this year,
i will not kiss anyone
that i don't want to kiss.
i will not let people grind up on my ***
in clubs
if i am not interested.
when my heart races and falls, dead
into the sea of stomach acid
I will scream no
at the top of my lungs
so that you will hear me, for once
I will value
myself
and what i want.
I will actually learn
what i want
and chase it
like horses in
a meadow
running
because they have the most beautiful freedom to do so.
**i will stop being afraid
of hurting you
because, ******
you hurt me too.