I shout her name
It's far too late
She walked away
I am alone

It was an angry day
I hit the wall
Ignore my way
I jump to fall
I try to run
I try to hide
I'm blind by the sun
Enjoy the ride
Grey bars
Orange garb
Gory scars
Unhealthy heart

I took a walk
I saw a cross
I knelt down and walked beside Him
He told me what I knew
But what I had to hear:
"You saw the snake,
Ignored the cry
'Here's the apple.
Want a bite?'
Why not eat?
Come,
Walk with me."

Before I knew you

There were sad days
There were still tears
I still exploded

Keep in mind

Before you, I was an atomic bomb
Before you, I was always sad
Before you, I saw no meaning in myself
Before you, I was nothing

Roses are dead
Violets were fake
Lift up your head
Hear that old snake

What is strong?
What is weak?
Do you know either, Natalie?
You say you're not strong
What are you?
I know that in no way are you weak
There are no expectations to live up to
No limits to defy
There is only you
You're
            Words
                      Thoughts
                                       Actions
                                          Tears            
                               Arms
                       Fears
              Heart
    Scars
Every beautiful streak of light in your smile
Everything in you making you fall
Now, fall back to me
When time comes, run away
You aren't a quitter
Stop trying to give up

I looked in the mirror. All I saw staring back was this beast. I see this monster. This evil creature I'd become. I watch the tears roll down my face, and I just look so much uglier. "How do I fight you?!" I shout. I look so small. I'm weak. I can't handle my thoughts, emotions. I can barely lift an eight pound weight well. I'm puny. I am useless in school. I feel unloved by near everyone. I can't stand this creature in the mirror. I can't be weak anymore.
I tilt the chair
My feet dangle and kick
And just as the world fades, I see that this made me weaker than I was before. I never could be strong. How ironic.

We look out our windows
I wish I could talk
Find somthing to say
Everything dies
Nobody stays
Love can go cold
You can let go
All fears will grow old
We never stayed together
We always said, "I love you"
We tried tried to like the other
You once said you hate me
Now, baby, just hate me
We know that we're flawed
And we know I'm the true monster

Words without meaning
They came from my mouth
Inspiration to others
Nothing to myself
I never wrote what I wanted
I wrote it for you
Memories I've haunted
I'm a needle; pull me through

You're underrated
Misunderstood
Is it hard to be happy?
I find myself sad
I look around
"Hey, where's Dad?"
Well, the truth
He isn't an excuse
I make my own smiles
And I'll cry if I get lost

The beauty runs out
The blood goes cold
They try to shout
The killer grows old
My head on the block
No way I could flee
The ax makes a chop
But the killer isn't me

Cry, baby, cry
She's dead in her eyes
Die, baby, die
She took her own life
The sunlight beamed
The people screamed
One simple line
Scratched in her flesh
"It was your fault"
We all caused her death

The ground flies closer,
The sky runs farther,
The sun sinks sooner,
My heart beats harder,
And like a dream
I die.

Once I saw a butterfly
It was pretty and red
It felt kinda funny
The smile on my face
And it only grew
I brought that butterfly
And it was you

If I never saw a butterfly, I wouldn't ever have smiled.
If I never noticed a paint splatter, I never would have dreamed.
If I never saw your stripes, you wouldn't have saved me.

What will we use?
What will will do?
What have we done?
How did this happen?
Is this the end?
Why are we empty?
Where have you gone?
Just tell me:
Why did you die?

A hop and a skip
A man on a trip
Everyone stays here
I say let's go
Where do we run to?
We're here at a show
Now go take a bow
The curtain is falling
Just like my tears
Life is a play
And you're a prop
You've got nothing to say

Pills pills
I cannot taste
Pills pills
I cannot feel
Pills pills
Down the drain
Now go on you beauties
Come turn me pale

You looked and you loved
You heard and you helped
First you walked
But later you ran
You saw a monster
And you say that you're numb
You want protection from hell
But instead you found me

My ears are covered, yet the screams sre louder
The world is paused, but somehow moves faster
I closed the book, but the end's coming sooner.
I never saw a butterfly, and I've never seen a beginning. There is only a strange circle of workong out. We all lose. I am no great man and my life was a lie

