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Megan Mae Feb 2011
Let <3 be Heart and the equation all makes sense...

                                                   1<3 +1<3= 2<3

But make it logical...
                                                   2<3 - 1<3=  1  < / 3

                                                               ­                   And suddenly its all nonsense....*

Mathematics of the Heart
Doesn’t bode well at all.
The statistics say you’ll never win;
Equations’ answer everything…
Math states you never stay
With your first love,
And that marriage is a lie.
Math states that not matter
How hard you try,
it always ends in divorce.

But then again, why trust Math?
Is there really a simple equation?
Think about it hard and long…
For math can’t tell you
The fraction of your heart you’ll lose if broken,
Nor  tell you the percentage
Of happiness you’ll gain when in love.

So Mathematics of the Heart
They sound foolish when spoken aloud.
For truthfully think the matter through;
How can you tell with logic or understanding
When while in love all is illogical
And suddenly…

Math
           no
                 longer
                                exists?
Every one Keeps telling you to stop listening to your foolish heart, that the statistics never lie... How to the Statistics know?- From Slipping Heart
Megan Mae Jan 2011
When you Love some one so much
you're willing to give even
your own feelings up to make sure
they are happy...
And that there is no other
substitute for the brilliance
of their smile, the feel
of their arms in a hug, and the light
of their eyes, you know you're
knocked out in the corner.
You're lost Rocky...

And When you Love some one
that much, and you can't be with
them not for lack of trying
nor lack of emotion, but for the written
way of the world, how is one to survive
the ache? The hurt of knowing that they
'just might' be with you 'if things were different'
and if Life was 'just a little easier'...or that
'its not how its supposed to be' or even simpler,
'Its more complicated then that...'

Well I Love you that much, so sorry
to burst your bubble. And I am sad
enough to be fine and ok with being yours
secretly, if you admit to being mine even
if only for an hour. Your lips against mine,
your hands on my skin, your eyes looking upon
my body and my soul as if its a diamond.

I Love you so much that I am here,
willingly offering you myself as a sacrifice if only
for the feelings it brings me - Knowing it makes
you feel better as well brings enough comfort.
Don't worry about me, I'll be fine, just
kiss, touch, talk, be... I'm yours
And I always will be.
- From Slipping Heart
Megan Mae Jan 2011
You're in trouble,
Admit it sir.
I am here to help-
So let me in.
Don't worry about me,
I will be fine...
As long as you're better.

I honestly get sicker,
and sicker each day
Just knowing that you're
Feeling ill and uneasy;
So vent, let it go,
Tell me until you're
No longer queazy.

I want you happy,
Just understand-
Give me some thing,
Anything to do.
And I'll lift the burden,
Easily, just for you.

Call me your cross,
For I love you too much.
You're my Best friend,
And I'll sacrifice my heart
Just to be sure you
Feel right again.
- From Slipping Heart
Megan Mae Jan 2011
Once I was wronged before my friends,
They all cried out in protest.
'How dare they treat you poorly,'
They all screamed and fussed.
I merely shrugged my shoulders and
With a soft sigh did say 'Doesn't matter,
We will all die some day,'

Now weeks did pass and it's been forgotten,
And my friend was wronged by a similar few.
I then began to cry out in wicked frustration,
And she then too sighed and shrugged her shoulders.
'Whats done is done, the past is past,' my friend
Did admit to me. I shook my head and grabbed a bat
and said 'You mess with me, you get off easy,
Mess with my friends...

You're ******'
This is a poem on an inside joke of mine with some friends. They always comment on how when some one picks on me or insults me I typically don't do anything to defend myself; however when some one does the same to one of my friends or family, I'm clawing their eyes out.- From Upside Down
Megan Mae Jan 2011
I sing a song for you

Can you hear me sir?
Those whom have held my heart?
I feel so transparent, using music
As a form to reach you.
Yet not even you, my love, hears.

‘Jy’, When I Look At You
I am plagued with someone who
Doesn’t exist, someone who was
Meant and belonged only for me…

‘O’, you’re my StoryBook lover,
I long to hold you the way
I hold you in my dreams,
By why must real lovers only
Last as long as your longest dream?

‘A’, we were so close,
But that was Once Upon a Dream
And wont return again. What we
Had was temporary, a gift of Gods,
It wasn’t true, it wasn’t real,
It was just a passing dream.

