I just wait.
All I have to do is wait,
Then maybe I will get the answers
that will be written on my slate.

What am I supposed to do?
Where am I supposed to go?
I wish I knew.
Time goes by so slow
and I have not the patience
to let myself grow.

I cannot see into the future.
I do not know what it will be.
I am suspended on the finest, thinnest
thread.
What I do know
is that I just
have to keep going
and I just have to keep
waiting.

Layers.
We are each made up of layers.
Peel each one away and
you will find
beneath skin
a weaving web
of entangled vessels and nerves.
And beneath that
you will find
sinew, muscle, and bone.
But what do you find
when you go beyond
each *****
each tissue
each cell
each atom.
A heart is not a person's heart.
A voice is not a person's voice
A mind is not a person's mind
What truly makes a person
whole?
The *soul.

I am in love
with everything about you
You are perfect
to me.
I always come back to you
no matter what.
I am joyous
when I can find you.
I am always wishing
that I could find a way
to be with you
but it is not so easy.
So many times I feel that
I am not good enough
I will never be good enough
but then I realize
with you
I just have to be
me.

This is my weakness.
This is my one desire.
I couldn't say this more or less,
You set my soul on fire.

Is it so wrong,
to want what you will never get?
I've waited so long,
perhaps our story is not yet writ.

One day I will hold your hand.
One day we will share a kiss.
I know this is not what I planned,
But I can't help that I already miss
what I never even knew.

I want *you.

You are my all,
You pick me up when I fall.
You are my everything,
You make the stars shine brighter at night.
You bring me back into the light.
You make me want to sing.
You make me want to dance,
You even give me a second chance.

When I didn't think the world could get any more beautiful,
You bring sunshine on a cloudy day
and the light warms my face.

*I trust in your unfailing love
my heart rejoices in your salvation;
I will sing to the Lord,
for he has been good to me.
(Psalm 13:5-6)

Drowning again
Swimming for the surface
but it just can't be reached.
When will I be free?
When can I finally
breathe?

I just want to give up.
So let me.
let me.

I** am always searching and I
wish I could find what I was looking for.
I am always daydreaming and I
knew what I always wanted to do.

how do I even begin
to write with eloquence and
say what moves your heart in
the most beautiful way possible?

words just do not appear.