I found something worth crying for
And it's the fact that tears were gathering in your eyes as we had to say goodbye
It was the first time I could really tell you loved me.
I could tell you were trying to hold back streams of tears
I wish we had both let it out
One last cry in the arms of the person I loved most in the world.
The person I trusted most.
A final gift
A final hug
And like that you were gone
And I was left to explain where you had gone to
"He's gone"
That's all you want me to tell people
So that's what I will tell people.
Hello World!!!
He's gone!!!
And I really hope he comes back
But I just don't know.

Everything I write I write for you
Every syllable every word
Is all I wish I had the courage so say to you
But don't.

We never held hands, at least you never held my hand
And now I'm worried that will never happen
that my hands will stay empty forever.
My hands are perpetual black holes of happiness
******* the joy out of everything they touch
and I'm sorry you got caught up in that
you had no idea what you were doing to yourself when you asked me to talk
and I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the mess you were willingly walking into.
Maybe things would have turned out differently
but I can tell you one thing;
the next time I see you
the first thing I will do is hold my own hand
and pretend it's you.