I wish I didn't
have to see
your body shaking
as you cried
when you turned 18
because you were drunk
and sad
but I still held you
as close as I could.

I wish I was there
for every single time
you cried
and I wasn't there
because I couldn't even
leave the house.

I wish that girl
didn't break your heart
and I wish
I didn't have a crush
on her as well.

I wish I can live
long enough
to see your eyes
shining bright
because for once
our friendship
is all that matters.

"Do you know
how many calories
are there in that?"
Yes, I do
and I know exactly
how long and how fast
I should run
to burn them all
or how many meals
I should skip
afterwards
but I also know
I'm worth much more
than your opinions
and this time
I will put myself
first.

Poison is green
and so are
your eyes.

Their love
was still
considered
illegal.

The diagnosis said
mad
and the tombstone
said that too.

Carbon monoxide is
colorless
odorless
and tasteless.
It goes completely
unnoticed
until it's too late.

"She was so pretty"
they said.
"We all loved her.
What was her name again?"

She sleeps
inside
my rib cage.

One day
hearing your name
will feel like
watching a movie
with River Phoenix
in 2013.