So in an infinity which exists
Can all possibilities exist?

Eternal repetition gnaws at my mind
Eternal renewal sets us free
Did all possibilities exist at one time
Before dissolving into the sea?

All possible perfect worlds would be nice
If we had a way to get there
But we're out here rolling around
As beams of light in the dark of the deep

I guess there had to be a standard
And physical limitations
All possible perfect worlds are limited
By the rule of physical impossibility

All impossible perfect worlds exist
If only in the mind
But when we search we'll find
So many new surprises

What kind of drugs was he on
When he saw the unity of all things?
Which type of kush was he smoking?
Was it indica, sativa or hybrid?

This is a lazy man's enlightenment
To let the plants lead your mind
So whatever you may find
It was shown to you

How many shrooms did Moses eat
When he went up on that mountain?
What stage of schizophrenia was he at
When we thought he talked to God?

Could I jump three rings of density
If I get really high?
Fifth, sixth, seventh and the octave
Clear into a bigger sky

What was Siddhartha smoking
When he sat beneath that tree?
To see all faces in an instant
How he's linked up with me

This channel is too crowded
Too much interference from the infinitude
So many different voices talking at once
Yet they have nothing new to say

She shares my illusions
We converse with the old gods
Then try to write something new
Only to be whipped back into the endless cycle

If infinity has existed for eternity
Then there can be nothing new to do
All possibilities have been achieved
From the terribly mundane to the incomprehensible

Or else we'll just keep spreading
Into the wonderous world of endless possibility
Expanding all the time
Never to return to the past

As I shed old gods for new
Like a reptilian shedding skin
I feel the overwhelming thought of eternity within
Multiplied by the infinity without

She shares my illusions
Recognizes the ascension of new aeons
Envisions the coming harvests to higher densities
As we ultimately merge into the immutable I and I

From the outside of everything
To the inside of you
I sit here on the back porch thinking
What else there is to do

I am an infinitesimally small part of the whole
The center is within my divine spark
Everything is moving around
As I sit here still in my pret

If I ever become a seventh density being
I hope I can finally get you to fall in love with me
All these big thoughts and philosophizing
And I still haven't gotten to know a woman well enough to make magic

I got sick in a Florida winter
Something evil was chasing me
Stayed up all night for days
Most of this probably didn't happen anyway

I started flipping through Gramps's Bible
Leaflets fluttered out
Little signs from God that I was fine
But I still couldn't shut my mouth

The roof of my mouth was bleeding for awhile
So I took more antibiotics and it healed
Went to a doctor then stayed in my room
Took what he gave me then saw how I'd feel

Then I went out driving one day
I thought I was feeling better
Drove all over the Nature Coast and down to the thunder
My mind was in tangles and filled up with wonder

I went to the casino where the sweet siren played
Didn't see her and was feeling too sick still to stay
Drove in a daze all over the freeways
Stopped at Mellow Mushroom for pizza and beer

Ordered the Cosmic Karma pizza dish
Saw Gabby fly by as an angel -- I wish
Ate and drank my beer
Then walked out into the wind and drove home

I got back to the house but I couldn't sleep
Thought my step-dad wanted to **** me
Left a note on the door then drove out in the night
What took place next was a hellish sight

I hit a few people driving out to the river
Was messing with my phone while driving -- go figure
But there were really no bodies there
I was conscious-unconsciously there unaware

One moment I pulled over to the side of the road
Thought the sweet siren was locked in the trunk
I unlocked the trunk and pulled out the nothing
Then the angel Gabby swooped in from the air

She carried the siren off to Heaven
Then I cranked the volume up to eleven
I think I was listening to The Gaslight Anthem
Continued my voyage out into the marsh

I found the place by the river to sleep
Out where the sirens weep
Slept for some time with my head in the trunk
Then it all got stranger from there

Angels came down and were crushing the car
I heard familiar voices all around
Then I summoned the explosive destruction of stars
And reality came clear with a thunderous sound

I ran full speed straight off the road
At a place where the road does bend
Ended up rolling and tumbling a couple of times
Must've really hit my head

The siren was there and strange angels came swooping
Thought I was still in the back feeling loopy
Had *** with the siren then she was freed
And the angels one by one started ****** me

Woke up in the ambulance
I was taken to hospital
Somehow made it through all that with just a scratch
The madness continued for three days and three nights

My mom came to visit and my step-dad and grandma too
I cried and said to them all "I love you"
My dad flew in to see me as well
Then took me back to Los Angeles (Hell)

For too long I hid my Omega Day in my mind
It's been mostly revealed from my unconscious now
Some parts are still missing but I'll find them in time
I swear that wasn't me and it's all disavowed

What can I know?
I'm a being on this earth
Truths and myths are all around
They've haunted me since birth

But what is knowing and what's myth?
These myths are sacred and profane
They blend together like the clouds
And fall as steady rain

What of myths about knowingness -
as the Gnostics do believe?
Flawed men by a flawed creator
Is what you're likely to achieve

The Demiurgos is a painter who painted all we see
Though imperfect, it is beautiful, and your will is always free
Life - it's true - is suffering from birth until the grave
None escape this fate - from king to pet or slave

Still we exist in something
Dissolving on God's tongue
In this confusion of a pantheon
Our spark must weigh a ton

Free me, Lord, from ignorance
Though you can only do so much
Enlightenment is knowledge
Which is still up to us

Integrity is essential
For society and for each man
All in all considering
I'll do just what I can

This life is temporary and I will not learn enough
But with higher light from messengers I might just break these bonds
And be lifted from this situation - freedom from rebirth -
To live as one eternally upon a heaven earth

For now I must admit that so much is in my mind
As above it's so below - from within here to all outside
Jesus Christ and sweet Sophia went through - they were tested, too
Everything they were is in you - do unto as they do

What can I know?
I have been chasing it since birth
The spirit is within me
It's all across the earth

I don't know where we came from
I don't know how I got here
But we might not be here too much longer
I'm sitting here on the back porch of my mind

Swamp gas bubbled up
Or anaerobic somethings commingled in the sea
A single cell expanded
We keep expanding till we're free

I have a megalomaniacal mind
It's a miracle how I think
Just as I chew more cannabis edibles
Then puke them up in the sink

Take another swig of liquor
Read the Bible and curse God
How'd the Lord of all Creation
Go and get this heathen wrong?

Really though I want like everyone
And this life is just a test
Who's the teacher and group leader
Who wanted all of this?

I don't know where I came from
This is my agnostic poem
I don't know how we got here
But I feel right at home