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They had no idea
How she truly felt
And they did not know
With what she dealt
Because she knew how to smile
And hold back her tears
She did this for months
Months turned into years
Self-harmer, depression, anorexia, self-hate
Four of her many destructive self traits
She took pride in her razor
But mostly her knife
She finished her letter
Then ended her life

m.h.
 Oct 2013 Megan A
Carson Taylor
You
 Oct 2013 Megan A
Carson Taylor
You
Nothing lasts forever
Sever the ties and **** the lies
I don't know what I want
You may stand there proud and taunt
I can see right through you
Through the loud voice
And even that stupid choice
Maybe you're what I want
Maybe I do know
Please help me understand
we call this place free
but when I want to love
you won't let me just be

Please help me understand
you really hate "my kind"
but Jesus said love all
unless there's something to find

Please help me understand
how love could be so wrong
when all I do is feel
my love is oh so strong

Please help me understand
how a mother could just quit
when her daughter needs her the most
I'd rather take a hit

Please help me understand
how self-hate is better for me
than loving another girl
I just wish you could just see

Please help me understand
how I can't change my way
how I can't see my self with another
because yes, I am gay

Please help me understand
how love could be so wrong
when Jesus said to do it
and the love I feel is so strong

Please help me understand
how one day your my friend
but when you know the real me
you try to make me bend

Please,
help me understand.
This poem comes from my heart. It may not be the most beautiful thing ever but it's honest and written with a lot of pain and me laying my heart on the line.
ow
Ow, this really hurts
To think we were best friends
To know when I'm not perfect
I better find a way to pretend

Ow, this really hurts
To wake up in the morning
Praying you'll look me in the eye
Without trying to make me cry

Ow, this really hurts
Getting messages from random people
Asking if it's true
Knowing people told
And there's nothing that I can do

Ow,this really hurts
Feeling all alone
The world is against me
Even the "loving" people at home

Ow, this really hurts
Even when I try to talk
You  and tell me no
That it's all just for show?

Ow, this really hurts
You're so concerned with others
That my thoughts and feelings
And something we shouldn't bother

Ow, this really hurts
When I walk
Up the stairs at night
I hope not to walk down in the morning

Ow, this really hurts
To know you don't belong
To feel hate, that's so strong
To cry every night because you're alone

Ow,this really hurts
To think you were best friends
To know when I'm not perfect
I better find some way to pretend
I wrote this awhile back, nothing has changed. A note to my hater lol

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