i know you look at light
and think of what
we could have been but
honey
we are
in another life
i'm waist deep
in your honey jar

i turned over the keys
nothing
dead battery dogsled **** break
writing my name into you with acid
melting
i'll stick with you, she said
bread and butter, she said

i'm no saint
i never
followed all the rules
not often
i conveniently forgot to tell the truth -
but often, enough
i was living like i had nothing to lose -
it's unfair
when you're unaware
blind eye to the only voice around
i drive fast
because i have places
i'd rather be than here

my eyes
tingle, and my lips
curve
my music...
the music -
shadowy slates
a cold surface damp
pixelated vibrations
i tend to ask too many questions
i'm told
i tend to ask too many questions
i know

took the day seriously
i was at a glass desk
with a glass heart
s h a t t e r e d
piecing it back
together
with each letter
i was
learning from sewer traps
and breathing smoke with words
i was chaos like a tumbleweed

You can't shut me out forever.
I yammered
cooking dinner steam in my eyes
it already smells spoiled, but we feast.*

our love is like a potted plant
I brought home one night -
poisons coursing in my veins -
I plucked a pretty flower from the Earth
and raised it to the sky
I bought fertilizer and dirt
and forgot about the sun shine -
I let flowers turn yellow and wilt
I let spiders make homes in your hair -

she was like a stallion
galloping through the grocery store -
kicking people in the face
and breaking objects constantly -
she was like a lion in a hen house -
i was like a piece of candy
being held by a baby -
she was like a can of gasoline in a fireplace
i was the tiny mist of fume of gas from when u filled the
stupid canister because
we broke
down and you said
you'd walk, i was a witness
she was a tyrant - she was a gift
i was a loss, i was so lost