and my ways
might change and wander day to day;
I live and love and laugh and learn;
I die and cry and hurt and burn-

don’t you know your words can ****?

One thing I know
There are angels among us
Those who would save us
From the beast of ourselves

Those beings with haloes
And wings on the wind
The ones who would save those
Who can't be alone

The angels that I know
Earning their wings
Speeding to heaven
Riding the wind

It’s a losing fight
Please help me find the strength
To make it through this night
I'm not sure I can go on
I'm holding back my tears
Fighting off my fears

My heart is breaking inside
Please help me find the pieces
Before the joy has died
And I am left alone
I'm praying to heaven up above
Clinging to the ones I love

There’s a light at the end of this tunnel
If I just keep moving on
There’s an end to all my troubles
If I just keep going strong
Things build up and build up
Until I can’t take it all
But in the end ill make it through
I’ll make it through the fall

When this cloud has passed
And the sun is shining down
When the pain at last
Finally stops coming around
I'm wondering if you’re still there,
Wondering if you still care…

I used to be you; I wasn't myself
you are not me; you're a ghost.
You impressed them by deeds,
but i know your failures;
I know your secrets
the lies, and the doubts.

I'm headed toward the light,
but I'm caught in the darkness;
lost in the shadow cast by myself;
haunted by my own dark past.

Things change too fast, or I don't change fast enough.
Time flies by when I haven't even grown my wings.
There are things that are not how they used to be.
They are not how I want them to be.
They are not how I need them to be.
People leave while I am still hanging on;
thread by thread they cut themselves away.
I too am cut in the process.
People are running and I
am falling, drowning, breaking,
stuck in the landslide of
too many failed relationships
and too many successful lies.
There is a time and a place for everything,
and I fear that I have no time or place anymore.