Love

1.
i'll write you
a love
letter in
the
margins
of all my
papers
so you
know i
love you
way more
than you ever
think about
me.
have i
ever held
you so tightly?
let's talk
about me
i'm important
too
i love the
feeling of
your legs
warped
around
mine
& the sight
of clothes
scattered
all over
my floor....

2.
tell me
you love
me.
because i
love you.
almost
as much
as a liar
loves a
saint&
a angel
loves a
demon.
let's be
intermixed
let's be
yin&yan;;
let's
pretend
you let
me hold
your hand
for
five seconds
longer
than friends
but shorter
than lovers.
i like to
write love
notes in the
margins of
my heart
for you.

Give me your love,
I'm needy.
I need you to need me
So I can ignore you
So I can forget pain
You're fine I guess
If you consider fine
a Broken jaw &
a ****** lip.

I love the song birds
they sing in morning
they chatter in the afternoon
they (seem to) die at night
I love song birds
&
the song birds love me

I'm sorry that I called myself beautiful it was uncalled for to play on your insecurities
I want to call you beautiful, wonderful, fantastic. I just want to call you. And if you didn't know
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
Then you didn't know a lot: About
The sorry girls in the third floor bathroom. Who can't hold down their lunches like they are rumors and memories from past times spilling through lips painted red like stained glass into the ears of the all consuming toilet bowl. Or the girl filling her self up with anything within reach hoping to have there be padding in the empty spaces of her heart and masking the feelings that disillusioned her about the current area and caused her hope in her current generation to go down to .001. Or the girl who never knew that bleeding could be so raw, and painful and beautiful and a delusion of grader painted onto flesh toned walls. I'm sorry I prayed on you insecurities, it's not my fault you look so cute when you're vulnerable. I'm sorry that I can't play nice and I'm sorry I'm cruel to those I love the most.

Let’s go someplace where religion doesn’t decide my temperament
Where everyone is already “blessed” and I don’t have to worry about “salvation”
I don’t like to think about “hard” stuff
I like to think about soft stuff; like feathers, or wind, or dying
And if could sleep forever I would
But like Nikki said: “that’s why mankind alone among the animals learns to cry.”

the only thing i love more than myself is you
i'd do anything for you
you're beautiful and celestial
you always smell great and when the light hits your hair just right....
(gosh)
i want to tell you how much i care
about you & your feelings & your bad habits & your out dated t-shirts & trendy pants
i'd give up everything for you
most likely
i mean i don't have much to give or a lot to give up
and i don't have much to hide
especially considering the fact that i wear as little as socially acceptable to get your attention
but i know you're ****** up
i know you like to smoke -and i don't mean cigarettes- in the parking lot
and that instead of eating you're on an alcohol only diet & that your bad days mean you come to school sober & your worse days mean you come to school fighting mad (and drunk)
i know you like to act tough & almost went to jail for hitting your mom
but that's okay; that's alright.
everyone changes
i can tell from the gleam in your coal black eyes that you'd change
for me
with me
and god...
i just love you*

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The fall of societies norms is a impressive but heartbreaking thing to see.
Can't we go back to the time when people called each other sweetheart and brought home flowers?
If my generation is on the way to being the world leaders we need to step it up, class it up and remember that manners aren't dead.

Green Silk
I told you
That
The sun blazes
West
The moon glows
East

Green Silk
Was it wrong
For me to lie about
Things better left
Unsaid?
The celestial transcended mind
Lacks the ability to
differentiate between
truth and hate
lies and love

Green Silk
A humming bird came
And stole my love,
                          My heart,
                                  My soul.
Since when were you that kind of monster?
Bellowing endless monster songs
Since when?

Green Silk
I'd promised you
A hundred,
A thousand,
A billions
Things
Pretty Things
Lovely Things
Hard Things
Honest Things
Dulcet Things
Nitid Things
But don't count on it
I'm as late as the shipment from Taiwan
The one from last year
Now do me a favor.
Cancel it.

Green Silk
I wasn't joking when I said
"I hate you more than anything"
To love is to suffer:
I hate to suffer
A woman travels down the wedding aisle
I open my mouth
To object
           To say my peace


And birds fly out**

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Nitid means color or bright