Here I am walking down the street,
With crowds of people jostling about me,
All of them with umbrellas at hand.
Yet, I am thankful for the rain
Disguising the tears streaming down my face.
So nobody can see what’s going on inside.
Sympathetic looks I receive from random passers-by
But no one even reaches out.
No one tries to help.

Under the downpour that masks my face
You would see a broken heart.
Innocence lost with nothing gained;
What is this world coming to?
Promises cracked at the seams,
With lies given to glue our hopes back together.
With this dented society, it seems to be
Nothing pure, will I ever see.  

Broken at birth, our perception warped.
Will I ever glimpse something genuine and true?
Something that has not been changed
By the culture of today;
A something built on uniqueness and strength?
Without a care of who is watching.
Not a thought gone to judging.

I dream that one day all will live in harmony.
But I guess that good cannot be truly seen
Without a few bad things happening,
So we can finally appreciate the good.
So we can learn how to love,
Those small gifts given to us;
Like the smile of a passing stranger
Or a glimpse of the sun when it’s storming.

Still walking in the downpour of rain
But finally learning how to appreciate,
That even though the world is filled with evil,
There will always be some good
Hidden in all this darkness.
Even though my vision is fragmented,
One day I will be able to see
All the good that is around me.

I'm looking towards the future,
I'm leaving the past behind.
It's time to stop dwelling
On what could have been
And see what could be mine.
Time to take the paintbrush
And make myself
A new horizon to gaze upon.
Time to take charge,
To take the lead.
This is my life to live
And live it I shall.
Leaving the past behind
With the future in my eyes.

Feeling a little hopeless again;
Lost in depressing thoughts
Of the brokenness of this world.
Yet all I can do is sit here,
Feeling sorry for myself
Instead of taking a leap,
Trying to make a change.
What can I even do?
I'm just an insignificant girl
Who lives in a fairy land.
What to do besides let
The world pass me by
As I try my best to stay sane
When all that surrounds me
Is complete and utter insanity.
Can I take a stand?
Can I be brave and join the madness?
I guess all I can do is try.
You never know how much
One seemingly insignificant girl
Can do in a big world.

I just want you to know that I love you.
Despite everything going on here,
And I know I haven’t really shown;
But it’s true, I really do.
I love you.

How many times will I have to say it?
When will you finally believe me?

Again, I know I haven’t done much,
To prove to you, that I'm not lying.
I'm not that affectionate,
So it’s hard to show it;
I love you.

Will you believe me now?
Now that I've said those three words?

Out loud, I've shouted.
Words I thought I would
Never be able to say.
I hope you believe me now;
I love you.

I see you;
I see you in every little detail
Of the sky, of the trees,
Of the land, and of the seas.
You make yourself known to me
In books and through people.
I see you
And you are beautiful.
Beautiful in that way
That is strong and fierce,
Yet, also, kind and sweet.
You are beautiful in the sense
That you are lovable and to be feared,
All at the same time.
I see you and you give me a peace
That I have never had before.
In the midst of all this turmoil
I see you and I feel calm.
I see you;
And that is enough.

There’s something I need to say,
Simply put, I want you.
Tormented by dreams,
No longer just in my sleep;
But I find myself drifting,
Dreaming of you as I lay
Awake on my bed,
Staring into the light above me.
It’s as if nothing else exists.
Only you do.

But it’s irrational,
These dreams that encompass me.
You see, I barely know you.
Yet you’ve got me enchanted.
Captured in the way you talk,
The way you carry yourself.
I could go on about these things
I perceive of you.

Are these things even real?
I'm afraid that I'm only
Infatuated by your mystery.
I've only ever seen
What everyone else see’s;
The person you choose
To share with the world.
For all I know, you wear a mask.
Pretend to be something
That your not.
And then I’d be a fool.

Yet I can't seem to stop myself,
From this day dreaming.
You forever press against my mind.
I've gotten carried away;
Started to craft a you
In which I can enjoy.

But what happens when
The veil is removed?
Once I finally get to know you?
Disappointment.
And what then?
Dreams popped like soap bubbles.
What if you remain obscure?
Should I take this chance?
Or should I run away?

Love at first sight;
Many believe it to be irrefutable.
Yet I find it to be unreasonable.
How can one just know that
A person they've only just seen
Be the person that they’re
Destined to be with?
It seems to me that
that would simply be infatuation.
Aren’t they only falling in love
With someone’s appearance?

Yet here I am,
Having just met you
A short while ago;
Claiming that I couldn't
Bear to live without you.
All I want is to make you mine.
Terrified of the person you may be;
Frightened by the idea of rejection.
After all, I am a skeptic
Of my own emotions.
Afraid to eat my words,
Yet, also, to prove myself right.
What would you say if you knew?

Get out of here, you evil ghosts.
You hide within me, telling me dark lies.
You make me fear the unknown,
Despair over the simplest of things.

You dark spirits, you hold me back.
My full potential hidden,
Within the darkness you fill me with.
Lost without the light you've taken.

Fear; you seep into my heart,
Clog up my mind,
So that I cannot think clearly,
Make decisions freely.

Where is my strength when needed most?
Where is the boldness that I used to hold?

All I see around me is grey.
An endless haze covers my eyes.
I don’t know where to go,
So I'm left turning circles.

Numbness pours into my bones,
Sleep completely evades me
So that there is no escaping
These endless tunnels in my mind.

Haunted; the life has left my eyes.
The darkness seeps in,
Leaving me completely blind;
There’s no where left to hide.