I never seem to learn,
no matter how straight the lesson,
and if at all I've learnt one thing,
theres nothing like a first impression,
impressions last forever,
no it wont ever fade,
that's why I think your here right now,
and with me everyday,
in my head,
my heart,
my all,
see all has changed,
you've made me tall,
with just that look,
that moment of time,
that moment of perfect,
that moment you're mine,
my days aren't so hectic,
no not when I see,
that look in you're eyes,
that moment of peace.

To my secret something,
the girl I once knew,
the girl I once loved,
the girl with no clue,

Often I would sit and dream,
of a life involving you,
not as secret,
not as was,
not as "something",
but something new,

Like what I've seen in film,
the feeling felt so right,
an average day,
a random class,
a girl, a look,
then love at sight,

Emeralds for eyes,
skin warm to the touch,
you're close,
I feel you,
I kiss you,
you blush,

Alone with me you were clear,
you made me feel amazing,
every second we ever had,
the entire time,
my heart was racing,

Hurt,
and I am ashamed,
its all ****** up,
and I'm to blame,
without you,
I am no man,
without you,
I am not the same.

i had a thing up with this girl,
but it turned out it was wrong,
its ended now,
so i just thought,
that i might right this song,
im not gonna whine,
im not gonna ****** cry,
instead il just say thank you,
for making me this new guy,
for opening my eyes,
cause now i see,
that everything that feels this good is never meant to be,
it still hurts you know,
inside of me,
so il wait patiently until it leaves.

but its not that simple,
see you cant just quit it,
when its deep inside of you,
when its what your livin,
see i get blamed for theft,
at least attempted,
cause people dont know that whole story,
step off,
if anyones to blame,
yeah its me,
come on haters let it out,
you can rip me piece to piece,
but leave her alone,
its not her fault im a ****** idiot you should know by now im ******,
so let me hear it,
cause imma only shrug it off,
cause you gon' judge me anyway so hommie get lost,
im not gon Change,
nah, i Can't,
so if thats what you want from me,
best i can do is rant.

i do this for me,
all alone in the dark,
to only past the time,
while i wait for a spark,
that something,
that someone,
the thing everyone gains,
but everyone is not me,
you see when it drizzles,
it rains.

im shaking,
im anxious,
i need it right now,
that feeling,
that rush,
that knowing of how,
although im still cautious,
i prepare it with haste,
the fire, the inhale,
that feeling, that taste,
it hits me, i hate it,
i love it, its mine,
im faded, you see me,
im ****** up,
you're fine.

the wind it blows
it stops it goes,
you know its there,
it never  shows,
the winter cold,
it hails,
it snows,
its chilly,
its freezing,
im sneezing,
my nose,
knows that it is back,
the season that i love,
the things it brings,
seem one step above,
the seasons of heat,
the rain and the colours,
its the season for us,
its the season for lovers.

i wish that you could see me,
i wish i knew who you were,
i can almost see you,
but almost is just a blur,
the closer you get,
the harder it is,
to keep from this wishing,
to see through this mist,
i want it, i need it,
its all that i ask,
to find you, and hold you,
someday remove this mask,
of complexity and confusion,
of the lies and the deception,
but first i must answer,
but one simple question,
what is it i need,
and what are the things i want,
the difference between the two,
one is love, and ones a taunt.