Quiet blue lips
Secret brown eyes
Tasteful pink mind
Funny green spine
Lovely grey words
Sensitive taste
My final ****

Chained to the glass
Under a knife
In a small room
Cars in my head
Trees falling down
The reflections are dead

I'll never tell
The tears are dry
All air is cold
Under this sky
I've grown so old
I cannot cry
My soul is sold
Alone I'll die

Silly red drink
I cannot think
****** blue knife
I took your life
Dumb purple eyes
I'm filled lies
Hungry grey bars
Prison leaves scars

My brain is fried
My head is all right
My heart has died
My chest is still tight
I hear the car roar,
A click, a blang,
Shot down in my front door

You make my head hurt
You make my bones ache
Say that I'm dirt
You call me a fake.
You say what I'm worth
My bones are to break.
The fire leaps from the hearth
You tremble and shake.
You turn to ash first.

Nothing profound
Just a boy at his school
Phonies abound
No wonder I rule

The blade ran away
The gun stole your legs
You walk here today
and drink out of kegs.
Your long hair is grey
Your pale skin is dead
You leave now today
Your life goes unsaid

You say that you've run
I see there's no sweat
You got lost in the sun
I got lost under bed
We fall and we fall
Our hearts break in two
We scream and we cry
There's no more to do
The storm had come
But it still hasn't passed
It has destroyed our rose at last

Brown eyes
Brown skin
Brown hair
Just how I was brought in
They say that I'm brown
And it's in my blood
What I am marked by
And I'm tried for this crime
My brown blood is the why
Hear the snap of their noose
My brown heart will now die

You wake up in the morning
and breathe in the air
It's cold and polluted
It makes your heart bare
You **** the silence with a long drawn-out yawn
You kiss your loves
and leave before dawn

Another year older
No more years wiser
Another day colder
They put out my fire
A sinking sun
A fleeting moon
A walk then a run
But you're dead by noon

The screams are blank
You are grey
You cry to me
I run away
You love for free
They shout my name
Heaven's gates have a fee
I turn for help
The crowd's gone silent
Turn back around
And nothing's quiet

Out of breath
Empty pockets
Close to death
A fleeing rocket
Pull up the gun
And soon I **** it
You've cut too deep
You run away
You go to sleep
I hear a bang

Shower curtain
Frozen veins
****** pillow
Reddish stains
Lifeless body
Still screams names
Fear of heart
Water drains
My lips part
I killed her pain

Lift your head
Taste the sin
Break the bread
Scream again
I see your eyes
I live off dread
Call me lover
I live under your bed
I'm your own monster
I can crack your hard head
The blood it ran
We painted you red
Come now, dear lovely
There's nothing unsaid.

Dumb eyes
Heavy head
Long hair
Great undead
Here I walk
Or do I lay?
No one who's come
Has ever stayed
Am I alive?
Or are you dead?
The fear, it comes
I leave my bed

You look so happy
We still see the stains
You laugh at our jokes
We still feel your pain
Now take your anger
and release your fear
Nothing left to say
Life never loved us anyway
Look away from your knife
Now I'll bring you back to life

Quiet brown  eyes
Soft red lips
Angry white hands
Lovely blue fire.
It kisses my skin
Embraces my heart
Silences my rage
Makes my lips part
I look back to me
I'm nowhere to be found
I scream to the heavens
I'm buried in the ground

Cry, he says
no more Tears
Smile they say
a kick in the teeth
Dance with me
my feet ran away
I laughed
She cried
no games to play
I stare at my cup
Nothing to drink
the tea's gone cold
I look to the wall
the paint peels off
I watch her blank stare
The pain screams into my heavy head
Finally I know
No way I'm not dea

Sit alone
Look to the stars
Dance with with the night
Ignore your scars
Dance with the night
The screams now fade
You watch the light
Now see it love you and leave you
All in the same night

I was no different
I still pushed in the morning
I still stared at a cold screen
I said, "I love you"
I still hurt the girl
I still fall and I fail
Pull the frail curtain back over my eyes
I've seen too much to not die.
One more burial, oh come to the service
A farewell until the new
No matter where I or you shall go
one thing is true:
I will always love you

I see fake smiles with dry teeth
on a dead tree I'm the last leaf
cling to the cliff
or fall without fear?
The tears.
Autumn again