Mellifluous

Mellifluous Mar 2012

Blotch

There's a freckle on my heart
And a spot on my lung
A tumor near my liver
A blotch on my tongue

There's a gap between my teeth
And a hole beneath my eyes
A tunnel through my bones
A hollow path to my knees

Each limb is disconnected
My blood has started to dry
It heals
And scabs
And I pick

My circulation's sore

Nothing will go through

There's a blank idea I have
And a love I want to keep
A darling man in my life
A dream without sleep

Mellifluous Mar 2012

They

They made me **** my family
As I stabbed I found I did not love them

They had me throw away my belongings
As they rotted I finally saw the delirium they had me under

They stole all my memories
As each was grabbed I was belittled
The expected them to matter

They chocked out all my emotions
As they strangled I lacked the will to gasp

They gave me spider veins
and ejection marks
and thumps where the love had been poured into me

They told me what was right
and what was wrong
and what I should do
and what I have done

They gave me a life
As I wanted to end mine

Mellifluous Mar 2012

Late Night Calls

Her laughter fell like rain
And so he was never in pain

They never felt the same

Always thinking more
Who could she blame

Mellifluous Feb 2012

Dreaming

There comes a point without expectations
Where slit wrists look beautiful
and eating disorders become your cure

You'll start to love naps
and resent people

You can cry but no one will notice
and you won't want them to

There's a point where blood is mellifluous
tears are sweet
bones are marvelous

There's a point where you
and your bed
become lovers;
One can't live without the other
and if you didn't have dreams to escape to
even though they tease you
no one would be living

Mellifluous Feb 2012

Below the Ground

A scent of musty basement
I've come to love
Just as my fingers on your lips
When you whisper in my ear

No matter how hard you try
to break the moment
I'll keep coming back
I'll never leave you
I can never leave
this

Your words
have become steam
I inhale them
through dry throat

Your bitter tongue
ripping
I lust for

Mellifluous Feb 2012

Opposites Attract

I'm two different people
They're polar opposites

My chemistry teacher has probably seen it

Everyone has

Just like hydrogen chloride
You don't have to go through the hell of a textbook to solve this one

I lie to myself

I want everyone to see how lonely and hurt I am, tell me I can trust them, hold me
I want to be loved
I don't want to be alone

When you're around you need to stay
Everything's better and it all goes away
I never knew what that was like

But that's the thing about polarity,
the positive comes with a negative

Go away

Go away
As far as you can
Run and break your ankle
But don't, I can't stand to see you hurt

Why won't you love me?

LEAVE

Leave
Or care

And I become pathetic

I miss you and I can't make up my mind

...

I guess molecules don't do that

Mellifluous Feb 2012

I beg

Your skin is silk
It turns mine rough
Me weak
I stumble every chance I get to speak
And you hold me closer
Please let go
Please know better
I won't
And if it's all fake you should leave
Be the one
Because I'd like to think you'll be my only love
After you there will be no one
I'd like you to be the one I marry
The only one
But I am a child
I am naive
It's too much to be abandoned
I know you're the only one
Please
Leave
You do not love me
And I will never stop
Neither of us know better
Until my heart stops
Please, please, please
Leave me
Because you do not love me