there is so much hatred built up inside my heart I can never fully express it. I know nobody wants to hear the loathing my thoughts contain but **** sometimes we all want to be saved by someone other than ourselves.

I keep waking up at different times during the night and seeing the aura of your ghost laying beside me - I never want to go back to sleep, but your soft voice soothes me so malignantly I cant help but fall into a dream where my only wish is to be with you

the drugs that help you fall asleep
are the same ones
that haunt you in your dreams

what a beautiful soul
her heart beats among us
the way she breathes soothes your deeply troubled mind -
and she is so beautiful
the way her finger drags crystals along the soft surface of your skin
it drives you crazy
to a point where you begin to believe the sins you commit with her
are your most beautiful moments together
and when her tears drop like a rainstorm in the spring
it reminds you of home
because the deepest thoughts her mind orchestrates
have never made you feel so comfortable

i have always loved flowers
remind me of myself
a heart and a soul
a burning fire
and fades at night
sleeps below the gloomy fogs of springtime
i always loved sleeping in my garden
bottle of wine in hand
wishing someone would come and help
i've always loved sleeping in grass cause in a big world, i didn't belong
i always loved wine
because it made me say beautiful things
even things i wouldn't say
i always loved tulips as they shone into darkness
i always loved roses
because i touched their thorns to remind myself of pain
to remind myself i still take breaths