You said you still loved me
But I didn't hear the lies
That lay deep in your skin
That were set deep in your eyes

I sensed truth in your words
But never knew it was a ploy
You played me, you shamed me
I was just another toy

I believe everything you said
You filled me with spite
Yet I still stayed with you
Knowing things weren't right

Did you ever truly love me?
Was I just another name?
Another pawn to move at will
In your despicable game?

These questions need answers
But I know you'll not talk
Why do you think I finally
Built the courage up to walk?

Now you're gone I see truth
I'm no longer stuck in that rut
Because I'm not chained by your lies
With my eyes wide shut

Where rainbows should be hanging
A black cloud seems to hover
I can't help but be a thorn
In the sides of so many others

Where do I go from this place?
This dark chasm in my head
When sanity flees from fear
Of the internal fire I've fed

Such ferocity these flames hold
The brutality of my mind
How could I have been so callous?
So inhumane, so unkind

I know I hurt your feelings
I hope you accept my apology
But I only wanted you to see
What it is you do to me

I let you in, I gave you strength
And you abused that power
You snatched my eyes, blinding me
And left me in the corner to cower

You may have fooled me, darling
But you underestimate me
I still saw through your lies and bile
I know the man you used to be

Why should I stay by your side?
Why should we be best friends?
I promised you eternal faith
But that contract's come to an end

I'm tired of always wishing for
A less excruciating tomorrow
So now it's time to lay you down
Along with this sweet, sweet sorrow

~This is for one of my once-best-friends who only wants to know me when he wants something.
I hope you learn the true value of friendship. If not, you're going to die a very lonely, bitter being~

It seems that while I have friends
I have more enemies
I lost most of my friends
With bad opportunities

I'm grateful for those I have
And nostalgic for those I had
I miss all the old good times
And I even miss the bad

I miss sitting down to dinner
With companions by my side
Yet I avoided responsibility
And the blame I denied

So when I find myself alone
And short of food to eat
I can always count on myself
To make a meal from misery

I hear the voices in my head
They never seem to cease
Though I beg them, "Please..."
They'll haunt me 'til I'm dead

They're my imaginary friends
And they tell me what to do
I can't tell who is who
They drive me around the bend

They encourage me to do
Stupid things every day
So I get in trouble when I say
Anything at all to you

I wish these "friends" would disappear
I don't know who I am
Sometimes I couldn't give a ****
And sometimes I'm full of fear

Yet I know they're a part of me
So though I hate these voices
I couldn't live without the noises
In my head, I wouldn't see

I'm thankful for my real friends
My loved ones who don't mock
They truly are my rock
For they help my heart to mend

The last stanza,is dedicated to my friends who help me through it all, who have stayed true through thick and thin, who have been there for me and never turned their backs on me. You are an inspiration... not just poetically but also in life. You know who you are :)

I got the biggest shock last night
When I saw zombies in the shadows
And dragging themselves slowly
Across dark streets and meadows

I heard them babbling away
In their own strange lingo
Before I saw it was just dear Grandma and friends
On their way to bingo