'M’,  you were my angel
Let Me Be Your Wings seemed
So easy for you, yet you were not mine
Not meant for me, I’m still grateful you gave
Me wings to fly…

Grandpa where did you go?
Please come back you me!
I’m Wishing You Were Somehow
Here Again but I know it will never be.
You were my true angel, watching over me
I look for you now, Flying like an Eagle…

‘J’, why must you hurt me?
Please Don’t Make Me Love You!
I can’t handle the pain of loving you
Not again, never again. You hurt me so
Much, yet you don’t seem to care.
You’re just a passing memory to me.

Longing to find you my love,
I look into all of them, deeply
In His Yes I search for you till you
Find me and grab me and save me.
I need someone to heal my heart,
How broken it is and needs to be mended…

‘C’ , if only you could see…
It’s Only Love don’t run from it.
I know you’ve been in pain before,
But so have I, and we can heal each other
So  afraid am I, terrified of not being what you want.
Its only my love…
The Titles in Italics are names of ballads I've sung for competitions, and that the letters in ''s are the first letters of boys I've liked and have used them as inspiration to sing the songs.- From Water Woman
Megan Mae Jan 2011
You came out of the blue...


John sat up in the double bed, he was panting. What a dream he’d had. He looked to his left, his girlfriend Casey still slept soundly and undisturbed by his awakening. With care he climbed from the sheets and walked from the room. Once the door to his and Casey’s room was closed securely, John started down the hallway to the common room. John, his two friends Henry and Chris, along with Casey and Henry’s steady girlfriend Nana; had all rented out a multi-apartment on the beach for their summer vacation. The spacious three beds, two baths, with kitchen and common room condo was a life saver for the vacationing students. It was on the cheap side and had an amazing view of the Atlantic Ocean from their own personal balcony. At first he thought his dreams were from the lore one of the natives had told them to scare them off, to stay at another hotel more inward off the shore, lore of the Water Woman. But they were modern college students nothing would happen to them.


It was the balcony that John retreated to when he woke, grabbing beer before he opened the slider; he took care not to make too much noise, then closed the door behind him and walked into the night. He closed his eyes as he felt the simple breezes brush against his skin. It was strangely refreshing to the apartment’s heat and he took a seat on one of the balcony chairs. The sound of the waves seemed to echo through this soft wind, calling him closer to the edge of the balcony. John reclined back in the chair, placed his beer on the side table and closed his eyes once again, trying to imagine exactly what woke him.

He remembered blurs, blues, and a beautiful girl with blonde hair.

This is what confused him, Casey, his girlfriend of three years, had dark chocolate hair cut in a cute super short style that was no more than an inch off her head, with her bangs dangling over her eyes. But this girl in his dream, she had vibrant blonde hair, long down to her waist, wavy, free. John’s eyes shot open. He had no idea what was going through his mind. He looked at the beer to his side and sighed. “I’ve had one to many,” He’d also had this same dream for weeks now, and he couldn’t put his finger on it, it was like the visions were haunting him.

It was then he heard the high pitch tone. What should have been annoying and painful ended up intriguing him, he sat up, somehow sobered. The tone turned to a multi toned melody. John turned toward the ocean, where the music seemed to be coming from; that’s when he saw her.

The mystery girl was walking with her feet just touching the water. She wore a simple white dress that fell freely around her body. The moon was full and bright that night and John stood, leaning over the edge of the balcony and looked down at the girl. She stopped and gazed up at the sky. John looked closer, realizing he was holding his breath, only to watch as she turned and looked up at him. He was on the fourth floor of the building, and she seemed to be looking right at him. His heart pounded. John had no idea what was running through him, but from what he could see in her eyes, she looked like she was crying. In seconds he rushed through the sliding door, pulled on a pair of denim jeans and a belt and his flip flops, grabbed his keys and ran out the door.

John skipped the elevator, it would take too long, and by the time he reached the first floor the girl would be gone, and he darted down the steps. When he reached the lobby nothing in his way stopped him from making it out to the beach in the back. Once his feet hit the sand he stopped, looked out over the beach to find her. He was panting, his lungs hurt from the running, but he didn’t care, he had to find her. He started out closer to the water, she was nowhere to be seen. “Where the hell?” he choked as he felt the water lick at his feet. It was cool, chilly in the light wind. How could she be gone? This beach ran for miles, clear and open with the moonlight…he’d see her if she continued either way, even if she ran. He turned looking out to the ocean, she wasn’t there either.

