they all told me that
actions speak louder than words
but as i got more confident i observed
that somehow actually got more reserved
like a formal verse was more normal? sure -
but let's explore the blurb
i'm speaking right now
the sort of world, where i wonder
do you hear my voice as noise, or me?
trying to get this off my chest
i lift to expose the things
that have frozen me, in dreams, of need -
infatuated with a better life, why
i am - gravitating towards the sun
and yes when the timing is right
i'll fly into the night and never return -
'cause all i see
are people killing people and
evils being refilled, and i don't see (this eye candy) -
why this gotta be the case
why you never wanna face
real reality without a base
without a vase, i'd rather push flowers
without a trace, watch the sour vanish within hours
taste the fast life, kiss of death
last night, almost wished for less
complexity - i mean, i need a breath.

i want to take your breath away
i thought as i saw her smile, silence
and grass bending in the breeze
her eyes press together with patience
and readiness for 'the next moment
i want to take her breath away
squirming and bumping shoulders
her mouth cracks a smile so genuine
i almost freeze up stop but i know her already
i want take your breath away
as were talking holding hands on sidewalks
below reflective towers bellowing promises
but her voice is a dove on a sunday morning
as i'm looking through the screen porch
at a dim mist i realize
you took my breath away

what happened to you?
we used to talk about
women in sundresses, panoramic views in
sunglasses smoking cigarettes with gold necklaces
now you looking at me - I'm wondering
when did this
splintered finger nailed on a skeleton come from?

ten digits are what make up my being
echoes across a canyon that divides
you can't touch me baby don't even try
don't you see? i only exist in your mind -
i'm a little short on good news these days
i hear people talking about what just bad food can do to you for days -
blood sweat and tears i must say, i've trudged past these years, in one way
or another - reality is a struggle
when you judge a book by it's cover
swear they're shook, don't even bother -
catatonic - i catapulted past your walls - vibrating on a
higher frequency frequently i'm eagerly
willing to work, it's killing me envisioning
all the time your killing or worse - yourself
poisonous serpents sitting in my lawn
peering in my windows waiting for dawn
barely make it to the sidewalk and i yawn -
wanna walk back inside and hide my thoughts -
why? you don't ever call me, never - no
why? you said you would but it's been some time, i know -
why you don't ever, call me never - no
you already tried to take what's mine, i know -
see - you can't and you won't

What kind of friend breaks in and lies?
[[[      Man, that ain't a friend
          that's just a guy who's trying
          to stay by your side while you're supplying
          a good time and -
          then he's onto bigger and better things ]]]
****. Sit for a second before I tie shoe strings
You trippin' if you don't listen to my new flings
See, I'm surprised you ain't - addicted to some syringe -
See - I too, tried being true and clean
but this addictive personality just went and ruined me
Had to come back twice as hard
Press the keys that write the Lord
I know that I'm likely more - bound for Hell
Close my eyes and hear a thousand yell
Skeletons ask for my good help - my good word,
is all I got - I wanna apologize, but I do not
knowing all along you decide, what you want

You hurt me when you say you don't want to talk to me right now
Saying that because I can't be where you are something must be wrong with my heart
You hurt me when you say let's split the bill
Because otherwise you know I wouldn't be thrilled
You get me down
Even though I barely know you
You get me down
Feeling like I belong below you
You get it now?
She says, with a look of surprise
So condescending she couldn't deny
If I ask, but instead I let time pass
And swallow my pride along with this wine fast

whispering and quivering
is how i wish to spend my Sunday
afternoon as i wake
i curse the clock and tomorrow
but your breath on my neck washes away the sorrow
until next time
close your eyes