Normal night
New woman
Same bottle of whiskey

Everything seemed to be going so well
Of course that's usually when I **** up
She professes her hate and slams the door
Good thing ol jack doesn't have legs

****...
The bottle reaches its end
Those Demons notice the coast is clear
My old friends closing in from their corners
Shrinking my spirit the closer they get

My backs hit this wall too many times
I think I've finally had enough
There is nothing left to lose
Fatigue replaces fear
An intense calm washes over me

It has become clear what I must do
A direct charge into impossible odds
With only two acceptable outcomes
Victory or death

And so I run
Spirit growing immensely with every step
This time it is the demons that shrink
Screaming and Retreating to their caves

I don't give chase
Its not possible to abolish them
they are a part of me
The young idealist cannot return
He died long ago

Here lies a coward where a man now stands
His soul bloodied from the hell hes escaped
The scars serve as a reminder of the battle once had
His spirit ever ready for the demons return

I am the lion
Roaming my jungle I do not step quietly
Panic.. Scatter at the sound of my footsteps
Know that if you wander these lands
All things in fangs reach belong to me

If you doubt me come and take this life
Make the choice and change your fate
give all you have and don't hold back
This jungle will not let you run

At first sight I will do my worst
Defiant eyes mean nothing in this game
One weak move and know that your mine
I am god with his spirit inflamed
A battle well fought death guides me now
Tonight we feast in your name

I dream of the beast to defeat me
That fear is my driving force
Hes on his way and I just cant wait
To find the limit in my final course

Life here is not for the weak
Either **** to eat or be food
I'm ready to die at any **** time
Show me right now
Are you?

Gripping my jacket in winter winds
Quickly working past empty streets
Not a strange sight at this hour
Still after what I've done it's for the best
No Witnesses to watch me skip town

Turning down an alley snow melts into slush
Replaying the night over and over in my mind
The deeper I go the warmer it gets
Sweat drips from my brow and stings my eyes
Purging my mind of sinful memories

Ditching the jacket and picking up pace
Red and blue hues flash between the buildings
What I've done is inexcusable
Its too late to look back and if they catch me
no surrender

The heat has become unbearable
I pull my shirt over head to take it off
Regaining sight I see a beast matted black
Blowing a foul odor through snarling fangs
With Bright red eyes piercing my soul

We're on death ground now
wailing sirens bounce off the alley walls
I have no questions but many regrets
This beast has come to drag me to hell
And all that's left is to fight

I stand before you today with a heavy heart
With arteries weighed down by sinful choices
Cant lie and say I didn't enjoy them at the time
but now that i face the consequences
I wonder if it was all worth it

she was pretty and damaged and I the drunken fool
with that combination nothing good can happen
cant lie and say I didnt love her
but now that i look back at all that we've destroyed
I wonder if it was all worth it

he was hers and went looking to find me
its not in me to run so now im staring down a barrell
cant lie and say im not afraid
but now that ive looked into his hateful eyes i know
a woman like that.. shes worth it

At the dive again
Familiar with every sin
Sipping whiskey I notice
A goddess with an *******
****.. here we go again
Tonight envy takes over

Across the bar exchanging glances
The *** is preoccupied with a waitress
Sending a drink squinting and smiling
She smiles back in that way that girls do
You know.. the look that says you've won
Tonight lust takes over

Finally he notices our tension
An argument erupts between them
Wonder if he knows Im her ex
Dont matter if he walks over fists will fly
Cant back down.. I ain't built that way
Tonight pride takes over

After a drunken clash the *** takes a seat
She takes his side and gives comfort
Kicked out the bar I take a walk
Wish I could say she wasn't worth it
We all know.. that would be a lie
Tonight loneliness takes over

I want to feel
Something
Anything
Here I go again
Screaming to the top of my lungs
Punching the ceiling of my car

I need to feel
Someone
Anyone
More shots
Grinding to the DJ's rhythm
Returning fists to my drunken opponent

I will feel
Somehow
Any way
another hit
Acting without consequence
Fighting the status quo

I've been driving down this road for too long
It's too dark outside to see just how far it stretches
the tape in my deck played both sides
Now there is only the sounds of the road and my motor

Delving deeper into the dark countryside the panic begins
Trapped in the vehicle it's getting harder to breath
I roll down the windows and it creates a vacuum
now holding my breath I slam on the brakes

I jump out of my car and sprint into the empty space
Deep into the night I run until my lungs fill with fresh air
Headlights in the distance behind me begin to fade
When the battery dies I won't know which way is forward

Falling into the cold dirt I stare into the nights sky
The only visible light is millions of light years away
Drifting in and out of conciousness i wonder how to reach it
This continues for hours
Rest never comes

Suddenly I hear the rumbling of tires
Then a vibration in the road
Headlights in the distance shine brightly
I head towards it sprinting and screaming

The large truck pulls over
The stout driver lets me in
We talk about good food and women and life
He drops me off at my car and jump starts it

I flip the tape and a saxophone streams through my speakers
I keep my windows down and breath deep
I've been driving down this road too long
At least Now the suns peaking over the horizon
And I can see a town in the distance
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