He was about to give up, turned to return to his room, when just as he turned to head back to the building, she stood right behind him. John had never seen a more beautiful woman in his life. She looked to be around her early twenties, her blonde hair cascading down her body, a form which now closer and defined by the moonlight was even more intoxicating then before. Her white dress wasn’t thick at all, practically a shift or slip in material. He could see more than he bargained for. But her eyes, those almond green jems, they took his breath away more so then her appearance. Her lips were moving, he didn’t hear words, he heard notes, music, a melody similar to the one from the balcony. She moved closer to him, her eyes so sad as she reached for his face. Her fingers on his cheek made his spine tingle.

“Miss,” he forced, his voice waivering. “What are you doing out here? It’s not safe for a woman like you,”

“Why did you come?” she asked sadly. John didn’t understand.

“What do you mean?”

“Why did you come? You shouldn’t have come.” John melted at her voice, it was almost as beautiful as her singing.

“You looked like you were lonely.” He said finally.

“I am,” her eyes seemed to seep sadness. He couldn’t understand why. What he would give to see her smile.

“Miss are you alright? Do you need me to walk you back to your place?” he asked absently. The thoughts of his girlfriend Casey back in the room four floors up seemed to vanish. He watched as her lips slowly smiled, her eyes sadder still.

“Do you want to go for a swim?” she asked. He watched as her fingers laced around the thin straps of her shift, she seemed to be taking the gown off. He flinched, she paused, her smile still overpowering her horribly sad eyes. She let her white teeth shine as she slowly stepped back into the water. “Come swim with me,” her voice was like a song alone, no instrumental, no notes needed. She let her shift fall to the water, it floated there before she stepped out of it stepping back into the waves. John was trapped in her gaze, unable to look away, absently following.

He was chest deep by the time she was neck deep in the water. “Follow me,” she cooed. He only saw her eyes, barely paying attention the waves grew angrier.

By the time he noticed the horrible weather, the rain, the lightning, the raging waves, it was to late. The woman had embraced him, pressed her lips against his, pulling him deeper in the raging waters. And though he wanted to get out of the cold water, he swam deeper. He followed the beautiful woman of his dreams.


The next morning Casey woke to find John missing. Chris, Nana and Henry all went searching for him, no note, his key’s missing, his flip flops gone. Casey had a horrible feeling that he was gone for good. She didn’t fully trust this gut feeling until the police found one of his flip flops farther down the beach washed up on the shore.

The students left the place, unable to find their friends. What they didn’t know was that he was looking up at them, in each wave that encased Casey’s feet, he looked up sadly drowning in his tears invisible to the eyes of his friends, pained that he’d never see this girl ever again, and he was swept away once again by the tide.
All because he didn’t hear of the lore of the Water Woman.
Prose or Short Story, you pick, but please tell me what you think.- From Water Woman
Megan Mae Jan 2011
He was no more than a memory, she would look at his picture and see this. His hair wasn't as long as it used to be, he was much taller, and his style had changed from the youth to the young adult he'd become. But she noticed when he walked past her with his friends and his new girlfriend, that one thing hadn't changed. His smile.

She remembered when his smile used to be just for her, she remembered how she would smile back. They were childhood friends, but it was much more then that for her. He was her only friend for so long...and when he left she cried for weeks. He had changed and out grown her, and she had to accept it. He no longer smiled and looked her way, he didn't even notice she was sitting there. But she couldn't react to it, she had to ignore the pain it evoked.

She sat at the table, picking at the food spread out along the span of the table cloth. It was strange but she didn't want him to see her eat, she felt horrific at the thought. She sipped at her sweet tea, reminding herself that within the next ten hours she would be on a plane back 'home' till the winter vacation. She also reminded herself that this man, no this boy, had been nothing but silent to her for that past five years, only coming out to help her heal at the death of a family member. He'd done nothing to keep in touch, had tried at nothing to be a friend, and he had done nothing to stop her from hurting.

At the finishing of her tea, she asked to be excused and returned to her room in the house across the street. There she quickly took her computer and turned it on to the internet, trying to resist the painful tears in her eyes. What if he wanted to talk to her again? What if he wanted to see what she was up to? No she had decided. She loaded up his page, his picture looking back at her on the screen. His warm smile that used to mean so much to her touched her and let the tears trickle down her cheeks. She forced herself to scroll to the bottom of his page, let her cursor hover over the words 'Remove Friend'. She remained like that for moments that felt like forever, and it wasn't until she brought up the courage did she press her finger down on the mouse and finalized the deed. "Good Bye," she whispered as she closed the computer and turned it off. That was it, he wouldn't hurt her any more. She would treat him as he treated her.

He was no more than a Memory.
100% True Life

"We may distance from each other in life and in passing, but you'll always be of grave importance to who I become."
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