She cuts herself at night to see if she still feels
To see if anything is real and the scars they never heal
She tries to forget, but the memories are strong
There's no turning back from the damage she's done
She is watched and is judged
Made fun of, never loved
People are rarely polite or kind
They don't see what goes on in her mind
And either do I, but at least I will try
To smother her constant suffering
To rid her of tears that are ever flowing
Every night her pillow case is makeup stained as she stays up and cries
And she cringes as her own skin breaks open like an old, fragile vase
Yet she still feels the need to continually watch herself bleed

As she feeds her emotions and internal commotions
She's reminded of sorrow and personal convulsions
Even burns on her skin hesitate to smile back
But as they do, she finds a moment to relax
And when the wax falls hard off her skin
All she's left with is an emptiness within
When she says she feels like she wants to die
I wish that for her I could rip open the sky
Make it erupt with silver- lined clouds and sunshine
I truly do want her world to seem fine
Like everything's okay, though I know that's a lie
Her own mind is stressed with problems and decisions
All the horrible scenarios that she envisions
Somehow seem more real with each new incision

The razor she takes and creates another tear
The idea of self hatred seeds itself there
And quickly it evolves much deeper within her
After the blood flows
Her wrists take shelter in a prison of long sleeves
Though, many find her tales difficult to believe
She fights to take what sides she has left
In a world sent out to steal her last breath
Her parents don't want to understand her
Her friends don't take the time to scan her
They just leave her stranded
Left out for dead
Lost in her head

"Smile for me child
Won't you try and live for awhile?
Please don't go back and react with negativity
Don't try to find relief in your twisted stress release
Won't you please stay with me?
Please, I beg you, put down that knife
More than anything, I need you in my life"
But it comes to no surprise when she lies, 
"I'm fine"
The line used to define that you're not
My stomach knots up and I feel so caught
It's not as if I've never felt this way before
But we're so close that I had expected much more
Expected a little willingness to try
To unravel our lives summed up in a lie

She cuts her self at night, to see if she still feels,
to see if anything is real and the scars they never heal,
though she tries the memory's... like the scars..... are
more then real and shall never fade though she stays
up late and prays they may,she is made…. an example of,
the people are never kind, but they don't know what
goes through her mind, and either do i, though i always
try, every night she stays up and crys but she feels the need to
continually watch her self bleed,

As she feeds it, the emotions and internal commotions,
bring down sorrow and personal convulsions, Burns on her
skin smile back, it takes her a moment to relax, after wax
falls hard off her skin, leaving only an emptiness within,
When she feels she wants to die, I want to make the sky,
open up and all the clouds erupt into sunshine, make the
world seem fine, and everything's okay, but it's not,
her own mind is fraught with problems and decisions
and the thing that she envisions is the problems that
she's created with each incision

And as the razor takes and creates another tear,
The fear grows greater as the self hate grows
and evolves much deeper, Within her,
After the blood flows, the longs sleeves lay low,
on her arms in order to hide, she fights to take
what sides she has left, after all the mental stress,
her parents don’t understand her, her friends don’t
take the time to scan her, they just leave her stranded,
left out for dead lost in her head,

Smile for me child, wont you try and live for a while?
Please don't go back and react to each thing with negativity,
and try to get relief through poor stress release,
wont you please stay with me put down that knife,
stay in my life come to my paradise,
But it comes to no surprise, she lies, "I'm fine," the line,
used to define that you're not and I feel so caught like
a naught in my stomach and it's not like I've never felt
this before, but it hurts even more since you're close
but I drift like a ghost through your life, transparent,

I want to be there, to wipe away every tear
and the memory that every scar leaves,
But im afraid of the self relief
the cutting brings its turn into a habit,
Shes just has to have it,
I try to understand it to the best that I can,
But when I don’t… she leaves me to ponder
Wander the streets in my mind to find
The answer, to all this hate and sorrow,
The depression will eat you, me alive but we
must strive to look at the brighter side,

As she lays there, naked in the tub, she starts to
rub body lotion over stomach cuts, just to feel the
sting while she scrubs, its her drug and the pain
that she feels when there's strain, she wont explain
or be constrained as she lines her chest with red
human paint,

Its like a taint of the mind that is never forgotten or wanted,

But still haunted by uncertainty, pain, and misery

The pain that could fill troughs, but the love that
I have for her could never be lost......

There are times
Times where I think I hate you
My heart tends to tell me otherwise
It is jealousy controlling me
I want to be with you
To feel the comfort of your strong arms
Please don't walk away again
To spend time with everyone else
It seems that others are stealing you
We belong together
My heart tells me so
My brain says to stay away
Deep down the truth remains
Waiting for a time to reveal itself
Your truth already has
I can tell by the way you compliment me
The way you tell my I'm special
I love you involuntarily
Not realizing the problems to come
I am jealous of girls you look at
IYou feel the same about me
One day this will all be resolved
Whether through marriage or not
To each other or somebody else
We shall always love each other
Our friendship never failing