Thank you for telling me I have a beautiful smile
I'm starting to believe it even though it's taken a while

I wish you all the best in finding your pathway
Health,  fun and happiness without too much to pay

I hope your daughters grow up beautiful and happy
And you will be there, strong for them when life gets ******

My life is kind of empty without you now and I did cry
But with these words stop and say a last goodbye.

X

Sometimes I don't want I to be strong, I want to lean on somebody's shoulder,
Sometimes I don't want to be the rock, I want somebody
To be my bolder,
Who are you somebody,  I don't know just a wish and a Happy dream,
Who am l? I still have to learn, a ghost or just someone
I seem?
What my body and face look like is not who I am
Kinda like a wolf in sheeps clothing, actually a lamb
If I think about It i can be like autumn,  hot and cold
I can be very very shy or suddenly very bold!
Or my life is a poker game, never the same card
Can be very sweet and light or you lose and very hard
But you can sit at the table and hide with your sunglasses!
But  understand lifes an adventure, not many chances!
Enjoy or cry, grab today with both hands
Because tomorrow hey I who knows where it lands.

Life! X

I don't know allways  what to feel when I read the
Anguish and the pain
The young poets and the old,  sometimes I really think
This world is insane
My one wish would be to help if I can, but my shoulders
Are small
My back is bent I cant stand straight,   carrying the weight
Have to crawl
But to everyone out there who is shouting and screaming,  you need to realise
There are people like you and me who read and feel and do
Hear your cries!

I have to say I am tired of people looking
                           .                   On the outside!

G'd  what terrible words thet are! I am more,
                                            It hurts my pride!

I am a girl, a woman who had to fight
To live my own life, don't I have that right?

Why do I have to explain to everyone that I like men!
Why do I have the feeling I have to pick up a pen?

To tell once and for all my face is not the real me
Why can't people see??????????

To everyone that I am making crazy
Sorry everthibg I do now is kinda hazy

Who am I but an old woman looking for a place
                                     To put my hat!
Meybe have a little fun in my life, have a beer
                                       And a chat!

Christ I am tired ofvthis crap and ****!!
Someday I will find myself and a place where I fit!!

You just stopped everything,  no explanation,  no answer
               Not even goodbye!!

My heart hurt, just want this pain to stop, but my question
               Renains! Why? Why? Why?

Sick of body
Sick of heart
Tired to the bottom of my soul

But fighting still
Trying to find the meaning
To keep looking and not give up
Standing tall and facing life!

And then. Smile!