I'll move on to rhymes
That explode
From others minds
And others lips
I'll settle for the satisfaction
That only foreign words can bring
I'm wrestling
With my mind
It seems like I
Can no longer hide
From what I pushed away
What you hold dear
I fear
That the solution is clear
But only too transparent
For me to see
Without the glasses
You stole from me
And I'll forgive
But not forget
Of the times you smiled
But didn't repent
All the times I cried
But you couldn't tell
Because you were too busy trying to sell
False happiness to anyone who would buy
From a lost boy in a tie
and with that lie
you had them trapped inside a jar
Like fireflies
And the green on my finger
Just reminds me
Of the cheap jewelry
You didn't buy me
And the fake emotions
I bought
And tried to return
But didn't keep the receipt
I'm trying so hard
To make up my mind
About what I want
And what I must hide
And what I must find
And how I must try
To fill the hole
Inside my life
Left by the tall ones
I wouldn't call them
Parents just adults
Just the ones who gave birth
And brought me to earth
But beyond that
They aren't worth
My time
Or that rhyme
My love is hanging on a clothesline
And the clothes they gave me a bled
But not dry
Cause they are covered in tears
And soaked with my fears
Of not being enough for them
Or even my peers
Or my bestfriends
Because I can't ignore
That that word ends in "end"
So for a little while can we just pretend
That there is no end
And time wont stop
but when it does
We'll be on top
We'll hold hands at the finish line
And shivers will run down your spine
As you realize all I needed was your hand in mine
So with me on the count of ten
I will make a promise with my pen
We'll hold our breath and jump right in
to the water where we will swim
Until we cant see the sky.

I didn't think of sobriety as an option
Not for me at least
It was a given
Not a taken
And your friends don't seem to mind
And apparently you and them
You both think I'm adorable
But maybe that's not what I aim for
But I settle for any old kind
Of compliment or emotion
You let leave you lips
Or your heart