Dear Talia,
My mattress is tattooed with your scent.
You held me as I slept.
You kissed my forehead and told me you love me.
You whispered three syllables into my mouth. You create waves in me that wash away cigarette burns. I would hold you tight in the unforgiving night.
I want to drink cheap coffee with you as you smile between each sip and as I master the art of looking at your smile. I want to make love with you like it's going out of style and until our lungs are burning like California wildfire.
I want to evaporate into your breath.
We were side by side in a bed made for us, and I fell asleep in your arms, listening to the calm of your breathing and the frantic beat of your heart.
Your fingers weaved through my hair, and I counted heartbeats, hoping never to stop.
My brain is soup and my hands are worn down from hours of typing your name. Talia. Talia. Talia Betourney.
I want to rock in and out of your body, as you kiss my lips with precise lightning strikes. After you shock me, time and time again, I want to wonder if the lightning misses the sky.
I am flustered and as I type this, I lose control of my thoughts as I become swept into your green-eyed, dark haired heaven. I cannot dream a better dream than your reality. I want to kiss you for every gasp I've never been around for and for every moment of pain. I am not here to save you, though: I am here just to love you.
Your hands swallowed mine, as I was closest to your body. My eyes drank the darkness, and my mind escaped.
In my sleep, you told me you love me. When I woke up, you told that panther something and I wanted to know what his ears heard that mine didn't.
You wouldn't say, and your hands grew slight tremors, the same way farmers grow slight weeds.
We started to kiss like our lips were the antidote. You whispered into my mouth. I asked what you said, being able to make most of it out.
You said, "Nothing." But, baby, that wasn't nothing. That was everything.
After a few minutes, I told you that I made out most of it and that it was okay.
You turned to your side, and your hands shook. I love you so much. I love you. I love you. I love you. Turn back to me. Look at me. Hey.
"It's okay. It's okay, and it's going to be okay, because I love you, too," I said to you, as I looked into your eyes, seeing myself.
You smiled.
We kissed like famine was non-existent, and like the apocalypse was imminent. End my world with every kiss, revive me with every flick of the tongue. Wash me with lava, and give me acid to drink; nothing could **** me in that moment, except the batting of your eye lashes.
I wrote you this poem and it *****, but it spilled out of my fingers after you left:
In a far and distant galaxy, there is a father for you, and a father for me
And a silver car for you and I; driving underneath the alone-grey sky.
And a blue soul that learns to be happy.
And our blood will dye the Dead Sea.
And underneath a together-old tree, our young love will try.
And while our muscles are far from weak,
we will kiss until our mouths are dry.
We will kiss for an entire week. We will kiss until we forget how to cry.
Our brains will tell us we’re irresponsible.
Our hands will shake from all the trust.
You chew on my lip like I’m impossible.
You’ll ******* blood; I taste like rust.
How you could be afraid of my not loving you escapes me.
Don't you know why my heart beats so fast?
Today was the first day we said that we love each other. I hope it isn't the last, because I love you very much, and I don't think my mouth can go a day without knowing those words.
Yours,
Josh