the last time you left my apartment back in may i had so much trouble turning the doorknob after you had been the last to wrap your fingers around it t h a t i almost didn't leave for work. now i c a n barely sit on my couch or stand by the kitchen door or pick up mysuitcase or touch my own s k i n in the s po ts y o u have.
I keep walking through clouds of you in every square inch of this stupid retail store. I wonder if you quit because you were tired of doing the same with ghosts of me.
and from a family of chronic messes what do i have to look forward to except the chance that maybe someday someone will give me a reason to think my disasters could be something beautiful?
i only ask that you do not forget my laugh and the smell of my shampoo, m y ticklish thighs and the s o f t f e e l i n g of m y mouth on your m o u t h