As the tears eclipse the last of the light
And the grey blends into the dark of night
With not a single star shining to see
Nor a reason for I still to be

Unveil the truth with many a lie fraught
In ugliness, it holds a beauty of sorts
Water turns to ice and moonlight to stone
As the naked truth sits upon it's regal throne

I push upon the surface that traps me beneath
Yet the fortress is strong with hatred and grief
The air runs out and I can only breathe blood
You laugh at me mercilessly, as you so should

A thief, it steals across the black
Takes away all method of finding my way back
I scream a scream heard only by the moon
And a killer in my skull in the shadows does loom

Punching at the skin that confines me away
Hating the life it forces me through every day
And as my tears eclipse the last of the light
You laugh as you watch me, overcome by the night

Test me and you'll be
Shot down
Ingest me, detest me
Fall down

I'm the jewel in your crown, the one you didn't wear
A metaphor for the daughter for whom you didn't care

I'm the stone of resurrection, the cause of your *******
I'm the reason behind your evil deeds that almost eluded detection

Test me and you'll be
Shot down
Ingest me, detest me
Then drown

I'm that spark of hatred that you conceived on that night
The vision of yourself that forever hid away from sight

I'm the crack in the mirror, the monster beneath your bed
Daddy, I am each wicked demon that swam within your head

Test me and you'll be
Shot down
Ingest me, detest me
Your crown

This life is a forest filled with dying trees
Each branch injects torture into the breeze
They speak of death and the relief it brings
And of the rush of release when the blade sings

The roots remain tangled, intertwined limbs
Screeching into the wind the Hell Hounds' hymns
Ensnaring the minds of the vulnerable and weak
Hunting for prey, it's their strength they seek

Every branch has a purpose, a name of sorts
Each one winding it's way into it's cohorts
Regret was born with Abandonment, a twin
Slithering through it's own mind like sacramental sin

These diabolical splinters cut into my throat
As my internal demons glutton and gloat
Twigs choke me and form my neck's attire
So I ignite a match and my eyes fill with fire

Age old visions blaze through these limbs of wood
Killing them slowly where sanity once stood
Burning in the flames of such animalistic hate
I'm still held captive by the branches of fate

She sits clutching a rose
Thorns stabbing her fingers
She's spitting out blood
But the taste still lingers

As she plucks gently at petals
Tearing her rose apart
She realizes that they
Did the same to her heart

Love feels like acid rain
I fear I'll never love again
For deep within these empty sheets
Is the same old bloodstain

Hearts flutter and beat their last
As memories emerge from the past
While the skies turn scarlet
So dark, so overcast

Flashbacks threaten to take me under
Each move a blur, another blunder
This soul has met it's maker
Life once again tears me asunder

What excuses my wicked sin?
How could I separate soul from skin?
No alibi could ever rationalize
This demon deep within

She's not denying your lies
Her sorry eyes can always see
What lays sleeping within you
Until she wakes that reality

She fell from the heavens at birth
But now resides in the pits of Hell
Her wings remain forgotten
Burnt from the force of your spell

Even now, she can't forget you
Your fist was clenched too tightly
And the blood that dripped from the mirror
Was too real and unsightly

She still thinks she belongs to you
Just another twisted possession
The abuse you nurtured her upon
Became this sick obsession

So now it's time for her to see
Why she can no longer fly
Since you drowned her in the abyss
Born of the blood and tears she'd cry

She urges her wings to unfurl
She's so willing, yet unable
For she still doesn't understand
That she's someone else's angel

I'll be drowning in my own cyanide shadow
Strangled by the fear of the other side of my soul
Frantically clawing my way through this saturnine existence
Trying to regain any small remnant of innocence you stole

Falling from grace, burning from the flames within
Ashes billowing through the air like uncontained Hell
Remembering every movement, each scar you left
And the lessons you taught me, I learned them well

Waiting for the kiss of liquid death to embrace me
While watching crimson gold seep through the cracks
The random bloodstained paintings on my arms
Guide my soul like a map through this latest relapse

I beg of you, forgive me, you see me as a sin
I'm the mistake you never intended to make
So you left me in my own personal pit of despair
A pit that you allowed daddy to help create

Why didn't you answer when I screamed your name?
Why didn't you protect your daughter, mum?
Why did you offer me to them as a sacrifice?
Abandoning me to myself, cold, lifeless, numb

I know you'll never answer me, I'm wasting my time
Just like I know that I'm much better off dead
So I'll inhale another breath of my cyanide shadow
And lay down my weary, storm-ridden head