Grasping who you are…
Is like no other feeling…
It’s as if you feel nothing but your heart does…
It’s as if you're whole but you know that you’re not
You feel nothing but this strange, desperate feeling in your heart.
And as you wait for the missing piece,
It will seem like forever
Eternity even
The day you felt lonely
Or the week that dragged on forever
Or your once favorite pair of jeans,
that never changed but just don’t seem to have the same effect.
Or your favorite meal, that just didn’t taste good
Or that rainy day that you hated
Or when your favorite song that never seemed to leave your head… did
Or the year you lost your appetite
And even your friends.
It’s all for a reason.
But you think otherwise...
Feeling the depression
Letting the sadness sink in,
You think
Maybe you lost yourself
In the mess of your childhood
Or in the mess of your head,
Then comes the hatred…
Unwelcomed,
But
Lightly knocks,
Pin-pointing it at first,
Then spiraling down all at once,
Your life *****,
Your life *****.
The numbness won’t leave
These jeans just won’t quit
This weathers too much
This song is just annoying
Sorry mom I’m not hungry
Why does no one like me?
Then comes the answers
Or so you thought
No eating
Just bleeding
And listening to rock
You’re used to it all by now,
You’ve shut yourself out,
mom go away.
You’re now addicted to your pain,
That when you feel anything but,
You freak out and want that cut.
You fight the urge,
Scared that someone will see
It’s getting out of control
No mom let me be.
I’m fine
I’m fine
Just tired that’s all
Using excuses from your childhood
And from the mess in your head
You’ve developed anxiety
And you’ve let your life spiral out of control
You’re now broken, and lost
But isn’t that just what this is?
You feel nothing but your heart does,
You know you’re whole but you’re not,
There’s a strange desperate feeling
From the missing piece
And that’s all.
You’ve forgotten your roots
In this materialistic world
Gotten ****** up in gossip
Now forever and alone
Lost I am lost